dude, the angst, i can poke through it with my hand. rock solid and everywhere. but really, i know this feeling kaoru is feeling, the fear and the hope, the inevitability of things changing. the end is open like kaoru's wait on the edge of that great cliff called evolution, whether there will be a bridge or a fall, we know as much as he that it can only go forward. it's a lonely walk most of the times if not always, but maybe he can have die on that walk with him too. and i feel that's what kaoru's hoping too. though, even that hope aside i feel that he would keep going on, forward. even if he wasn't ready now, it feels like he's past a certain point where he knows, somewhere deep down, that he will go on even if it means letting go
i know that feeling so well. the battle within. nasty thing.
you know, despite the angsty feeling, it speaks of maturity and it would make sense for kaoru. (even though he's a moron and not that srs bsns in real life all the time i'm sure.)
regarding lives, he does the nodding a lot now, and he feels more i dunno, settled, peaceful, his movements slow and calm, but he does the "come on you worthless minions bow to meee" thing still. he does that and he feels so utterly domineering on stage still. in person he's so normal and warm and.. well, it felt a lot like that, very open. studying and taking in everything. (nevermind, this has nothing to do with the fic, i was just thinking back at the signing and all)
i liked this, despite the mood, i liked it especially because it made me think of being human and all that complicated thing called life :). it made me think of what you said about fandom a while ago and about what i felt about this whole thing myself for a while too, fandom and non-fandom.
I don't know, again, this can be written into all pairings bla bla depending on what an author wants to say and they're all moody people anyhow, but somehow if i think about it i feel DK has a huge potential of deep srs bsns fic. i don't know why it occurs to me now but even thinking back to other things i read it feels like that. and i think we talked about that once and you said how you feel like DT compared to DK feels like a bright summer day as opposed to a dull grey fall afternoon. not these words, but you get the idea.
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i know that feeling so well. the battle within. nasty thing.
you know, despite the angsty feeling, it speaks of maturity and it would make sense for kaoru. (even though he's a moron and not that srs bsns in real life all the time i'm sure.)
regarding lives, he does the nodding a lot now, and he feels more i dunno, settled, peaceful, his movements slow and calm, but he does the "come on you worthless minions bow to meee" thing still. he does that and he feels so utterly domineering on stage still. in person he's so normal and warm and.. well, it felt a lot like that, very open. studying and taking in everything. (nevermind, this has nothing to do with the fic, i was just thinking back at the signing and all)
i liked this, despite the mood, i liked it especially because it made me think of being human and all that complicated thing called life :). it made me think of what you said about fandom a while ago and about what i felt about this whole thing myself for a while too, fandom and non-fandom.
I don't know, again, this can be written into all pairings bla bla depending on what an author wants to say and they're all moody people anyhow, but somehow if i think about it i feel DK has a huge potential of deep srs bsns fic. i don't know why it occurs to me now but even thinking back to other things i read it feels like that. and i think we talked about that once and you said how you feel like DT compared to DK feels like a bright summer day as opposed to a dull grey fall afternoon. not these words, but you get the idea.
i forgot where i was going with this
it felt good to read some deg from you again :)