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[fic] Minho/Key – SHINee – Resurgence – Chapter 6/8

Title: Resurgence
Author:

fonulyn
Rating: NC17
Warnings: infidelity
Pairing: Minho/Key
Characters: Minho, Key, OCs
Disclaimer: I own no one, only my dirty imagination.
Summary: Some mistakes can’t be avoided, even when they keep repeating over and over again. The thing is, Minho doesn’t even really want to avoid falling into the same old trap. That is what makes it Minho’s biggest mistake. What makes him Minho’s biggest mistake.
Comments: I hope you enjoy :3

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There is a pillow print on Kibum’s cheek as he turns to look at Minho, blinking his eyes open carefully. It’s moments like this that make Minho feel more than should even be possible, so he instinctively reaches out and tucks a strand of hair behind Kibum’s ear. It earns him a tired smile, and a sleepy Kibum snuggled up closer against him.

It’s silent, and Minho doesn’t feel any need to break that silence. He’s perfectly content just focusing on the closeness. But somehow he can sense that Kibum is getting restless, by the way he doesn’t seem to be able to fully relax.

“We don’t have sex anymore,” Kibum blurts, suddenly. He doesn’t elaborate more on who ‘we’ refers to but Minho knows, for a fact, that the two of them do so it only leaves one more option. Somehow it makes him glad to hear that he doesn’t need to share Kibum with his boss anymore, at least not in that aspect. He still needs to share the ever so valuable time, though.

As there’s no response Kibum shifts again, uncomfortable, but it seems important to him to get the words out so he pushes on. “I just. Read a book, maybe bathe him. Sit there and keep him company. Sometimes,” he hesitates but only for a second, “he wants to watch me touch myself. But that’s all.”

Minho doesn’t really know what to say. Is he supposed to thank Kibum? Or is he supposed to ask him more? It seems that the flow of words stops though and Minho decides it’s alright, he doesn’t really need to say anything. He simply sneaks an arm around Kibum’s shoulders and holds him close, as if telling him he’s here, he’s listened to every syllable.

He presses a gentle kiss on Kibum’s temple and finally the other man relaxes in the embrace.

“Swings!” Jungwoo exclaims with all of the excitement of his three-year-old life as he quickly shakes his hand out of his father’s and darts forward towards the set of swings. It makes Minho snort as it’s so typical, the boy wouldn’t stay still even for a second if there’s a promise of something to do. He definitely knows where Jungwoo gets it, though, he’s terrible at just idling around himself, so he’s happy he can share the energetic outdoor activities with his son.

Not that he can fit the swings anymore, though. Regardless, he follows behind and stops only a few steps away, leaning casually against the empty slide.

“See?” A voice cuts him from his thoughts. Kibum is standing right next to him now, holding up a cone of ice cream for him as he darts out his tongue to take a sweep of his own. “I told you that coming to the park was a good idea.” He concludes with an almost infuriatingly cocky smirk, one that used to drive Minho out of his skin but now only makes this familiar fondness slip into his heart.

“You are the one who pushes him, though,” Minho points out. “I’m not going to spend three hours behind the swing. Again.” He can’t hold back the smile that’s tugging his lips though, feeling way too good to even fake annoyance.

Kibum laughs. “Just give Jungwoo some credit! He’s a big boy, he can do it himself.”

Casually, Minho pokes Kibum with his elbow, his smile morphing into a challenging grin. “I give it two minutes.”

“Five!” Kibum retorts indignantly.

Afterwards neither of them can really say how it happened but the poking and pushing suddenly turns into Minho trying to tickle Kibum, who does all he can to dodge the attack without coevally screaming way too loudly. Their ice creams end up on the ground a bit further from them, mashed and inedible, but neither of them even remembers them anymore as they finally sit side-by-side on the ground, trying to catch their breath.

Minho knows Kibum hates sitting on the ground, hates getting his clothes dirty and yet the other man is sitting there like this is the best day of his life, practically beaming even with the way his chocolate brown hair is messed and decorated by stray leaves and sticks. He looks so breathtaking like this that Minho has to use all of his self control not to kiss him, right here in public where they’re supposed to just be casual friends accompanying his kid into the playground.

With a quick shake of his head Minho tries to pull himself together, and his eyes land on his son who is trying to get the swing moving by himself. He’s managed to get it sway a little, even if not as much as he’d obviously want to. Somehow that makes Minho blurt out what he’s been wanting to tell Kibum the whole morning. “He is going to get a little brother. Or a sister.”

“Oh.” Kibum looks startled at first, even if he quickly tries to mask the expression by turning his gaze to the little boy. For a moment, he’s silent, but his voice still wavers the tiniest bit when he speaks again. “When?”

Minho shrugs. “It’ll still take a while. Around seven more months.” He has only heard of it from his wife two days ago, and it feels somehow unbelievable. He’s happy about it, happy for Jungwoo to get someone to play with and happy for himself. But it feels much more unreal than it did the first time around, as he somehow can’t wrap his mind around it.

There’s another brief silence but then Kibum turns back to him, his expression somehow unreadable. He looks… polite, and that isn’t a look you often see on him. Usually his face is painted with strong emotions or a complete lack of any. Minho doesn’t think this is a good sign. “Do you wish for a girl or a boy?”

Minho doesn’t really know what to answer to that. Instead he finds his mind drifting, notices how he’s focusing on the perfect arc of Kibum’s lips or the faint pink dusted over his cheeks by their playfight just a moment ago. It’s charming enough that he just wants to wrap the other man in his arms, wants to pull him close and keep him there, forever. Maybe that would make the strange sadness in those eyes go away, too.

Just then, a clear voice cuts the moment demandingly. “I need help! Push me!”

Simultaneously they turn to look at Jungwoo, who sits on the swing looking incredibly frustrated at his lack of skills. It’s Kibum who stands up first, dusts the sand off his pants and practically skips to the boy in a few bouncy steps. “Alright, how high do you wanna go?”

“To the sky!” Jungwoo exclaims enthusiastically, his eyes shining as he looks up to Kibum like the man could fulfil all of his dreams if he just wants to.

A look not unlike his father’s, even if their dreams couldn’t be more different.

This time, Minho is even more excited about the pregnancy. He doesn’t say much or act much different than the first time, only dropping short remarks or keeping Kibum updated. Yet it’s all visible in the depths of his eyes, in every line of his posture.

All the while Kibum doesn’t know how he’s supposed to feel about all of this. He tries to be happy for Minho and in a way he truly is. Yet there’s also the feeling of hurt, of being inadequate and left to the sidelines, again. He knows he and Minho have grown even closer during the years, but the new child is like a slap in the face, a palpable reminder that nothing has changed.

As the pregnancy progresses, the moments they share get more scarce, Minho gets more and more quiet. There are some complications and his wife ends up spending time at the hospital, with Minho by her side to try make everything as comfortable as possible for her. Sometimes Kibum babysits Jungwoo, introduced as Minho’s coworker and friend to his wife, even if on those occasions he feels the constant worry gnawing at his insides even more than usual.

Minho’s wife isn’t the only one struggling with their health. Kibum doesn’t even remember the last time he got a call to go up into the big mansion, much less to spend time in the company building. He doubts the old man has even been in his office in months. And despite all, that adds to the anxiety.

At times like this, Kibum wishes all of his close friends weren’t back in his old hometown. He feels unbearably alone.

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woah! another child added into the mix...why does it kind of feel like Kibum is losing himself and losing the life around him that he used to have. It's all so different from in the beginning...everything has changed so much, I can't wait to find out what is in store for them both. Thanks for the update. XxxxX

you're so right, everything has changed a hell lot! they've gone through quite much already. we'll see what happens in the last two chaps! :D and thank you, for the nice comment! :D

It feels like Kibum is losing his grip on the things around him, he's like in a situation he can't get himself out of... I think this is going to end badly ;_;

aw don't cry yet ;_; /hug we don't know what'll happen! as long as there's life there's hope!

a second baby?! really now. and i thought he didn't even love his wife. ugh. yeah, right.

i'm worried about Kibum. his old 'sponsor' seems to be dwindling away. and Minho's responsibility to his growing family is getting bigger. it does feel like Kibum is losing both men, who he has come to depend on - for different reasons though. but still, i think having them gives him some kind of stability. if he loses them both... oh baby...

ack! a gloomy Kibum on his birthday. aish. - but i'm hanging on for the next parts.

he's just dead set on trying to make her happy, too, since he feels obligated to. although I do think living with her for so long has made him care, on some level at least.

poor Kibum really isn't in a very good situation. if any of them are. and you're right, he probably feels a lot less in control of either of his relationships than he used to be.

I was hoping I could post a happier minkey for his birthday but right now, this is all I have :(

but yes, more shall come!♥

i'm feeling sorry to key cos minho is still continuing his live with his wife while key still the same person who stand beside him and wait his happiness come to key... x(
in this story, minho is selfish and coward... poor key... T_T

Minho is acting selfishly and cowardly yeah, but Kibum hasn't really made it easy for him, either :( he's still clinging on to the boss as well, which isn't really fair. but I feel really sorry for him too.

but we'll see what happens! :)

ho crap. that's just.. OUCH. BIG TIME. I feel for you, key..

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ps: waaaae is key hurting so much? *cries for him*

ps2: I love minho, I really do. but I really wanna punch him in this fic. ><"

I don't know why I put poor Kibum through so much ;__; I'm a bad person.

aww, but it's not only Minho's fault! even if he is being a thick-headed idiot :( but they have serious communication problems, those two.

i still can't quite get my head around why minho's still sleeping with his wife when he has kibum, i mean it's not like they had any romantic relationship with each other so whyyyy.

I agree with what kibum thinks about this: He knows he and Minho have grown even closer during the years, but the new child is like a slap in the face, a palpable reminder that nothing has changed.

because seriously it was like a slap in the face, i'd get really angry if i was him -.-.

it was explained briefly before but that maybe wasn't as clear as it should've been? he feels so guilty for not loving his wife and for not being the perfect husband that he tries to make her happy in every possible way, so when she wants to have kids he tries to give that to her. and partly Minho just doesn't really understand how much it really does hurt Kibum that he does that. after all, Kibum is also sleeping with the boss-dude so they're not completely innocent, either one of them :| ....but I babble, I'm sorry!

I think if it had happened a couple of years earlier Kibum would've reacted more with anger, now he's just more... hurt. and tries to seem stronger than he is. if that makes sense?

BUT YEAH. they're both being really stupid, right? :( they could've had it so much easier if they weren't so stubborn and hard-headed.

hah maybe you did explain earlier but i was reading the previous parts really quickly when i travelled etc so maybe i just missed it T_T eh i just hope they finally get together and be fucking happy -.- but i guess this way the whole thing seems more realistic, like, shit like this really happens, and people are really stubborn, and if they weren't relationships would be much happier, eh :/

don't worry, it could be I explained it too quickly too and it was easy to miss :) and ikr, I hope so too. they should just get their shit together first somehow. but we shall see :) two more chapters to go!

The truth is Kibum has a way out, Minho has none. When the old man eventually dies, which we all know will happen soon, he might lose his "source" of living yet he'll finally be free. Free to love Minho wholly and not be shared. But Minho has a responsibility now. A huge one that he can't possible disregard even if for Kibum. I just can't help but think that as much as Minho is as immensely emotionally invested in this relationship, it is Kibum who is at a more losing end. And that makes me so frustrated. That, in the beginning, he was alone and even after all that has happened, he still is.

Last 2 chapters and I really really hope that Kibum would somehow see his light. As of now, I just really want him to be happy even if it might suggest living without Minho in his life.

Life is just so unfair sometimes. Well, what else is new.

Lol. Look at how you got me so affected.

XD

ahah but it's good I got you affected, it's a great compliment and means I'm doing something right ;D ♥

and you're right, Minho now has ties he can't cut, no matter what. well, of course a wife is something you technically can get rid of but a child not. being a parent is not something you can quit. it's kind of ironic, how Minho was the one who first tried to fight for their relationship and now managed to tangle them up in an even bigger mess.

but yeah. life is unfair sometimes :| we shall see where their story leads to, two chapters is still plenty!

I really really wanna feel bad for key but I have this mentality where I am like key, he was willing to give you everything but you said no and now yes, you are at a losing end because Minho adores his kids. He has also made Key adore his kids too, so it's not as though keybdoesntbfeel a connection to them.

I wonder if key goes home and crys about how his no could have been a yes, let's be together? Does he kick himself or does he even get jealous when he meets the wife :(

Edited 2012-09-23 18:43 (UTC)

haha but you're right! I do feel bad for Kibum but in a way, he has brought this upon himself. Minho did offer him, several times, that they could run away just the two of them and he said no. of course they've both made mistakes, so they're both to blame, and I do feel bad for both.

I do think he gets jealous, and that he sometimes stays awake at night and thinks of how things could have worked out differently. not that it helps now, anymore.

I'm glad though that not everyone is blaming everything on Minho :D so thank you for your comment!

If anything i feel bad for the wife tbh...I mean, how does Minho escape and how isn't she suspicious idek

could also be she just doesn't really care. like, I had a friend who knew her husband was cheating on her but she was happy just being home with the kids and said the man can do what he wants. personally, it sounded odd to me, but it was her choice so /shrugs

not that I'm saying Minho's wife is necessarily thinking like that XD but could be!

oh man....
things are getting deeper.

someone needs to do something about this situation.
it's hurting them both, and it looks to me that kibum feels more than minho does.
someone always wants more in a relationship like this.

you're right, someone definitely needs to do something! things can't go on like this :( relationships like this just can't work, really. but we shall see where they'll take it ;D

i shall wait like this.

huuh ;__;

Minho, you are a bastard. I hate you because you love Key but you still do all these things that hurt him. YOU WILL NEVER KNOW HUUUUH ;_________;

ugh, I can't even start to imagine all the hurt that Key's going through. I was glad that the old man stopped doing all that stuff with Key but once he's gone, what will happen to him? I don't want him to get a job that's even worse than this one D:

AND WHAT IF MINHO ABANDONS HIM? ;_; ugh he better not or stuff will go downnn

ugh, I really hope Key (&Minho) get a happy ending.

YOU BETTER MAKE IT HAPPEN :D (no i'm just kidding. i love me some hardcore angst. whichever suits best)

/dries your tears

I think Minho's biggest problem is that he tries to please everyone and in the end just ends up hurting everyone. especially Kibummie ;__; my poor baby. although he has to blame himself for the situation as well, tbh. doesn't make it any less sad though /sigh

I'M NOT GONNA SAY ANYTHING although I think I'm really predictable so I can hardly pull off a very surprising ending, lmao. but let's seeeeeee~ 8D

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It isnt like what i thought it to be.... everything changed so much compared to the early chaps.. And as this fic gets further i feel more n more pity for Key..........
I wonder if he ever regrets his choice earlier not leaving for Minho...

And why i sense that they wont end up tgt at the end??????????????

Ah molla~

ah it really did change a lot, didn't it? at first we knew absolutely nothing about Kibum's side of the story and now we're learning much more all along. and I'm sure he regrets it, too. but he's hard-headed, he probably still tries to convince himself it was the right thing to do.

I'm not gonna say anything about the ending though! we shall see! :D thanks for reading~♥

Kibum and Minho and Jungwoo, so adorable.

I can't believe Minho is having another child. I feel so bad for Kibum. It's another reminder for Kibum.

I'm feeling like something big is gonna happen. And I can't wait.

Thanks for sharing :)

I was so tempted to write more mushy fluff but I refrained ;__;

Thank you for reading :D as always!

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