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rabenhorst ([personal profile] rabenhorst) wrote2009-12-20 12:33 am

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Title: Life
Author: [livejournal.com profile] fonulyn
Rating: PG13
Pairing: Die/?
Disclaimer: I own no one, only my dirty imagination.
Summary: Die would’ve never thought he would find himself in a place like this. Standing on a cliff while the cold, still water was lying like a heavy mass somewhere far below him. His gaze directed at the horizon, into the orange glow that seemed to be burning away the day for the night to come.
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[livejournal.com profile] fonulyn: I know it’s just a little ficlet, more a drabble even, but I kinda wanted to have something for Die’s birthday so this be my contribution x) It’s pretty vague, you can imagine him being with just about anyone so I’ll let you do your own pick and won’t even tell who I imagined it to be XD Unless asked, of course. Also, abused this beautiful prompt for it. I hope you like :)

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Life



Die would’ve never thought he would find himself in a place like this. Standing on a cliff while the cold, still water was lying like a heavy mass somewhere far below him. His gaze directed at the horizon, into the orange glow that seemed to be burning away the day for the night to come. Heavy clouds were hanging in the air, their exact replicas reflecting from the mirror that was the water’s surface.

The world was beautiful like this.

The soft breeze was the only thing he felt, caressing his skin like leaving the last goodbyes. He knew that the next day the wind would be cold, freezing him to the bones and he knew to appreciate the last breath of summer. That was why he had come here, today of all days. He knew it was a special day, he knew that it was the last day.

His mother used to bring him here when he was a child. Now that she had passed away, he had been avoiding the place like the plague for years. He had hid all the pictures he had from there, hadn’t even allowed himself to think about it, hadn’t dared to take a single step towards the place. It had felt like tearing the wounds open again, like twisting the knife in his gut time and time again, so he had tried to forget.

Somehow today was different.

When he had woken up in the morning, he hadn’t been alone. He hadn’t felt abandoned. There was a new presence in his life, something that made it worth going on, worth fighting for. Something that filled his life with laughter again, and he felt reborn. Healed.

That was why he had wanted to come here today. He wanted to make peace with his past so he could turn to look at his future. It felt like a ritual, like a cleansing rite that would wash away the pain, the anguish, make him whole again. It would allow him to face the new life as a new, healed person. It would put the ghosts to rest.

He wasn’t the kind of man to follow an impulse. Yet now, he did. Before he even noticed he was moving, he took a few running steps towards the cliff and he jumped. Without hesitation he plunged into the thin air, threw himself towards the even surface of the water.

For a few heartbeats it felt as if he would stay floating in the air.

Flying.

But suddenly he fell, faster, faster, faster. Towards the lake, towards the new life.

It hurt when he hit the water, the impact pressing all air from his lungs. Underneath the surface, he couldn’t stop himself from inhaling and the water burned in his airways, made him feel like drowning for a split second. Somehow, he pushed himself upwards, with unfocused movements of his arms and legs, enough for his head to reach the surface.

The air was cooler down here, and he coughed as he fought for breath, tried to fill his lungs with life instead of death.

One look at the sky told him that this was it, the last second before nightfall.

Together with summer, he let go of the ghosts in his past.

Together with autumn, he faced the new dawn.

He was complete.

[identity profile] sick-pride.livejournal.com 2009-12-19 10:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Beautiful. So beautiful and well written. I swear, if my mind wouldn't be so foggy I'd write you a more proper comment but for now this is all I can say: Beautiful like the man himself. It may be short but in this case, length doesn't matter. The huge amount of feelings you put right into it, Die's thoughts - it's here, there, palpable.

Goes straight to my memories.

[identity profile] fonulyn.livejournal.com 2009-12-19 10:49 pm (UTC)(link)
I do love you, you know?

Thank you :) So much! Your words made me smile like an idiot at least, and I'm really glad that the feelings came across. It was one of these thoughts that wouldn't leave until they were written, and I hoped that I didn't screw it up in the process x)

So yeah :D I'm happy.

Beautiful like the man himself.

Oh yes. He is beautiful, in every possible way ♥ But I won't go further into it or I'll never shut up XD

[identity profile] wildmetal-chick.livejournal.com 2009-12-20 07:25 pm (UTC)(link)
I completely agree with you actually, Length does not matter only the quality of the work matters, and this is quality if I have ever seen it. And honestly this did make a lot of feeling rise up in me as well, all and All this Fic was a beautiful peice of work, not only because it was written very well, but it also makes people look deep within themselves, makes them feel and makes them come to terms with themselves as people. I know I rambled but I love this story keep writing beautiful stories like these! They are truly amazing

[identity profile] fonulyn.livejournal.com 2009-12-20 07:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you :) I'm pretty much speechless, don't really know what to reply now. I'm really glad to hear that you liked it though! And especially if it made you think and feel. Arising emotions is not a piece of cake always, so I definitely take it as a huge compliment :) Thanks so much! I hope that you'll like the future stories too when they come ;)

[identity profile] wildmetal-chick.livejournal.com 2009-12-20 08:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Aww you're welcome. And yea it really did make me think and feel. It's one of those coming to terms with yourself kind of stories like it makes you view your positives and negetives as a person and still love yourself and have the ability to do the same with others who are around you and still be able to love them for their good and bad. It's a reflective story and I love it. And you're welcome, I like your writing style so I think it's safe to say I'll like your other stories as well. Thanks for putting this up *hugs*

And yes Die is a beautiful man, He's like the sun no one can stop him from shining so brightly (I know corny)

[identity profile] fonulyn.livejournal.com 2009-12-21 03:52 pm (UTC)(link)
I think I needed it myself too, to write something that reflects coming to peace with oneself. I still need to find that moment for myself though :) Thank you, again.

Corny or not, it's the truth! He's just simply beautiful.

[identity profile] wildmetal-chick.livejournal.com 2009-12-21 11:59 pm (UTC)(link)
No problem, and yea, I needed it to I think, the fic sort of soothed my soul I could kind of say LOL.

It is the truth, the man is a ray of sunshine, feel down at anytime look at that man and a smile will be brought to your face!He's truly a wonderful man!

[identity profile] sick-pride.livejournal.com 2009-12-20 07:53 pm (UTC)(link)
THIS.

[identity profile] scottskydweller.livejournal.com 2009-12-20 02:38 pm (UTC)(link)
very emotional and vivid piece of writing.
i could almost feel as if i was experiencing the memories and standing at the place where Die was.

it is beyond words to describe how this fic has an effect on me. the relief which Die obtained after the physical breakthrough is amazing. totally loving this!

[identity profile] fonulyn.livejournal.com 2009-12-20 03:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! That is a really big compliment, and I definitely appreciate it a lot! :) Getting the emotions across is always important.

I'm really glad to hear that you liked it! Really glad ♥

[identity profile] scottskydweller.livejournal.com 2009-12-21 12:50 am (UTC)(link)
i only speak what i really think.
nope, "like" is an understatement, i LOVE & ADORE this fic. totally can put myself in that position.

p.s. it usually takes a lot to make me click that "comment" button for fics. XDDDD *gets shot*

[identity profile] fonulyn.livejournal.com 2009-12-21 03:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Aw *blushes* Thank you. I really really do appreciate that.

Oh, then the comment means even more to me ;) I'm glad that you decided to share your opinion.

[identity profile] ansekishoku.livejournal.com 2009-12-20 10:46 pm (UTC)(link)
what a beautiful description! The landscape, his feelings and even about his life.
(he's with Kaoru btw, I'm pretty sure xDDDD)
The part he when jumped was fantastic!

Thanks for sharing this! ^^
and~ sorry for babbling lol

[identity profile] fonulyn.livejournal.com 2009-12-20 10:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Aw I'm glad that you liked it! I loved the image I had in my head and I was hoping it got across properly XD haha and he could be with Kaoru, very well.

haha no need to apologize! I loved to read your babbling :D Thanks for your comment!

[identity profile] voxalcafe.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 12:06 am (UTC)(link)
Sigh, just imagining this was so gorgeous. <3

[identity profile] fonulyn.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 10:52 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you :) I'm really happy to hear you liked it!

[identity profile] cadkitten.livejournal.com 2010-01-02 03:54 am (UTC)(link)
Wow... I had tears in my eyes over this one. *hugs*

[identity profile] fonulyn.livejournal.com 2010-01-02 10:47 am (UTC)(link)
Aw *hugs back* Thank you so much :)