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Title: Come Home
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fonulyn
Rating: PG (it’s safe. all I ever write is fluff XD)
Pairing: Kyuhyun/Zhou Mi
Disclaimer: I own no one, only my dirty imagination.
Summary: Kyuhyun hates goodbyes, even temporary ones. He hates them with a burning passion. Especially when he knows that he will miss Zhou Mi more than he is willing to admit.
Comments:
Oh-kays. My first fic ever in this fandom! You can’t believe how nervous I am and I hope I didn’t completely butcher the characters. I’ve been reading everything I got my hands on of them, and it was only a matter of time before I got to the writing part, too. In addition to being new to writing the pair (and the fandom), I don’t usually write in present tense so this is kind of experimental because of that, too.
Also, huge thanks tolark, who gave me a prompt and gave me the final needed push to actually write something! If you wish, you can always bug me and prompt me to write something here :) No guarantees though *laughs*
... I’m still nervous ;___; Be nice?
A few years back, Kyuhyun hadn’t even thought his life could come to this. He had never considered it a possibility. But then, this whirlwind of happy had waltzed into his life, all long gangly limbs and bright smiles and neverending positive attitude.
Nothing had been the same ever since.
Kyuhyun hates goodbyes. He hates them with a burning passion. There is nothing in this world he hates more than letting go of someone he’d rather keep close to him and not knowing when he’ll see them again. One could think it gets easier with time, and he has been away from his family so much that he’s at least had tons of practice. He even thought that he had grown better at it.
Then all it takes is one short sentence and all the hard work he’s done runs down the drain.
“I’ll be going back to China.” Back to China? To China, for an indefinite amount of time. without him. Without him. Kyuhyun’s head snaps up at the realization and as hard as he tries, he knows he can’t cover the surprise in his eyes as he looks at the other man. He doesn’t ask, but he doesn’t need to, either. Zhou Mi can read the questions in his eyes – or maybe he can already read his mind, too, that wouldn’t surprise Kyuhyun all that much – and he goes on before a single one of them can be voiced.
“I told you I’d be shooting a series about experiences in a different culture and now it’s the time. We’re put on hold anyway, there is a break in activities and it doesn’t exactly make any sense for me to hang out here doing nothing.” Zhou Mi speaks softly, and they both know there is nothing but truth in his words. Here, he has nothing to do. Here, he will just get bored while everyone else is working. Here, he has too much time to think.
Kyuhyun doesn’t say anything. He averts his gaze down, looks at his hands and tries hard not to fidget. It’s not like this is the first time the other man goes away and takes his wide smile and endless legs back to his homeland. Then why does it feel so goddamn hard now? He doesn’t quite realize how long he’s been silent before he feels a weight right next to him on the mattress, a warm palm on his thigh as Zhou Mi sits down right next to him.
”I’ll be back, you know.”
“Right.” But no one knows when. At this rate, we could both be eighty by then. Inwardly he has to snort at the image of an eighty-year-old Zhou Mi with skinny long legs and still doing the ridiculously seductive Miss Chic (or something, he only knows the song title has the word “MISS” in it and that is so typical) dance just to drive him insane.
“And you will write to me.” That isn’t a question, it is a command. A command masked in happy, cheery tone so that it doesn’t even feel like an obligation to follow it. Somehow Zhou Mi can make everyone feel like he is doing them a favour by allowing them to follow his orders. Or maybe it isn’t everyone and it was just Kyuhyun, but that thought dies a quick and merciful death as soon as it appears.
“C’mon, for someone who spends as much time online as you it shouldn’t be that hard to drop me a line or two via email, right?” Suddenly Zhou Mi’s voice is right by his ear and there is a pair of ridiculously long arms wrapped around him and squeezing him close.
“Right.” This time, Kyuhyun can’t hold back the grin that tugs his lips and he leans in, resting his head on the other man’s shoulder. For a second it is silent, before he speaks up again. “But don’t expect me to turn into a girl and write you a friggin’ novel.”
Zhou Mi laughs and Kyuhyun could swear his heart just skipped a beat. “You could write me a real letter, too. You know, paper and pen and actual handwriting. Maybe even letter paper with a pattern on it! A perfumed letter, with – ”
“Zhou Mi.”
“Never hurts to try, eh?”
They laugh. And they both know that Kyuhyun will write Zhou Mi a letter once. A real letter in actual handwriting, maybe even on a paper with a pattern. But no perfumes, there is a limit to everything.
Emails are so much easier to write, Kyuhyun thinks. He doesn’t need to think of them so much, and he doesn’t need to go through the trouble of finding paper, writing the letter and sneaking it into the mailbox without anyone seeing it. So he settles for emails at first.
Zhou Mi writes almost daily. His messages are full of nonsense babbling, full of silly emoticons and observations on how his day has been. He might write a whole paragraph on what he decided to wear that day and why, and although it makes Kyuhyun roll his eyes he still smiles as he reads every word. Sometimes the messages are shorter, tired, but they are always followed by even longer emails the following day, almost as an apology. Always, the messages end with “I wish you were here!” or “I miss you!” with a clingy emoticon attached.
Kyuhyun doesn’t write often. He doesn’t write long messages, either. Usually it’s something along the lines of “today was boring, only someone like you could’ve possibly found something good about it” (he intends it to be snarky but he supposes it comes off just sentimental… and he hits send anyway) or “same old, boring” or “write you later, too much baddies to be killed”.
No matter what he writes, he actually means to say I miss you, come back to me.
“What are you up to?”
The question startles Kyuhyun and instinctively he yanks the earplug out, looking up to whoever it is to come surprise him like that. Ryeowook looks down at him, smiling that soft smile of his and it almost looks like there is a hint of concern in it. “You’ve been sitting there for two hours now. Everyone else got something to eat, too. Want me to get you a sandwich at least?”
”No, thank you. I’m not hungry. I just wanna finish watching this drama,” Kyuhyun waves it off, and aims for a casual tone. He is a terrible actor, but it seems to work, at least if he ignores the slightly sceptical look Ryeowook throws his way. Any other time he might’ve been secretly touched by the concern but right now… right now he has too much to think of.
“Alright. Well, enjoy your drama,” Ryeowook smiles and even reaches out to pat his shoulder, before sauntering off to leave Kyuhyun in peace again. With a sigh, he sinks into the cushions of the couch, pulling the laptop closer to balance it on his knees.
In reality, he is watching this stupid Chinese show he can barely understand bits and pieces of, watching how Zhou Mi flails stupidly and looks like he’s overly excited about the stupid story the stupid woman next to him is telling (and probably he is, overly excited, always happy about the stupidest of things), pretending that he isn’t stupid enough to watch it for the nth time within the same two hour gap in recording.
Most of all Kyuhyun feels stupid since for some reason he feels like crying. Crying like a five-year-old, and he probably was that young when he last cried for real.
He doesn’t cry. But when it is time to do some actual work again, he has to swallow hard several times and he prays that his voice won’t break.
Somehow Kyuhyun has to think about all those stupid, clichéd romance movies his sister forced him to watch when they were younger. In those, the romantic lead always described longing and missing someone like it was needles going through you, or a fist squeezing your heart. Granted, he hasn’t gone for anything that dramatic yet. But then again, he has never missed anyone like this either. He tries to ignore it, and most of all he tries to cover it, but he knows his friends are beginning to notice something is amiss.
His solution is to spend more time alone. It’s no surprise, either, since he often likes to spend quality time alone with his computer and he doesn’t need to even make up any stupid excuses when he retreats to his room. More often than not, he finds himself just lying on the bed, the laptop in front of him but untouched for so long that the screensaver is already running.
He thinks. And he dwells in self-pity but that he wouldn’t admit to anyone. He keeps on staring into nothingness, scanning all the items in the room from the furniture to the books and papers and games lying haphazardly everywhere. Somehow it’s so silent. Like something is missing.
Again his eyes drift towards the book lying on the bedside table, the same book Zhou Mi left there on the day he travelled back to China (“You could use some literary influences, Kui Xian, I’m only doing you a favour!”). It’s been two months since then. Two months of not seeing each other and it feels like a lifetime. Idiot, Kyuhyun snorts at himself inwardly, you’re turning yourself into a sappy, pathetic person.
Still he doesn’t know what possesses him to reach out for that book. He doesn’t really intend to read it, he just wants to run his fingers over the yellowed pages (curse that Chinese beanpole for his liking to old books) and maybe get a bit more into his melancholy mood. Except that he’s of course not melancholy, no-ho. Especially if someone asks.
Then he finds something.
The note is stuck to the back of the book and he can’t believe he didn’t find it before. It only takes one glance to recognize the handwriting and briefly Kyuhyun wonders how it is possible for someone’s handwriting to be like sunshine and rainbows.
When you find this, think of me :) Don’t worry, it won’t change you into a girl. Write me.
That is a command, not a request, and Kyuhyun can’t help but to grin at that, the stubborn smile tugging his lips whether he wants it or not. Carefully he peels the note off the book, knowing he’ll save it forever (even if it means that if one of his friends finds it they will never let him live it down).
And there, beneath the note is another one. Written in the same handwriting that is easy to recognize.
PS. I never told you, but I was falling in love.
Love?
Kyuhyun doesn’t realize he’s been sitting there frozen, staring at the note, until someone calls his name and tells him to get moving or they’ll be late. Late for what, he doesn’t even remember.
Kyuhyun has never felt this gay in his life. Still, he goes to the shop with his head held high (figuratively speaking, while in reality he is hiding behind massive sunglasses and a baseball cap) and buys a pink, glittery Hello Kitty card. Since he knows a certain someone who always appreciates pink and glittery of all things.
He only writes two words on the card. He doesn’t even sign it since he knows. He knows that although his handwriting isn’t all sunshine and rainbows, it is very well recognizable anyway.
Two words. That is all he wants to say. All he needs to say.
Come home.
Usually it’s not easy to wake Kyuhyun up and this time is no exception. Only somewhere in between dreaming of random videogames and of embarrassing himself on stage in front of everyone by forgetting to wear pants (not a nice dream) he realizes something is different. When he tries to roll around, there is something to block his movement. He grumbles, automatically elbowing the lump in his way in an attempt to smooth it down or get rid of it.
“Ouch!”
That now drags Kyuhyun to the next stage of waking up. A pillow or a pile or clothing doesn’t usually yelp ‘ouch’ when you elbow it. The next thing he realizes is that the lump behind him is actually breathing. There is a hot breath hitting his neck, and that can definitely not be any form of lifeless accessories.
For a second he considers screaming, but there is something so familiar in the presence that in the end he decides to crack one eye open and tilt his head to sneak a peek.
Only to come face to face with a brilliant smile and deeply sparkling eyes. Only the fact that he missed that face so much keeps him from punching his fist straight into that display of pure happiness. “Hangeng told me you’d be sleeping and that you’d kill anyone who disturbed you.” Zhou Mi explains happily, and even his voice has this sing-song tone to it that sounds so unbearably cheery.
Kyuhyun groans, rolling his eyes. He generously ignores the fact that he’s grinning and that gives away what he really thinks, anyway. “Then why are you here?” He asks, his voice rough from sleep and from the lack of use. Maybe he imagines it, but it seems to him something flashes in Zhou Mi’s eyes at that.
“Because even though you are the math genius here, even I can count one plus one.” Zhou Mi begins slowly, and it only takes a silent ‘hmm?’ from Kyuhyun to prompt him to go on with the explanation. “Kyuhyun and sleeping means warm sheets and blankets for me, too!”
Undeniable logic. Kyuhyun only quirks an eyebrow and when he receives a bright, sunny smile in turn, he doesn’t comment on it at all. Instead he cringes when long, icy fingers sneak underneath his shirt and the taller man snuggles even closer, somehow underneath his blanket by now although he has no idea how that happened. The whole scenario is even perfected by a cold nose pressed against the back of his neck, making him shiver.
“Your fingers are cold.” He just has to gripe about something. It doesn’t seem to do any good though, the answer is still chirpy and happy.
“Wait until I show you how cold my toes are!”
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Author:
fonulynRating: PG (it’s safe. all I ever write is fluff XD)
Pairing: Kyuhyun/Zhou Mi
Disclaimer: I own no one, only my dirty imagination.
Summary: Kyuhyun hates goodbyes, even temporary ones. He hates them with a burning passion. Especially when he knows that he will miss Zhou Mi more than he is willing to admit.
Comments:
Oh-kays. My first fic ever in this fandom! You can’t believe how nervous I am and I hope I didn’t completely butcher the characters. I’ve been reading everything I got my hands on of them, and it was only a matter of time before I got to the writing part, too. In addition to being new to writing the pair (and the fandom), I don’t usually write in present tense so this is kind of experimental because of that, too.
Also, huge thanks to
lark, who gave me a prompt and gave me the final needed push to actually write something! If you wish, you can always bug me and prompt me to write something here :) No guarantees though *laughs*
... I’m still nervous ;___; Be nice?
A few years back, Kyuhyun hadn’t even thought his life could come to this. He had never considered it a possibility. But then, this whirlwind of happy had waltzed into his life, all long gangly limbs and bright smiles and neverending positive attitude.
Nothing had been the same ever since.
Kyuhyun hates goodbyes. He hates them with a burning passion. There is nothing in this world he hates more than letting go of someone he’d rather keep close to him and not knowing when he’ll see them again. One could think it gets easier with time, and he has been away from his family so much that he’s at least had tons of practice. He even thought that he had grown better at it.
Then all it takes is one short sentence and all the hard work he’s done runs down the drain.
“I’ll be going back to China.” Back to China? To China, for an indefinite amount of time. without him. Without him. Kyuhyun’s head snaps up at the realization and as hard as he tries, he knows he can’t cover the surprise in his eyes as he looks at the other man. He doesn’t ask, but he doesn’t need to, either. Zhou Mi can read the questions in his eyes – or maybe he can already read his mind, too, that wouldn’t surprise Kyuhyun all that much – and he goes on before a single one of them can be voiced.
“I told you I’d be shooting a series about experiences in a different culture and now it’s the time. We’re put on hold anyway, there is a break in activities and it doesn’t exactly make any sense for me to hang out here doing nothing.” Zhou Mi speaks softly, and they both know there is nothing but truth in his words. Here, he has nothing to do. Here, he will just get bored while everyone else is working. Here, he has too much time to think.
Kyuhyun doesn’t say anything. He averts his gaze down, looks at his hands and tries hard not to fidget. It’s not like this is the first time the other man goes away and takes his wide smile and endless legs back to his homeland. Then why does it feel so goddamn hard now? He doesn’t quite realize how long he’s been silent before he feels a weight right next to him on the mattress, a warm palm on his thigh as Zhou Mi sits down right next to him.
”I’ll be back, you know.”
“Right.” But no one knows when. At this rate, we could both be eighty by then. Inwardly he has to snort at the image of an eighty-year-old Zhou Mi with skinny long legs and still doing the ridiculously seductive Miss Chic (or something, he only knows the song title has the word “MISS” in it and that is so typical) dance just to drive him insane.
“And you will write to me.” That isn’t a question, it is a command. A command masked in happy, cheery tone so that it doesn’t even feel like an obligation to follow it. Somehow Zhou Mi can make everyone feel like he is doing them a favour by allowing them to follow his orders. Or maybe it isn’t everyone and it was just Kyuhyun, but that thought dies a quick and merciful death as soon as it appears.
“C’mon, for someone who spends as much time online as you it shouldn’t be that hard to drop me a line or two via email, right?” Suddenly Zhou Mi’s voice is right by his ear and there is a pair of ridiculously long arms wrapped around him and squeezing him close.
“Right.” This time, Kyuhyun can’t hold back the grin that tugs his lips and he leans in, resting his head on the other man’s shoulder. For a second it is silent, before he speaks up again. “But don’t expect me to turn into a girl and write you a friggin’ novel.”
Zhou Mi laughs and Kyuhyun could swear his heart just skipped a beat. “You could write me a real letter, too. You know, paper and pen and actual handwriting. Maybe even letter paper with a pattern on it! A perfumed letter, with – ”
“Zhou Mi.”
“Never hurts to try, eh?”
They laugh. And they both know that Kyuhyun will write Zhou Mi a letter once. A real letter in actual handwriting, maybe even on a paper with a pattern. But no perfumes, there is a limit to everything.
Emails are so much easier to write, Kyuhyun thinks. He doesn’t need to think of them so much, and he doesn’t need to go through the trouble of finding paper, writing the letter and sneaking it into the mailbox without anyone seeing it. So he settles for emails at first.
Zhou Mi writes almost daily. His messages are full of nonsense babbling, full of silly emoticons and observations on how his day has been. He might write a whole paragraph on what he decided to wear that day and why, and although it makes Kyuhyun roll his eyes he still smiles as he reads every word. Sometimes the messages are shorter, tired, but they are always followed by even longer emails the following day, almost as an apology. Always, the messages end with “I wish you were here!” or “I miss you!” with a clingy emoticon attached.
Kyuhyun doesn’t write often. He doesn’t write long messages, either. Usually it’s something along the lines of “today was boring, only someone like you could’ve possibly found something good about it” (he intends it to be snarky but he supposes it comes off just sentimental… and he hits send anyway) or “same old, boring” or “write you later, too much baddies to be killed”.
No matter what he writes, he actually means to say I miss you, come back to me.
“What are you up to?”
The question startles Kyuhyun and instinctively he yanks the earplug out, looking up to whoever it is to come surprise him like that. Ryeowook looks down at him, smiling that soft smile of his and it almost looks like there is a hint of concern in it. “You’ve been sitting there for two hours now. Everyone else got something to eat, too. Want me to get you a sandwich at least?”
”No, thank you. I’m not hungry. I just wanna finish watching this drama,” Kyuhyun waves it off, and aims for a casual tone. He is a terrible actor, but it seems to work, at least if he ignores the slightly sceptical look Ryeowook throws his way. Any other time he might’ve been secretly touched by the concern but right now… right now he has too much to think of.
“Alright. Well, enjoy your drama,” Ryeowook smiles and even reaches out to pat his shoulder, before sauntering off to leave Kyuhyun in peace again. With a sigh, he sinks into the cushions of the couch, pulling the laptop closer to balance it on his knees.
In reality, he is watching this stupid Chinese show he can barely understand bits and pieces of, watching how Zhou Mi flails stupidly and looks like he’s overly excited about the stupid story the stupid woman next to him is telling (and probably he is, overly excited, always happy about the stupidest of things), pretending that he isn’t stupid enough to watch it for the nth time within the same two hour gap in recording.
Most of all Kyuhyun feels stupid since for some reason he feels like crying. Crying like a five-year-old, and he probably was that young when he last cried for real.
He doesn’t cry. But when it is time to do some actual work again, he has to swallow hard several times and he prays that his voice won’t break.
Somehow Kyuhyun has to think about all those stupid, clichéd romance movies his sister forced him to watch when they were younger. In those, the romantic lead always described longing and missing someone like it was needles going through you, or a fist squeezing your heart. Granted, he hasn’t gone for anything that dramatic yet. But then again, he has never missed anyone like this either. He tries to ignore it, and most of all he tries to cover it, but he knows his friends are beginning to notice something is amiss.
His solution is to spend more time alone. It’s no surprise, either, since he often likes to spend quality time alone with his computer and he doesn’t need to even make up any stupid excuses when he retreats to his room. More often than not, he finds himself just lying on the bed, the laptop in front of him but untouched for so long that the screensaver is already running.
He thinks. And he dwells in self-pity but that he wouldn’t admit to anyone. He keeps on staring into nothingness, scanning all the items in the room from the furniture to the books and papers and games lying haphazardly everywhere. Somehow it’s so silent. Like something is missing.
Again his eyes drift towards the book lying on the bedside table, the same book Zhou Mi left there on the day he travelled back to China (“You could use some literary influences, Kui Xian, I’m only doing you a favour!”). It’s been two months since then. Two months of not seeing each other and it feels like a lifetime. Idiot, Kyuhyun snorts at himself inwardly, you’re turning yourself into a sappy, pathetic person.
Still he doesn’t know what possesses him to reach out for that book. He doesn’t really intend to read it, he just wants to run his fingers over the yellowed pages (curse that Chinese beanpole for his liking to old books) and maybe get a bit more into his melancholy mood. Except that he’s of course not melancholy, no-ho. Especially if someone asks.
Then he finds something.
The note is stuck to the back of the book and he can’t believe he didn’t find it before. It only takes one glance to recognize the handwriting and briefly Kyuhyun wonders how it is possible for someone’s handwriting to be like sunshine and rainbows.
When you find this, think of me :) Don’t worry, it won’t change you into a girl. Write me.
That is a command, not a request, and Kyuhyun can’t help but to grin at that, the stubborn smile tugging his lips whether he wants it or not. Carefully he peels the note off the book, knowing he’ll save it forever (even if it means that if one of his friends finds it they will never let him live it down).
And there, beneath the note is another one. Written in the same handwriting that is easy to recognize.
PS. I never told you, but I was falling in love.
Love?
Kyuhyun doesn’t realize he’s been sitting there frozen, staring at the note, until someone calls his name and tells him to get moving or they’ll be late. Late for what, he doesn’t even remember.
Kyuhyun has never felt this gay in his life. Still, he goes to the shop with his head held high (figuratively speaking, while in reality he is hiding behind massive sunglasses and a baseball cap) and buys a pink, glittery Hello Kitty card. Since he knows a certain someone who always appreciates pink and glittery of all things.
He only writes two words on the card. He doesn’t even sign it since he knows. He knows that although his handwriting isn’t all sunshine and rainbows, it is very well recognizable anyway.
Two words. That is all he wants to say. All he needs to say.
Come home.
Usually it’s not easy to wake Kyuhyun up and this time is no exception. Only somewhere in between dreaming of random videogames and of embarrassing himself on stage in front of everyone by forgetting to wear pants (not a nice dream) he realizes something is different. When he tries to roll around, there is something to block his movement. He grumbles, automatically elbowing the lump in his way in an attempt to smooth it down or get rid of it.
“Ouch!”
That now drags Kyuhyun to the next stage of waking up. A pillow or a pile or clothing doesn’t usually yelp ‘ouch’ when you elbow it. The next thing he realizes is that the lump behind him is actually breathing. There is a hot breath hitting his neck, and that can definitely not be any form of lifeless accessories.
For a second he considers screaming, but there is something so familiar in the presence that in the end he decides to crack one eye open and tilt his head to sneak a peek.
Only to come face to face with a brilliant smile and deeply sparkling eyes. Only the fact that he missed that face so much keeps him from punching his fist straight into that display of pure happiness. “Hangeng told me you’d be sleeping and that you’d kill anyone who disturbed you.” Zhou Mi explains happily, and even his voice has this sing-song tone to it that sounds so unbearably cheery.
Kyuhyun groans, rolling his eyes. He generously ignores the fact that he’s grinning and that gives away what he really thinks, anyway. “Then why are you here?” He asks, his voice rough from sleep and from the lack of use. Maybe he imagines it, but it seems to him something flashes in Zhou Mi’s eyes at that.
“Because even though you are the math genius here, even I can count one plus one.” Zhou Mi begins slowly, and it only takes a silent ‘hmm?’ from Kyuhyun to prompt him to go on with the explanation. “Kyuhyun and sleeping means warm sheets and blankets for me, too!”
Undeniable logic. Kyuhyun only quirks an eyebrow and when he receives a bright, sunny smile in turn, he doesn’t comment on it at all. Instead he cringes when long, icy fingers sneak underneath his shirt and the taller man snuggles even closer, somehow underneath his blanket by now although he has no idea how that happened. The whole scenario is even perfected by a cold nose pressed against the back of his neck, making him shiver.
“Your fingers are cold.” He just has to gripe about something. It doesn’t seem to do any good though, the answer is still chirpy and happy.
“Wait until I show you how cold my toes are!”
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i think that's what i've been doing lately anyway, getting you all insanely hyper and crazy orzi was lurking on this account, checking if there was something i've missed reading, and jshfkashfa THERE WAS. i prolly clicked the title 0.01 second faster than i normally do. XDDDlol true! kyu's just like that. but mimi will stash that card in his treasure box and he'll go around showing everyone how kyu wrote him something mushy (and on a glittery hello kitty card no less!) and kyu will have no chance to defend himself anymore. THE HARDPROOF EVIDENCE JUST SAYS IT ALL. /bricked
KYU AND HIS SNARKY CONFESSIONS ARE THE MOST AWESUUUM THING EVER ♥
NEXT TO MIMI'S LONG LEGS WRAPPED AROUND KYU'S HIPS omg unnie, look at what you've done to my poor, poor braintrue! and he cares for the other members so, so much, it's so endearing. <333
/STOPS CRYING. WHAT WHAT WHAT PATHETIC ARE YOU SAYING. ILU FOR BEING UNABLE TO WRITE ANGSTY ENDINGS OKAY.
but ilu still even if you write me ansty qmi. just a...little less orz ♥SFJKSHF AND DON'T FORGET ENDLESS LONG LEGS, UNNIE. ENDLESS LONG LEGS. mimi can never really be mimi if he doesn't have endless long legs. XDDD orz and i'd like to have a friend like that! haha i also have one who's kind of addicted to anything hello kitty-related, but she's a girl. so, uh, yeah. hello kitty addicts are awesome though, aren't they. =))))))
AND HUMONGOUS REPLIES ARE EVEN BETTER THAN THE BEST. ILU MOAAAR UNNIE.
AND ABUSING ♥ AND THE CAPSLOCK KEY IS SJFHKSHFSK SO NO WORRIES ♥♥♥♥♥spam me with your wonderful qmi fics, i wouldn't mind at all! and expect humongous comments like this in the future, too! I LOVE TO MAKE YOU HAPPY. ^^
...and you're still the only one who believes that. orz
YEY FOR YOUR LOVE FOR ME /bricked now i'm even more dying with excitement here! lololol
WHAT HOW CAN YOU NOT LIKE THE OUTFITS THEY'RE SO COOL LIKE THE BOYS ARE LIKE IN A MODERN VICTORIAN ERA OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT AND YES YES YES THEY'RE COMING BAAACK AND EUNHYUK AND SUNGMIN LOOK SO DAMN FINE ALL OF THEM LOOKS EVEN LOVELIER OMG I'M DYING ♥♥no subject
haha aw Mimi is just that clever! He will be able to blackmail Kyu into absolutely anything, just waving that glittery card with mushy words in the air, telling him he'll tell everyone XD
Kyu's snarky confessions of love just go perfectly together with Mimi's long long legs around his hips! 8D It's like match made in heaven!
I'd say I'm sorry for corrupting you but... I'm really not XDAw he's just so caring and cute and I want to adopt him, I really do.
Let's see if I EVER manage to write a fic that ends angstily XD Okay I did a couple of them but they were just weird anyway and 99% of what I write is happy fluff. AND AS LONG AS YOU APPROVE OF IT, IT'S GOOD! 8D
ENDLESS LEEEGGGGSSS~ *______* Oh gosh these mental images. Mimi and his legs are ruining me. Seriously. haha I know some people who are addicted to Hello Kitty but they're all girls too x) But it makes Mimi just the more special ♥
♥♥♥♥ That pretty much sums it up, eh? ♥♥
I'll try my best! If only school wasn't eating up all my time D: SO LITTLE TIME FOR WRITING!
What can I say, I have faith in you ;) ♥
haha don't expect too much, bb! I'm not promising anything and I'm CERTAINLY NOT the best smut-writer out there. I'm... just trying XD So it's not gonna be the most dazzling fic in the universe x)
AND I STILL HATE THE HATS. AND THE SCARVES. BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT OTHERWISE I'M LOVING THIS. I just listened to the song and OMG ZHOU MI STOP KILLING ME. Is it possible to be absolutely in love with ten seconds of a song? ;___; Since I love his part in the middle of the song, those ten seconds are the best ten seconds I've heard in ages!♥
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BECAUSE I TOTALLY DON'T MIND JUST AS LONG AS YOU BE ONE, TOO orzlol idek how i'm going to disagree wth such perfect logic like that.
i know you're not sorry at all you awesomely evil unnie. ilutrueee~ and have you seen the vid where wookie cried at their KRY concert? i wanted to grab him and take him home and cuddle him so much. ;_____________;
angsty fluff is better imo! i've also tried to write one and it just came out all kinds of crappy and horrible and ghvjgjmbhjfj shift+delete. :| I WILL ALWAYS APPROVE OF YOUR QMI OKAY. DON'T EVER THINK THAT I WON'T
because seriously in what universe will i do thatYOU AND YOUR ENDLESS LONG LEGS IMAGES OF MIMI ARE RUINING ME ;~; it's kind of common for girls to like glittery, hello kitty stuff, and mimi liking such things and not being a girl (well, he is still anatomically male, isn't he.) is awesome. that makes him all the more special ne? =)))))
d'awww. SECONDING THAT THOUGHT. I STILL CAN'T CONTINUE MY QMI BECAUSE SCHOOL IS LEAVING ME LITTLE TIME TO WRITE. ;______; and i prolly still have a like a thousand or two more words to go. /sobs
gdaskjhgfiushdkn WAYLT. now i feel so pressured to write my first SJ fic perfectly. :/
lololol it's alright. as long as you're writing it, i think i can just about read anything qmi-related. =))
WHAT HOW CAN YOU HATE THOSE COOL HATS DO YOU HATE KYUHYUN'S BIG BOW TOO OR RIBBON OR WHATEVER THAT BIG WHITE THING ATTACHED TO HIM. i have the song playing on repeat all night (i practically raped the play button on my media player really) yesterday and YES IT IS POSSIBLE. IT IS ZHOU MI, AFTER ALL. BUT HYUK! OMG EUNHYUK'S RAP MADE MY NIGHT (i swear that boy is quickly making his way on my biases list) AND KYU'S OHH TAI WANMEI~ ASHFKJSHDGASJV WHY DO THEY HAVE AWESOME VOICES. ♥♥
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I know I'm just perfect like that 8D
ilu2♥ and I'm not evil! ...much.Oh no I haven't seen that and I'm not sure if I can stand a crying Wookie ;___; Aw poor bb.
Angsty fluff is good since it still has fluff XD I think you're too eager with shift+delete. You should control your urges!
haha I don't know but it might happen? XDSeriously, soon I'm going to ignore all five million fics I have unfinished and write one just dedicated to Zhou Mi's long long legs. I could write a whole fic out of Kyu listing the various reasons why he loves those legs 8D haha and yes Mimi is anatomically male, clearly, but it makes me love it even more when he happily squees over girly things and isn't embarrassed at all!
SCHOOL IS FRUSTRATING ;____; seriously. BUT YOU CAN DO IT! *cheers*
Hey no pressure! It'll be good by default ;)
haha I take that as a huge compliment! XD Let's see what I manage to finish and when. BUT I'M TRYING.
I hate the bow too :( The hats aren't cool, the hats look like cheap Russian winter hats and they're so not cool. BUT WHO CARES. THE SONG IS COOL! I LOVE Eunhyuk's rap part! Love it. And Kyuuuuu~ gosh boy he's killing me, too. BUT MIMI!! SERIOUSLY. I COULD LISTEN TO HIS PART ON REPEAT NONSTOP.
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JUST LIKE MEJFKSHFKS ♥ it really is! i had the biggest smile on my face when my alarm started to beep and all i could hear was the boys' lovely, lovely voices. i couldn't think of any better way to start my morning than waking up with that cool song practically blasting on my phone. orz YOUR WISH IS MY COMMAND BUT DON'T GO RUNNING AWAY IF I SCARED YOU WITH MY INSANITY AND CRAZINESS OKAY. XDDD;;;/laughs perfect~
yes, don't even start denying it; you're very very evil. >:)d'aww. wookie cried at their KRY concert when he expressed his want for people to see SJ as singers, too, not only as entertainers (MCs, actors, etc.) my heart broke for him and i wanted to hug him so much for being such a precious sweetheart. ;~;
true! and i like how angst can move me so much just as how fluff can make my heart wibble with the romance and all. i am seriously in awe with those writers who can write angsty fluff very well. SHIFT+DELETE IS VERY MUCH TEMPTING ME OKAY. BUT I AM TRYINGGGG TO SHOO THOSE URGES AWAY RN~
what no no no it wont. 8Dlol with
ouryour obvious obssession with mimi's legs, i can clearly see that happening anytime soon /laughs zhou mi is really just one of a kind, isn't he. that adorable beanpole of sunshine and happiness will kill us with his uniqueness seriously.IT IS JSHDKASHFA ;______________; i already have 1k words written and i think i still have a looooooong way to go before this fic gets finished. why am i this frustratingly slow waeeeeeeeee. ;~;
orz more like it'll be crappy and all kinds of horrible by default. XDDD;;;
/cheers you on GO UNNIE~ 8D INSPIRE ME TO FINISH MY STORY BY FINISHING YOUR 27648236 MILLION FICS AND POSTING THEM. orz
HDAKJHDFKA I CLEARLY DON'T HAVE AS MUCH FASHION SENSE INSTILLED IN ME BUT BUT BUT YES THE SONG IS SUPER COOL AND FANTASTIC AND AWESOME AND BRILLIANT AND ALL THE POSITIVE ADJECTIVES IN THE WORLD COMBINED. ♥ hyuk looks so lovely with their new concept and sungmin~ gosh, that boy. he's giving me a heart attack with his fierce-yet-beautiful look. IS IT CRAZY THAT I SPENT COUNTLESS HOURS JUST PLAYING MIMI'S WONDERFUL PART OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN. ♥♥
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But evil in a good way..? 8DAwh Wookie ;__; ♥ I didn't see that and I'm not sure if I could take it. He is just pure cuteness, damnit. In a way that apparently awakens my maternal instincts XD
I love crying at angsty scenes as long as I know that in the end it'll be alright again. I NEED the happy endings! Otherwise I'll bawl my eyes out and cry myself to sleep for days ;___; Pathetic much? XD AND YES TRY. NO DELETING.
*laughs* You know what? I DID start that leg!fic too XD I'M SO BAD. I should actually finish something and not begin new things ;___; Mimi is sunshineeee~ haha seriously, his smile is such a good antidepressant XD
Oh but that is a good beginning! Just take it slow and give yourself time, sweetie! ♥ The good things come slow, just no worries ;D
OH SHUT UP. I refuse to believe that x)
ACTUALLY! I AM ALMOST DONE WITH THE SHOWERPORN! PRAISE ME! XD It hasn't even taken months yet *laughs* I have about 2000 words and I think it's nearly done. The beginning sucks but the ending is better, I promise XD
Honey, you are talking to a person who has NO FASHION SENSE WHATSOEVER. But the hats remind me of Russia anyway XD And that is not a good thing *laughs* or some old dudes here in Finland wear hats like that too.
BUT I'M KINDA BEGINNING TO LIKE THE HAT ON MIMI ;___; don't tell anyoneI'm kind of liking parts of the concept since it is artistic and they are gorgeous but but... I need more time? XD AND NO NO NOT CRAZY I DID IT TOO! XD ♥no subject
lol at you. how can 'evil' and 'good' be even together in one sentence ide. XDDjfhaskfjkas you probably wouldn't. he's just too precious and i don't think anyone can stand to see wookie crying while he's busy pouring his heart out. DD:
I DO LOVE THAT, TOO. angst is probably one of the hardest type of genres to write, and people who can write angst very well are very awesome in my book. some angsty fics work, and some don't. i guess it's just basically how the authors can effectively convey emotions in words.
i'm blabbering. i don't even know what i'm saying rnAND NO, YOU'RE NOT PATHETIC. I AM TRYINGGGGG AND I THINK I CAN FINALLY OVERCOME THOSE SHIFT+DELETE URGES IF YOU CONTINUE POKING ME LIKE THAT. XDDDorz YOU ARE WRITING THE MOST AWESOME THINGS EVERRR. ♥ I AM DYING OF CURIOSITY ME WANTS TO READ THE LEG!FIC RN. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW YOU'RE INFLUENCING ME TOO MUCH. i kind of abandoned my unfinished fic and started writing a new one and jfhkjfaks i think i might be able to finish the new one first. what is this i'm doing ide.
lol you will, sooner or later! XDD
haha! dsfjasfvh they're furrrry hats and how can you not like furrrrry hats i can't even.
EVEN THE UGLIEST CLOTHES WILL LOOK GOOD ON MIMI. HE'S JUST LOVELY AND AWESOME-LOOKING LIKE THAT. AND SEXYYY. =))))))P.S. I AM SO STEALING THAT ICON DSJAFHSK. >:DD
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Because I'm just that good! XD Evil in a good way is completely possible!Wookie is just so precious, that boy ♥ He should never ever cry.
That's true, and making the angst really hurt is something not many people can do. I guess I'm a bit masochistic, I love having a good cry as long as it ends well XD
hey I think I understood the blabbering! \8D/GOOD GIRL! *CONTINUES TO POKE*I hope I can actually finish them, too! I go from being all excited and productive to just staring at the files braindead so let's see when I get things done XD haha and gosh I'm such bad influence I'm sorry XD BUT YES FINISH IT. I want to read 8D
...because furry hats are... I dunno. C'mon I live in the middle of ice and cold, they're nothing special and they're still ugly XD Although Zhou Mi makes me kind of like the stupid hat since he pulls it off so well ;__; Why does he do this to me? ♥
STEAL STEAL! 8D
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haha! you're probably the only person who can be evil in a good way. seriously. XDD;;;true. he looks too...vulnerable and innocent, that boy needs to be protected always. ♥
i agree. i've read a lot of angsty fics before but i can only remember a few times where i actually teared up and bawled my eyes out because of how good they are. hey, i think being masochistic about these things aren't that bad!
because i think i'm one myself. ;~;LOL *CONTINUES TO WRITE*haha! i think that happens with most people though. they'll be all excited and inspired at the beginning and then at some point things would go downhill, the characters would refuse to cooperate, frustrating writer's block, plot gone wrong and many other awful things. i get the writer's block a lot, it's not even funny anymore. XD;; I AM TRYING OKAY. I'M HOPING THE SHIFT+DELETE URGES CAN JUST SHOO AWAY FOREVER AND LEAVE ME IN PEACE. i've posted a little snippet on my other comment fakjfhak
tell me if it failshdjhajhfajs i kind of don't like the furry hat on mimi. the one he's wearing in the mv. the first time i've seen him with it, i think it was awesome and it looks nice on him. buuuuut then i saw this gif where it's basically him and the furry hat over and over and over again and kdhkafks
i'm sorry i think it's awfuli'll look for that gif and show you!I WILL. SERIOUSLY. >:DD
P.S. KJFHKSJFS I WATCHED THAT VARIETY SHOW WITH THE SPANKING MIMI, HENRY AND WOOKIE AAAAAND MIMI IS SO ADORABLE WITH HIS "I'M THE ONE WITH THE LONGEST LEGS, NOT YOU HANGENG GEGE" AND HENRY WITH HIS UNDERWEAR STEALING AND WOOKIE AND HIS KEYBOARD-BREAKING AND WAE YOU DO THAT POSE WITH KYU. MIMI DOES NOT APPROVE. >:|
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I take that as a compliment! 8DI'm not usually drooling after Wookie, I think he's rather absolutely adorable than smoking hot, but in the new video (I KNOW I CAN'T GET IT OUT OF MY HEAD NOW) he kinda is hot damnit and this is altering my perceptions violently.
It depends on the mood though, if I'm tired and emotional I cry at everything, even goddamn commercials XD But in general, yes, only good ones can make one cry like that. WRITEWRITE. I have a feeling you'll make me cry though ;___;
Writer's block just SUCKS. I hate it and it always strikes in the worst possible moments! D: If I knew how to shoo it away I would but I don't knowwww. AND I SAW THE SNIPPETS. And flailed about them already there XD
I'M TORN. I love Mimi and he looks absolutely brilliant in the video. But the hat ;__; it's ...I really don't like hats like that. But I'm kind of forgiving it and ignore it just to focus on the Miminess instead.
YOU DIIIID!? YEEEEES! I LOVE Mimi with his "OH I AM THE ONE WITH LONGEST LEGS 8D" and the pose he strikes while saying it! He is love, just pure love. And how Siwon and Geng jump in to spank him for it, priceless XD haha and what is it with Henry and stealing underwear!? Seriously, I laughed SO MUCH at that. Wookie is adorable as hell, again. And MIMI IS JEALOUS. MIMI WANTS TO POSE WITH HIS KYU.
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lol i still cannot understand how can you be awesome like that. and so, so evil. otlorz i've never seen wookie in a omg-you're-so-hot-i-wanna-lick-you kind of way. it's more like you're-so-adorable-can-i-keep-you-in-my-pocket-foreverrr. XDh he really did look even lovelier in the new mv, and the changes suited him very well. =))))))
orz i seriously cannot imagine you crying over commercials without laughing out loud. XDD;;; unnieeee~ wae you like that lol. I CANNOT FIND TIME TO WRITE ANYMORE. ;__________; i'll try working on the two fics this weekend, though. i hope i'll have enough time to at least finish one of them.
IT IS. AND I HAVEN'T FOUND ANY CURE FOR IT EITHER. /sobs it kind of makes me want to tear my hair out and throw things when it strikes at just about the worst possible moments. @.@ AND I SAW YOUR FLAILING COMMENTS. THANKYOUUUU~ ♥
i kind of like the other hats, but not the one on mimi. it just doesn't suit him
no matter how he looks just utterly lovely in that mvbut the miminess totally covers the fail!hatconcept so yes, i suppose i can forgive this one time, too. =)))))I REALLY DIIIIIIID~! I COULDN'T STOP REPLAYING THAT PART OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN. HKDJAKFJA THE POSE DID IT FOR ME. seriously, i don't think anyone other than mimi can just pull a sexy pose like that, and his expression! orz i think i just died laughing at those dorks. XDD HENRY, WAE YOU STEAL HANGENG'S UNDERWEAR
do you secretly have the hots on him or something otlyes, that and many other poses, too! XDDD;;;...3 HOURS OF SLEEP. I'LL BE SO BRAINDEAD TOMORROW. ;~; HKAJFKJAKFAS I DON'T WANNA WAKE UP EARLY /sobs
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I'm just that good 8D I am.haha me neither, you're so right XD Wookie is someone I'd want to adopt and I swear I'd make a good mother to him XD But the new video makes him look somewhat more adult and it does suit him. haha though he goes right back into the super-adorable-mode in all the pictures and interviews XD
You laugh at my misery ;____; But I know it's funny XD IT'S TRUE THOUGH. And honey, SLEEP IS IMPORTANT. More important than writing, even. Take care of yourself! ♥
I didn't find anyone who knows a cure for it yet :( I hope someone figures it out once. NO NO, THANK YOU~♥
I like none of the hats XD Though maybe Kyuhyun's just a little bit. I'm kinda getting used to them so my resistance is fading. I don't go all "OMG I HATE THEM" anymore but more like "meh, not cool :/"
I REPLAYED IT TOO! AGAIN AND AGAIN! MIMILEGGGGSSS~ ;__; AND THE COCKY GRIN HE GAVE!? OH YESS. I was laughing throughout it all and now I really want to watch it again XD HENRY IS SUCH A PERV. Secretly he is. haha and I bet Kyuhyun and Mimi tried out all the possible poses already 8D
AWW BB ;___; *HUGS* ♥ SLEEP SLEEP.
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/gives in fiiiine. you're just that good.haha your maternal instincts would undoubtedly naturally kick in when it comes to wookie. he's too precious like a little child~ ♥ true, i think he even looks more of a matured young man now with that makeup and clothes and just the way he handled himself in general. but i like him more when he's all adorable and squishy-looking. =)))))
hfkashfjhska i'm sorryyyy. /sobs I'M TAKING CARE OF MYSELF UNNIE~ i'll be getting enough sleep for at least three days (no classes on friday and then weekends) so yessss 8hours! 8D THANK YOU FOR YOUR CONCERN. ♥♥
me too. i think constantly trying to write, even short drabbles and mini essays, can help cure writer's block though. XDD WHAT ARE YOU THANKING ME FOR I CAN'T UNDERSTAND.
yes yes yesss! soon it'll go from, "meh, not cool :/" to "erm, maybe they look a little nice but..."
i totally can see the future ohyeah orz/chants MIMILEGGGGSSS~ with you *A* GO WATCH IT, YOU CAN NEVER HAVE ENOUGH OF MIMI'S LONG LEGS AND LOVELY FACE AND SUNSHINEY PERSONALITY AND ADORABLE DORKINESS OKAAAY. ♥ lol at henry! he's really not the innocent child that a lot of people thought he was. XD yes yes, they did! all those conventional and out-of-this-world poses. 8DD
/GLOMPS I WILL, UNNIE. IN JUST A LITTLE WHILE~ =))))
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*happy* 8DEven if he looks matured and cooler, I still am like a proud mother watching her son grow up *laughs* All "AW MY SWEET BOY GREW UP!" I love him all adorable, I do.
Aw sounds gooooood~ Have a refreshing weekend then ;D I only have three hours of
hellishly boringlessons tomorrow and then thankfully weekend! ♥That's true. I'm always trying to search for prompts and little things that inspire to write at least a drabble. Somehow it's easier to finish things if they're requests from someone since then I feel obliged to XD
*laughs* I think you actually CAN see the future XD I can see it changing until we're actually squeeing over the stupid hats XD
I can't! I'm trying to make icons XD And I promised myself I'd finish at least a few of them tonight XD BUT I'LL BE THINKING OF MIMI'S LEGS. And gosh, Henry XD I'm liking him more and more all the time, too. ...and now I'm thinking of Kyu and Mimi doing poses together *laughs*
I don't even know what time it is there now XD Around 1 am? Later than here in any case x)