[fic] Toshiya/Die; Home Improvement | Kaoru/Die; The more things change the more they stay the same

[rabenhorst]

Author: fonulyn
Disclaimer: no own anything


Title: Home Improvement
Pairing: Toshiya/Die
Rating: PG (mentioned nakedness? lol)
Word count: 657
Summary: Sometimes all you need is a little happy distraction for things to look a lot better again.
Comments: For seinen_no! Happy birthday bb, I hope it was a good one (and I know it was yesterday but I wasn’t able to post then)! Written for this prompt (the last one in the comment). Enjoy some happy D/T :D ♥


It’s later than expected when Die finally manages to get back home. Kaoru has these moods, when he demands everything to be perfect and what was supposed to be a quick check up at the studio turned out to be a five-hour remixing session that re-arranged the guitars on the new track completely. It also left Die with a raging headache and he tries to remember if they have any painkillers left, while balancing the groceries under one arm and digging out his keys.

Finally the door creaks open after the third try and inwardly Die thinks he needs to do something about the noise before it drives him insane, migraine or not. “I’m home!” He shouts as he steps into the apartment, toes off his shoes and throws the keys on the small table next to the gigantic mirror. The brown paper bag feels heavier than it should and he pads into the kitchen to set it down on the table, before returning to the living room.

Now how did he miss this the first time around? Their bed is in the middle of the living room floor, a small table next to it and pretty much everything that was once under the bed is now on top of the bed. There’s music coming from the bedroom and for a moment Die considers if he really wants to walk in there. His curiosity wins, and he does.

The bedroom floor is covered in newspaper, as are the doors of the closet and the windows. There is a small radio on the empty floor, in the midst of open paint cans and splashes of light green. ”Uhm.” He stares for a moment. “I know you said you’d paint the flat but...” The light green kind of reminds him of hospitals. And at the same time it reminds him of spring and fields of flowers and sunny cloudless days. If that is even possible, since how do those fit with any images of hospitals?

“But what?” Toshiya grins, shaking him out of his reverie with his voice. He is standing there, wielding the paint roller like a weapon, but that isn’t the most disturbing thing, or what caught Die’s attention. What did, then? The fact that Toshiya is, you see, stark naked. There are some splotches of paint on his thighs and his chest, a little bit in his hair, but that doesn’t exactly count as clothing.

“But,” Die tries hard to come up with something eloquent, wrecking his brains for something intelligible to say. “You’re naked!” Alright not the most intelligent way to start a conversation, but it’s true nevertheless. “What happened to your clothes?”

“I figured this would be the easy way!” Toshiya explains easily, waving the paint roller in the air in a way that makes droplets of light green splash on Die’s shirt. On his expensive shirt, mind you, and he at least tries to dodge. “I didn’t find much old clothes we could sacrifice and the paint will never come off fabric so… save clothes? Besides you know I always sweat like a pig.”

That now makes Die laugh. “True enough.” That makes sense and he grins as he steps up closer to the bassist. “Need help with that?” He asks and makes sure to roll his voice just right, to make it come out a low purr.

“The painting,” Toshiya asks with a grin, “or the sweating?”

Die laughs as he aims in for a kiss. “Either way.”

They end up with more paint on their skin than on the walls. Die suspects he even swallowed some when Toshiya made him laugh and that of course results in another kind of paint war. There’s a green splotch the size of Die’s ass on the windowsill but neither of them cares that much. It’s there to remind them, Toshiya says, of an evening well spent.

And Die realizes his headache is long gone.




Title: The more things change the more they stay the same
Pairing: Kaoru/Die
Rating: PG
Word count: 453
Summary: Change is the most difficult thing in the world. Especially when you’re not ready to let go. Not now and not ever.
Comments: It’s only slightly angsty, not as depressing as the summary sounds :/ I was in the mood for writing some touring/working D/K and I have no excuse for this. It just happened. Maybe I needed to get it out of my system.


Kaoru never thought he would change this much.

Ever since they began he was the one who enjoyed being a rock god the most. He took his place on stage and made the audience scream for him. He was the king, ruling his kingdom from the throne that was his place on stage. It was so different from the others. Shinya had his own place behind the drums and the man always preferred that, being the irreplaceable but barely noticeable one during lives. Toshiya loved having his own show, charming everyone with his genuine nature and the way he did his own thing. Kyo, Kyo was an artist who put everything he had into it, every little bit.

While Die, Die lived the music. He threw himself into the current and allowed it to take him away. He lived and breathed the music. It was a part of him, became one with him for those few precious moments with the spotlights burning down on them and the muggy air in the hall making hair stick to their skin. Kaoru always admired him for that, wanted it to come so effortlessly for him. Then again, he could be the rock god whenever he wanted to. Die wore his emotions on his sleeve and if he had a bad day one could see it miles away. Still, he was always genuine.

And it never changed.

Kaoru felt the change in himself. He preferred standing on the side, in the shadows, much more than before. He wouldn't take contact with the audience like before, not with such grand gestures. It wasn't that he didn't care. Quite the contrary, he felt like he paid more attention to the audience than ever. Still everything became more subtle, how his headbanging changed to content nodding along to the songs, how running on stage changed to taking a few steps closer to the edge.

It was exactly how he had changed in his relationship, too. There had been passionate nights, fierce fights with two strong personalities clashing, there had been good times to make up for the rough. They had always lived through it, the connection between them growing even stronger. Things that had seemed to push them further apart always ended up twining their lives together inseparably. That was how it always went. How they kept on gravitating towards each other.

But now. Kaoru had changed. Die was still the same. Matured, deepened, but yet the same.

That was the most terrifying thought in the world. Kaoru was a man of action but this wasn't anything he could fix. It wasn't anything he could grasp tangibly.

He wasn't ready to let go. He hoped he never would need to.

Comments

[seinen-no.livejournal.com]

Oh honey, you really wrote one to that prompt and I love you for it! I knew you'd pull it off nothing short of perfect. I don't have to say I love it, do I? and the thought of a light green buttprint on the windowsill just made me grin. They are exactly like that in my mind and that's why I love Die and Tosh so much. Thank you for this *huggles*
Btw, I had a really good b-day, don't worry :D

And the Kao/Die? I think it mirrors how I do feel towards them these days. It's not like my love for them has changed but Kao has and he makes it harder to make him appear more lively and a bit dorky even and not just so serious all the time. I really liked this one a lot, too and it wasn't as angsty as I feared after what you told me.

Thank you SOOOOOO much for writing something for me. It always makes me feel special!

[fonulyn.livejournal.com]

haha I felt like D/T one evening and I decided to see which prompts I didn't write anything to yet x) I love the two of them like that, playful and relaxed and not stressing too much about things :D They'd have so much fun painting!

I think the whole drabble is less about D/K and more about how I feel right now. I love the duo, and I love the pairing. But it feels like things have shifted somehow and I'm not sure what's going on anymore. But it's not all angsty! There's potential happiness in store for them XD

Aww I am just so happy that you liked it (/them)! :D Makes me all giggly XD *hugs* ♥♥♥♥

[seinen-no.livejournal.com]

I really love them like this. That's why we both shifted to them, hun. They are uncomplicated and even though Die's expensive shirt got a splash of paint, he doesn't throw a fit^^ It is exactly the type of fic I like to read in between just to get myself into a good mood.

That's what I meant. You really nailed it there, how I feel about them, too. I dunno if it's only us that changed or if it is a bit because Kao did change his performance and his appearance on stage so much.

I am still so so happy that you wrote these for me! *hugsbacktight*

[fonulyn.livejournal.com]

I think in reality Die would be bugged about the shirt though and he'd at least make Tosh buy him a new one XD But it won't ruin anything or escalate to something bigger with them.

♥♥

[dark-schuldig.livejournal.com]

This is great. Some people do change more than others, and yet, while Kaoru feels like he changed so much, really, he's just gotten older, slowed down, shook the cockiness out of himself, and yet somehow he knows that from the fans' perspective, he comes off as even more cocky than he ever did before, even though it's the opposite.
It would be interesting to know how Die feels about the time that has passed and how it's affecting them... ;)

[fonulyn.livejournal.com]

That's exactly how I see it, that he's just kind of gotten older, calmed down in a way. I don't think he's cocky or puts himself above others, but that's how he sometimes comes across, to many people I've talked to. And I guess that's where this thing came from. I've been thinking about Die's perspective on the same situation, too, but I don't yet have anything concrete about it *laughs* Somehow it's much easier to see Kaoru's side of things.

And thank you for reading! :D

[rheakurokawa.livejournal.com]

dude, the angst, i can poke through it with my hand. rock solid and everywhere. but really, i know this feeling kaoru is feeling, the fear and the hope, the inevitability of things changing. the end is open like kaoru's wait on the edge of that great cliff called evolution, whether there will be a bridge or a fall, we know as much as he that it can only go forward. it's a lonely walk most of the times if not always, but maybe he can have die on that walk with him too. and i feel that's what kaoru's hoping too. though, even that hope aside i feel that he would keep going on, forward. even if he wasn't ready now, it feels like he's past a certain point where he knows, somewhere deep down, that he will go on even if it means letting go

i know that feeling so well. the battle within. nasty thing.

you know, despite the angsty feeling, it speaks of maturity and it would make sense for kaoru. (even though he's a moron and not that srs bsns in real life all the time i'm sure.)

regarding lives, he does the nodding a lot now, and he feels more i dunno, settled, peaceful, his movements slow and calm, but he does the "come on you worthless minions bow to meee" thing still. he does that and he feels so utterly domineering on stage still. in person he's so normal and warm and.. well, it felt a lot like that, very open. studying and taking in everything. (nevermind, this has nothing to do with the fic, i was just thinking back at the signing and all)

i liked this, despite the mood, i liked it especially because it made me think of being human and all that complicated thing called life :). it made me think of what you said about fandom a while ago and about what i felt about this whole thing myself for a while too, fandom and non-fandom.

I don't know, again, this can be written into all pairings bla bla depending on what an author wants to say and they're all moody people anyhow, but somehow if i think about it i feel DK has a huge potential of deep srs bsns fic. i don't know why it occurs to me now but even thinking back to other things i read it feels like that. and i think we talked about that once and you said how you feel like DT compared to DK feels like a bright summer day as opposed to a dull grey fall afternoon. not these words, but you get the idea.

i forgot where i was going with this

it felt good to read some deg from you again :)

[rheakurokawa.livejournal.com]

obviously reading the DT one afterwards left me grinning like mad. i'm still grinning now. playful toto for the win! and quite inventive too hahaha :D always the one with the brightest ideas. possibly something Die loves in him too, y/y? :D

sweaty toto for the win too. always and forever :D

(i secretly love it when people say stuff like "i sweat like a pig" in a "dude, that's how i am" kinda way. though i know toshiya kinda hates the sweating part, but still, i don't know, i got a special fondness for that sentence in context :D)

[fonulyn.livejournal.com]

That is one part of Toshiya I love the most, the way he seems like a big boy sometimes *laughs* I wouldn't put it past him to have a paint war somewhere on the spur of a moment! :D And I bet Die loves the impulsiveness in him.

I have no words for how much I love him sweat. Seriously. I don't even know why I like it so much, haha.

Somehow I think Tosh is a little bit embarrassed about it, but that he can joke about it in right company? Something like that, I don't know XD But I'm glad you liked and thank you once again :D

[rheakurokawa.livejournal.com]

I have no words for how much I love him sweat. Seriously. I don't even know why I like it so much, haha.

because he looks hot as fuck and it is an entirely human trait that he gets embarrased about and it makes him even more adorable and lovable because of that? :D

[fonulyn.livejournal.com]

ahaha your comment is longer than the actual drabble, I think! But thank you for it, thank you so much! :3

I'm not good with angst usually since... let's face it, life is so depressing I want happy things and sunshine and rainbows and angst doesn't give me any of that XD But somehow this just happened. And I don't think it's completely angsty, overall. It's change, and change needs to happen. There is no going back to how things were and no turning around. But still, it doesn't mean it's the end of everything! Growing might be painful but it's also very needed.

I know he has the "come and bow to your master!" attitude still, but he is so much more subtle with it, to me it seems. Maybe he learned to show it in smaller gestures and doesn't need to put up a huge act for it now ;D But it seems he calmed down, grew up in a way, and maybe lost some of the passion of youth. I'm not saying he doesn't care. He's just maybe not as ...fierce about it as he used to be.

I think so too! D/K has so much potential and especially for these deeper topics. I think it's partly the way Kaoru in specific seems to have grown, but there's always been a kind of seriousness to the dynamics of the pairing. And I don't mean serious in a bad way. Seriousness is needed as well as easygoing happiness :)

Thank you for reading :) and for commenting! Even if I'm not sure if I answered even half of it properly, haha.

[rheakurokawa.livejournal.com]

i speaketh in long and convoluted sentences don't you know? hahahah

life is so depressing I want happy things and sunshine and rainbows


i know. seriously, life can stop sucking. we can haz rainbowz

and dude, this is fierce

[insert picture of hat wearing kaoru walking with boss and the yakuza gang on a random nightly tokyo street looking all badass and which picture i can't find right now but you definitely know hands down]

granted we don't see a lot of that lately cause his suntanned sometimes-boyfriend seems to have stopped the "feed the fans pictures" routine, or he finally realized the fans are mental so maybe that's just not a good idea to put vaguely homoerotic content on the internet in preposterous stances involving kaoru niikura amongst other people (who like to show their naked buttocks from time to time)

[n3uromanc3r.livejournal.com]

I really liked them, especially the Toshiya×Die one, with that nice atmosphere.
I can picture how the afternoon-sun is illuminating the room with the new green walls and Toshiya's naked body dotted with the same green paint. : D

[fonulyn.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :) I'm glad to hear that you liked it. haha I surely loved writing it! :D Toshiya the Naked Painter is a new classic 8D

[jikhyun.livejournal.com]

can totally see toshiya painting while naked. course u know this means NOW every time I see a can of green paint or a green wall all I'm gonna see is toto chan in all his glory. lol u rock!

[fonulyn.livejournal.com]

ahaha so I've successfully ruined green paint and green walls for you! I am glad ;D Thank you for reading!

[ansekishoku.livejournal.com]

And I got all angsty with the DieKao writing ;_; xDDD
sorry for being so late to comment!!!

I loved that drabble ;w; even if it painted shadows in the future, in their relationship. Still, it was so beautifully written that I got emotional and stuff lol xDD (But I don't want them to break up! So I'm optimistic)

thanks for sharing this!

[fonulyn.livejournal.com]

Aw I'm sorry for making you angsty! ;~; b-but it's not really that sad! It's just... Kaoru has his doubts. But things are still going to work out for them!

Thank you for reading~ and don't worry there is no such thing as late comment ;)

[andrew-in-drag.livejournal.com]

BRO, can I just say, I am SO glad that you're still writing. I haven't been kicking around here in about two years, and a lot of people have moved on in that time. I always thought you were really good though. Glad you're still here!