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Title: I'll Be There For You
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fonulyn
Rating: PG
Pairing: DiexKaoru
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the persons mentioned in this nor have any connections with them. I do not get any money from this, and it's written solely for entertainment purposes meaning no harm.
Comments: Kaoru and Die have been together for over two years now, and everything seems to be fine. But then Kaoru finds out that Die is hiding something. Read to find out how serious it is :D
I'll Be There For You
I had difficulties in concentrating during our last song at that day’s practices. I tried really hard to focus on my guitar but all the time my attention was caught up by a mass of red hair on the other side of the room. It wasn’t like I hadn’t been watching Die before, after all we had already been living together for two years by then. It’s just simply that every now and then I rediscovered the fact that he was absolutely the most attractive man I’d ever seen. I licked my lips and hoped for the time to pass quickly. This time, I didn’t disappoint. When the last chords were still lingering in the air, Kyo and Shinya were already out of the door. Toshiya was still putting away his instrument, but I decided his presence was irrelevant.
“Come here, Die.” The redhead in question took a glance at me and rested his guitar against the wall before walking to me. As soon as he was close enough I grabbed his collar and smashed our lips together in a passionate kiss. In the corner of my eye I could see Toshiya rolling his eyes. “Can’t you guys wait at least until I have exited the room before you start your sessions?” I let go of Die and smiled at our bassist. “I think you’re adult enough not to be shocked to death by our innocent signs of affection.” Toshiya sighed and offered a small grin. “Okay, okay, whatever you say, o-great-leader.” With that he was out of the door leaving me alone with my stunning redhead.
Die smirked at me. “You’re more eager than usual, Kao.” I decided to ignore that comment completely at that moment. So I reached up to capture his lips with mine again. After a while I took a small step back and looked at his face. “Does that bother you?” That heart-melting grin broke across his face. “Not at all… But could we maybe continue with this after we get home?” I laughed. “As long as you promise not to forget where we were.”
I was ready long before Die, he had always been quite slow with everything that considered working, so I had time for my thoughts. Die looked happy, but I couldn’t help noticing the dark circles under his eyes, as if he’d not been sleeping properly lately. He had been unusually tired, but I blamed it on the tour that ended just a little over than week ago. We had all been working extra hard with that one. I really should see to it that Die would rest now. Suddenly I came back from my thoughts when Die had finished packing his guitar and stuff for the night. I locked the door behind us as we headed home.
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Sometimes you just have to admit yourself to take it easier. I wouldn’t call myself lazy, but here I was, lying in the bed although it was almost one in the afternoon. Die had left early, he had promised to go fishing with Toshiya. I smiled sleepily at the thought of those two trying to catch even a tiny fish. But what mattered was that they had fun.
I fought the urge to fall asleep again and slowly lifted myself to a sitting position. It would be no use to just lay there and do nothing. Maybe I should try to fix something for dinner. I let out a wide yawn and stood up. The floor felt cold against my bare feet. The winter was nearer than I had realized. I decided that I might wake up if I had a cup of strong coffee and wandered to the kitchen. But then the phone rang and stopped me on my tracks. I only let it ring demandingly a couple of times before I raised receiver.
“Mr. Ando? This is doctor Seguchi. I have good news for you, we were able to reschedule your appointment Would you be able to make time for tomorrow?” The man spoke so fast that at first I couldn’t get a word in. And after his words I was too shocked to say anything. The silence was long before the man, apparently a doctor of some sort, started to talk again. “Is anyone there? Hello?” I breathed heavily. ”Oh, sorry. I’ll pass the message.” I didn’t wait for his answer, I just let the receiver slip from my grasp.
It was dark outside already, when I heard the sound of our front door being opened. I sat on the floor beside our telephone. I hadn’t moved all day, I had just thought. And been worried sick. I heard a quiet humming from the hall and heading my way. After a while a head covered in a mass of red hair popped through the doorway. “Oh, here you are, Kao. How was your day?” His grin soon faded as he saw my expression.
He crossed the floor and kneeled beside me. “What’s wrong?” He tried to envelope me in his arms but I backed off. “Die…What’s wrong with you?” He looked at me questioningly. “What do you mean wrong with me?” The anger started to boil inside of me. I was too scared of what the answer could be, so I had no choice but to let the anger override the fear. “Don’t you fucking dare to pretend you don’t understand what I’m asking! You got a phone call. It was some doctor.” His jaw dropped and he hung his head down. “Kaoru… I meant to tell you everything, but I just didn’t want to worry you.” He bit his lip and looked at me pleadingly, but I had already lost my temper. Sitting on the cold floor for almost seven hours couldn’t make anyone happy. “So you decided to wait until you died and let me find out then? You don’t even trust me enough to let me know things of this magnitude?”
Die jumped at his feet and backed away from me. I saw the hurt in his eyes, and a part of me wanted to kneel in front of him and beg for forgiveness. But my pride was stronger. He took a deep breath and started to speak, trying to keep his voice steady. “Kaoru, I have a tumour in my stomach. They don’t know yet if it’s cancer or anything like that, they’ll have to run more tests. And that’s probably what the doctor was calling about. And I’m sorry that I didn’t tell you, but - ” “Then why!? Why didn’t you tell me? Is that how little you think of me?”
He closed his eyes and spoke quietly. “Kao - ” At this point I was already going out of the door. I needed to go somewhere and think. The door slammed shut behind me as I just rushed off, leaving Die to stand alone in the living-room.
Thoughts rushed through my head so fast that I could barely get a grip of any of them. So Die was sick. What if he had cancer? What if it was inoperable? What if he would die? How could I live without getting to see his comforting smile or to touch his soft cheek or hear his voice ever again? I had never been this scared in my whole life. Only thing I was sure of at that moment was that I could never imagine my life without having that annoying lunkhead around. I needed him.
Slowly I calmed down and began to think rationally. At that moment I realized how idiotic I had been. This was probably a moment in Die’s life in which he needed me to be there for him more than anything. And all I do is to be selfish and accuse him of not trusting me, when all along he was just trying to protect me however stupid it might have been. I walked back home, intending to solve this for once and for all. As I opened the door of our apartment all that greeted me was emptiness. No Die. No note. Nothing. I had no idea where he could be. But I knew that he’d go to see the doctor the next day. So I made up my mind.
I was standing in the parking lot in front of the hospital waiting for Die to come out. I remembered vaguely that his appointment was somewhere around two or three in the afternoon. So, I arrived at half past one, determined to wait as long as it would take. A little before three I saw a familiar figure in the doorway. Die looked lost somehow, maybe a bit lonely. I knew that I should have been there with him. Now the least I could do was to apologize. He walked straight to his car, and naturally to me as I was standing only two feet away from it.
”Kao? What are you doing here?” There was uncertainty in his voice. He didn’t dare to look me in the eye, instead he stared at his shoes like they were the most interesting thing in this universe. I sighed and gently brought my hand under his chin so I could lift his head up. I stared into those dark eyes which caused me to fall in love again every time I saw them. “I’m sorry, Die.” He looked a little surprised and as usual he tried to hide his nervousness by babbling. But this time I didn’t let him. “Don’t say anything, let me finish. I really mean that I’m sorry. I can’t even imagine how hard this must be for you. And I certainly didn’t behave like a responsible adult should have. So, all I want to say is that I love you, and I want to be there for you. If you still let me.” Small tears were forming in the corners of his eyes. But they were tears of relief. He didn’t say a word, just stepped closer and hugged me close.
We spent the rest of the day just lying on the couch and talking. It felt good to have things solved without any bigger damage done to our relationship. In the evening we didn’t really even talk anymore, we just enjoyed the feeling of being so close. Neither one of us bothered to stand up to put the lights on so we watched the shadows slowly fill the room as the night crept closer. Die was lying beside me, his head against my chest and his arms wrapped around my waist. I slowly caressed his hair and listened to his soft breathing.
After a while Die’s quiet voice broke the silence. ”What if I’ll lose my hair and then I’ll be bald and ugly?” I smiled at him and squeezed him against me. “Silly. If it turns out to be bad, they’ll operate you, that doesn’t cause you to lose your hair. And although you have beautiful hair, it’s not the reason I want to share my life with you. Actually the reason is that cute little butt of yours.” “Kaoru!” He began to pout and I just had to smile at him. “C’mon, you know I’m kidding.” He hit my arm softly. “You’re so cruel.” I leaned in to kiss him softly. “Don’t be afraid, Die, we’ll get through this.” I didn’t just say it to make him feel better, I really had the feeling that everything would end up fine as long as we’d be together. He looked into my eyes for a long time, searching. Then he nodded. “I believe you.”
Author:
fonulynRating: PG
Pairing: DiexKaoru
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the persons mentioned in this nor have any connections with them. I do not get any money from this, and it's written solely for entertainment purposes meaning no harm.
Comments: Kaoru and Die have been together for over two years now, and everything seems to be fine. But then Kaoru finds out that Die is hiding something. Read to find out how serious it is :D
I had difficulties in concentrating during our last song at that day’s practices. I tried really hard to focus on my guitar but all the time my attention was caught up by a mass of red hair on the other side of the room. It wasn’t like I hadn’t been watching Die before, after all we had already been living together for two years by then. It’s just simply that every now and then I rediscovered the fact that he was absolutely the most attractive man I’d ever seen. I licked my lips and hoped for the time to pass quickly. This time, I didn’t disappoint. When the last chords were still lingering in the air, Kyo and Shinya were already out of the door. Toshiya was still putting away his instrument, but I decided his presence was irrelevant.
“Come here, Die.” The redhead in question took a glance at me and rested his guitar against the wall before walking to me. As soon as he was close enough I grabbed his collar and smashed our lips together in a passionate kiss. In the corner of my eye I could see Toshiya rolling his eyes. “Can’t you guys wait at least until I have exited the room before you start your sessions?” I let go of Die and smiled at our bassist. “I think you’re adult enough not to be shocked to death by our innocent signs of affection.” Toshiya sighed and offered a small grin. “Okay, okay, whatever you say, o-great-leader.” With that he was out of the door leaving me alone with my stunning redhead.
Die smirked at me. “You’re more eager than usual, Kao.” I decided to ignore that comment completely at that moment. So I reached up to capture his lips with mine again. After a while I took a small step back and looked at his face. “Does that bother you?” That heart-melting grin broke across his face. “Not at all… But could we maybe continue with this after we get home?” I laughed. “As long as you promise not to forget where we were.”
I was ready long before Die, he had always been quite slow with everything that considered working, so I had time for my thoughts. Die looked happy, but I couldn’t help noticing the dark circles under his eyes, as if he’d not been sleeping properly lately. He had been unusually tired, but I blamed it on the tour that ended just a little over than week ago. We had all been working extra hard with that one. I really should see to it that Die would rest now. Suddenly I came back from my thoughts when Die had finished packing his guitar and stuff for the night. I locked the door behind us as we headed home.
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Sometimes you just have to admit yourself to take it easier. I wouldn’t call myself lazy, but here I was, lying in the bed although it was almost one in the afternoon. Die had left early, he had promised to go fishing with Toshiya. I smiled sleepily at the thought of those two trying to catch even a tiny fish. But what mattered was that they had fun.
I fought the urge to fall asleep again and slowly lifted myself to a sitting position. It would be no use to just lay there and do nothing. Maybe I should try to fix something for dinner. I let out a wide yawn and stood up. The floor felt cold against my bare feet. The winter was nearer than I had realized. I decided that I might wake up if I had a cup of strong coffee and wandered to the kitchen. But then the phone rang and stopped me on my tracks. I only let it ring demandingly a couple of times before I raised receiver.
“Mr. Ando? This is doctor Seguchi. I have good news for you, we were able to reschedule your appointment Would you be able to make time for tomorrow?” The man spoke so fast that at first I couldn’t get a word in. And after his words I was too shocked to say anything. The silence was long before the man, apparently a doctor of some sort, started to talk again. “Is anyone there? Hello?” I breathed heavily. ”Oh, sorry. I’ll pass the message.” I didn’t wait for his answer, I just let the receiver slip from my grasp.
It was dark outside already, when I heard the sound of our front door being opened. I sat on the floor beside our telephone. I hadn’t moved all day, I had just thought. And been worried sick. I heard a quiet humming from the hall and heading my way. After a while a head covered in a mass of red hair popped through the doorway. “Oh, here you are, Kao. How was your day?” His grin soon faded as he saw my expression.
He crossed the floor and kneeled beside me. “What’s wrong?” He tried to envelope me in his arms but I backed off. “Die…What’s wrong with you?” He looked at me questioningly. “What do you mean wrong with me?” The anger started to boil inside of me. I was too scared of what the answer could be, so I had no choice but to let the anger override the fear. “Don’t you fucking dare to pretend you don’t understand what I’m asking! You got a phone call. It was some doctor.” His jaw dropped and he hung his head down. “Kaoru… I meant to tell you everything, but I just didn’t want to worry you.” He bit his lip and looked at me pleadingly, but I had already lost my temper. Sitting on the cold floor for almost seven hours couldn’t make anyone happy. “So you decided to wait until you died and let me find out then? You don’t even trust me enough to let me know things of this magnitude?”
Die jumped at his feet and backed away from me. I saw the hurt in his eyes, and a part of me wanted to kneel in front of him and beg for forgiveness. But my pride was stronger. He took a deep breath and started to speak, trying to keep his voice steady. “Kaoru, I have a tumour in my stomach. They don’t know yet if it’s cancer or anything like that, they’ll have to run more tests. And that’s probably what the doctor was calling about. And I’m sorry that I didn’t tell you, but - ” “Then why!? Why didn’t you tell me? Is that how little you think of me?”
He closed his eyes and spoke quietly. “Kao - ” At this point I was already going out of the door. I needed to go somewhere and think. The door slammed shut behind me as I just rushed off, leaving Die to stand alone in the living-room.
Thoughts rushed through my head so fast that I could barely get a grip of any of them. So Die was sick. What if he had cancer? What if it was inoperable? What if he would die? How could I live without getting to see his comforting smile or to touch his soft cheek or hear his voice ever again? I had never been this scared in my whole life. Only thing I was sure of at that moment was that I could never imagine my life without having that annoying lunkhead around. I needed him.
Slowly I calmed down and began to think rationally. At that moment I realized how idiotic I had been. This was probably a moment in Die’s life in which he needed me to be there for him more than anything. And all I do is to be selfish and accuse him of not trusting me, when all along he was just trying to protect me however stupid it might have been. I walked back home, intending to solve this for once and for all. As I opened the door of our apartment all that greeted me was emptiness. No Die. No note. Nothing. I had no idea where he could be. But I knew that he’d go to see the doctor the next day. So I made up my mind.
I was standing in the parking lot in front of the hospital waiting for Die to come out. I remembered vaguely that his appointment was somewhere around two or three in the afternoon. So, I arrived at half past one, determined to wait as long as it would take. A little before three I saw a familiar figure in the doorway. Die looked lost somehow, maybe a bit lonely. I knew that I should have been there with him. Now the least I could do was to apologize. He walked straight to his car, and naturally to me as I was standing only two feet away from it.
”Kao? What are you doing here?” There was uncertainty in his voice. He didn’t dare to look me in the eye, instead he stared at his shoes like they were the most interesting thing in this universe. I sighed and gently brought my hand under his chin so I could lift his head up. I stared into those dark eyes which caused me to fall in love again every time I saw them. “I’m sorry, Die.” He looked a little surprised and as usual he tried to hide his nervousness by babbling. But this time I didn’t let him. “Don’t say anything, let me finish. I really mean that I’m sorry. I can’t even imagine how hard this must be for you. And I certainly didn’t behave like a responsible adult should have. So, all I want to say is that I love you, and I want to be there for you. If you still let me.” Small tears were forming in the corners of his eyes. But they were tears of relief. He didn’t say a word, just stepped closer and hugged me close.
We spent the rest of the day just lying on the couch and talking. It felt good to have things solved without any bigger damage done to our relationship. In the evening we didn’t really even talk anymore, we just enjoyed the feeling of being so close. Neither one of us bothered to stand up to put the lights on so we watched the shadows slowly fill the room as the night crept closer. Die was lying beside me, his head against my chest and his arms wrapped around my waist. I slowly caressed his hair and listened to his soft breathing.
After a while Die’s quiet voice broke the silence. ”What if I’ll lose my hair and then I’ll be bald and ugly?” I smiled at him and squeezed him against me. “Silly. If it turns out to be bad, they’ll operate you, that doesn’t cause you to lose your hair. And although you have beautiful hair, it’s not the reason I want to share my life with you. Actually the reason is that cute little butt of yours.” “Kaoru!” He began to pout and I just had to smile at him. “C’mon, you know I’m kidding.” He hit my arm softly. “You’re so cruel.” I leaned in to kiss him softly. “Don’t be afraid, Die, we’ll get through this.” I didn’t just say it to make him feel better, I really had the feeling that everything would end up fine as long as we’d be together. He looked into my eyes for a long time, searching. Then he nodded. “I believe you.”
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I'd recommend the blitz5days and the osakajo hall dvd's cuz those are like.. DxK flavoured xD
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Aww and it's been AGES since I watched those! I definitely should watch them again *__*
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Now I wanna watch them too xD *gets the discs*
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One never gets tired of them, eh? XD
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Nope, never XD
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