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Title: First Love, Last Love; Chapter 2
Author: seinen_no and fonulyn
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Die and Kaoru
Disclaimer: We own no one, only our dirty imaginations.
Summary: When Kaoru and his wife get a divorce, he is forced to leave his little daughter to live with her mother when he’s moving out. He finds support in his best friend, but is friendship everything life has in store for them? Or is their past together going to resurface now that Kaoru’s life has been turned upside down? [yes, I am aware that sounds like an ad for a b-class soap opera XD]
Comments:
seinen_no: Ahoi-hoi! Well well, here's the next chapter^^ Some smut and something for the heart, if you ask me. Aren't they perfect? Okay, I better shut my big mouth and let you read. Have fun!

fonulyn: Re-reading this story has made me realize how much I actually liked it XD In the beginning things happen kinda fast, but well, it doesn’t matter that much, does it? 8D Just enjoy!

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Previously happened: Part 1




First Love, Last Love
Chapter 2


Somewhere around eight, Kaoru woke up for the first time and went into the kitchen to quench his insufferable thirst. He brought the bottle of water into the bedroom and put it on the floor on Die's side, thinking he would appreciate it. Then, he slipped back under the blanket, turned his back on the other man and went smoothly back to sleeping.

A couple of hours later it was the younger guitarist's turn to stir awake, and somehow, maybe guided by old habits, he reached to the bedside and grabbed the bottle to take a long sip. He often had a bottle of water beside his bed at home too, a habit he had actually kind of learned from Kaoru, or by his advice.

The older guitarist was awake as well, but didn't say anything. He lay on his back, his eyes fixed on the ceiling. Whether it was the after effect of the alcohol or his weird situation in general, he couldn't tell, but he couldn't deny that it was nice to wake up beside the other man; stirred long gone memories.

For a while Die tried to still fall asleep, but finally gave up as he didn't succeed in the slightest. He was lying on his stomach, but now turned his head to be able to look at the other man, smiling a bit. "How're you feeling?" His voice was a bit hoarse from the lack of use, sounding oddly audible in the room.

"Oddly sober," Kaoru answered honestly. It was true, the expected hang-over was absent, no headache, no hurting eyes, nor a sore throat from smoking too much; simply nothing. He tilted his head a bit to look at his friend. "And you?"

"Kinda good." The other nodded honestly. Slowly a smile spread on his lips. "You have a comfy bed."

The answer was a bright smile and a faint nod. "I know."

But then, Kaoru fell silent again, looked at the ceiling pondering. It was comfortable, just being lazy and letting the mind wander. There was something inside him though and it caused him to speak up quietly without looking at the other man. "You know, I have never been as happy as with you." The confession stood between them like a brick wall, hanging thickly in the air.

Die just stared at him wordlessly, his mind beginning to race instantly as he heard the words. What was his friend trying to say with that? It couldn't be what it sounded like, could it...? Finally, he swallowed hard, forcing himself to speak up as casual as possible. "I miss those times too sometimes..."

Kaoru was a bit shocked about his own courage, but it had been the truth. If they hadn't been so overextended with everything back then, they would probably be together still. Slowly, he shifted and rolled on his side, backing himself up with his elbow to look at the redhead. "I think I missed them all along..." His voice was low, considerate and his gaze open.

"I just didn't allow myself to think about it." The younger man looked straight back at the other one, completely honest and seemingly calm although his heart was racing, beating frantically in his chest.

"And if you allow it now? What do you think?" Kaoru's heart was beating equally fast because he had no idea what the other man had meant with his statement. Hell, he didn't even know what he had meant himself. Did he really want to risk their friendship by trying to lead a relationship again? And what was with his daughter? At the moment, he didn't care though and only waited for Die's answer.

"I think I'm kinda attached to you still." The answer came silently, but with an honest, tentative smile. Die didn't know where they were heading with the conversation, but the whole moment felt just somehow natural, being there beside the other man.

The older guitarist swallowed hard, nodding. "I don't know what I think. All I know is that I like you. Much more than that. And I miss being with you." Only now it became clear for him that there were things the redhead could give him which his wife, soon ex-wife, couldn't. Die simply was the better match. And when he thought a bit more, even the sex had been better with him. During his marriage, Kaoru had blamed the fact that they had been so young and totally intoxicated by fame, but right now, he simply knew that this hadn't been the case.

For a while Die simply examined the other guitarist's features, trying to somehow interpret him, to see if there was a catch somewhere. But he knew Kaoru, he knew that he was being serious. And that alone made his heart beat a bit more frantically. "I miss you too. In every way."

The confession elicited a loving smile from the older guitarist and he closed his eyes, giving the other man a chaste kiss. "Tell me that this is stupid and that there's no way in hell we can start all over again after so many years," he demanded whispering, his face still near Die's.

"This is stupid and there's no way in hell we can start all over again after so long," Die repeated obediently, his smile widening a bit with each word. "Buut..." He drawled, bringing his hand up to poke the other man's nose with his index finger. "If you take me nevertheless, I won't ever let you go again."

It must have been the divorce, the final and definite break-up with his wife that had triggered something, had brought the well hidden and suppressed feelings back to the surface, but right at that moment, Kaoru's heart was pounding happily. For the first time in ages, he again felt that certain tickling feeling of being in love in his stomach, a feeling which he thought had been lost by growing older. Smiling, he nodded and took on an arrogant tone. "I think I could be persuaded to take you back again."

"What would it take to convince you?" Die questioned him innocently, managing to suppress his grin. Inwardly he was screaming though, feeling like he could just hug the whole world. He had never seen this coming, but it didn't mean he wasn't a willing victim.

"Maybe a kiss to see if it still manages to take my breath away?" The older guitarist suggested pondering. "But I'm open for suggestions too." The smile seemed to be stuck on his face and suddenly, the world appeared a bit brighter again, the redhead being the beacon that led him out of the dark.

"We can start with that." The younger man rolled a bit closer to the other guitarist, leaning in until their lips were almost touching. "And if you're not convinced, you tell me and we figure out what to try next." With that, he crossed the last distance between them, initiating a soft, slow kiss.

Instantly, Kaoru was twenty again, felt the same heat and passion which the redhead had stirred in him before. Although the kiss was gentle and slow, it still left him breathless, even made him tremble as he had totally forgotten those feelings throughout the time. Smiling into the contact, he brought his hands to Die's cheeks and tilted his head to deepen the kiss, coevally leaning a bit closer.

Die did nothing to resist, quite the contrary only sneaked his arms around the other man to pull him against himself, enjoying the feelings that were coursing through him. He had thought he had managed to suppress all that, had thought he had gotten over it. But it was still there, strong as ever and he truly didn't want to let go of the older man ever again.

When they finally parted, Kaoru licked his lips, gazing deep into the younger man's eyes. "That was quite convincing," he purred and no matter how hard he tried to keep his voice steady, one could clearly hear how nervous he was. "Though I'm not sure if it's enough."

"Would you want to re-enact it then?" The redhead smiled brightly, swallowing to steady his voice and sound self-confident. "Or something else you'd want?"

Kaoru bit his lip, the pretended self-confidence crumbling like a dry cookie. "What'd be your offer then?" he asked, quickly smiling again to hide his sudden insecurity.

"You know," Die brought his hand up to move away a stray strand of hair from Kaoru's face. "If you take me back you get the whole package. So I offer you whatever you want."

The tone of his voice and the suggestiveness which was hidden in his words caused a shiver down Kaoru's spine and the smile to widen. "We have a deal then. I take you back." He leaned in a bit more again to press their foreheads together, lips almost touching. "There are certain things I missed as well."

"And what might those things be?" Die couldn't hold back a chuckle anymore, quickly pressing a kiss on the other guitarist's lips. His heart was beating like a drum again, but this time it wasn't the nervousness that made him feel like that.

"Think hard," the older man demanded, chuckling a bit. "There is something I hadn't had in a long time." His heart was beating equally fast. Everything just felt so natural as if Die's arms were the place where he belonged. He had only made a detour to finally realize that.

"I can come up with a several things you didn't have in a long time." The younger man tangled their limbs together, pushing his leg between the other one's.

It elicited a content sigh from Kaoru, the smile like glued to his lips. "Name three," he demanded firmly, looking at the redhead with sparkling eyes.

"Three?" Die grinned brightly, biting his bottom lip for a while as he pretended to think about it. "Let's see... in a looong time you haven't kissed me, or screwed with me."

"And what's the third?" The older man asked and bent his knee a bit, lightly rubbing Die's crotch.

"Don't you see, I already listed three." The answer came with a small chuckle, as the redhead sighed a bit and closed his eyes.

"No, I don't see it. Kissing and screwing, those are two for me." Only then, Kaoru understood and it caused his grin to widen while he repeated the action with his knee, this time being a bit more firm. "That is, if you don't count topping and being bottom as two things."

He was rewarded with a small groan, the smile never leaving Die's lips. "Of course I do."

Seeing the delight on the younger man's features had always been something special for Kaoru and made his heart skip a beat. "Die," he whispered, becoming serious for a moment without retreating his leg, "I'm afraid I forgot how it is to get screwed." Right after the words had left his lips, he smiled brightly again though. "Would you remind me?"

"Only if you have everything we need." The younger man opened his eyes to look straight at the other, smiling softly, caringly.

"I have condoms, but I'm quite certain I don't have lube." Kaoru grinned. "But I could offer vaseline. That'd do too." Frankly, he didn't care for using either but knew that it was somewhat necessary. "So does that mean you came here unprepared?" he teased after a moment where the other man hadn't said anything.

"Yes. I never thought I'd get a piece of your gorgeous butt." Die grinned confidently, although the nervousness was somewhat returning. He slid his palms along the other man's back to his butt, giving it a small squeeze. "And I think I could accept vaseline. Does the same thing."

The action made Kaoru close his eyes shortly. "I'm disappointed. Your friend gives a house-warming party after getting a divorce, lonely, lost, and you didn't even consider a compassion-fuck?" Although the words came out securely, the mere thought of reliving old times with the other man caused the heat inside him to rise. Besides, this was far more to him than just a non-recurring incident. He had been serious when saying that he wanted the other one back.

"Well, I thought I wouldn't be even staying overnight." Die confessed, rolling them over until he was pinning the older man against the mattress. "But I can make it up to you. Just get me the promised vaseline first."

"It's in the bathroom," the older guitarist breathed out, suppressing a small groan. "In the cupboard above the toilet." Smirking, he wrapped his legs around Die's hips though, preventing him from leaving and coevally pressing their lower parts of the body against each other.

"And how do you suppose I'm going to get it from there now?" Although the younger man tried to sound seriously questioning, he pressed their bodies even closer to each other, grinding against the older man.

This time, Kaoru couldn't stifle the moan anymore, although his smile never faltered. "Well," he purred, "if you go on like this, never." Slowly, he slid his flat palms down the other man's back, into his shorts to grab his buttocks and press him down once more.

"You should know better than to assume I'd go for it without." The words were almost a mere groan, as Die needed to close his eyes to gain control of himself. He still intended to get the vaseline though, knowing it would be the best.

"You didn't change at all." Kaoru sounded admonishing and quickly let go off him. "Then hurry or I might change my mind and use my hand." It was an empty threat of course, but they had used to talk like this earlier too and somehow getting back together made him fall back into old habits.

"You get the condoms meanwhile." Die winked at the other man, but suddenly leaned back down to crush their lips together. He pulled back only when they were both out of breath, quickly getting on his feet and disappearing.

Still, it left the older guitarist stunned for a moment and he had to close his eyes for a second to get a hold of himself. But then, he jumped up to search for his condoms. Since he had never thought he'd need them again soon, he didn't remember where he had left them at first, but finally found them. Quickly, he got back on the bed, took the condom between his teeth and waited for the other man, grinning like a moron.

Suddenly from the bathroom one could hear cursing and swearing, along with the sound of something breaking. It took a moment before the redhead appeared in the doorframe, grinning somewhat apologetically. "Kao... I think... well, let's say I will clean your bathroom later, alright?"

The older guitarist only nodded, presenting the condom between his teeth. He was covered by the blanket, but had gotten rid of his boxers, thinking it would spare them some time. Still, he couldn't deny that he was somewhat nervous, although it was a pleasant feeling somehow.

"But it seems like you're not mad at me." Die had to laugh at the other man's expression, sneaked on the bed quickly and crawled closer instantly. He took the rubber from the other's mouth, instead leaning in to kiss him again. He had missed that to no end, just the feeling of the older man’s lips on his own.

Kaoru's reply was muffled by the contact, but he didn't bother, only wrapped his arms around the redhead's neck to pull him closer. He found no words to describe the feelings he was going through at that moment. Somehow it was like before and still all different and new. Die's taste and scent was surrounding him, piercing through every molecule of his body and reminded him how much he had been addicted to those in the first place.

Trying not to break the contact Die fumbled for the blanket, tugging it away from between them. A surprised, but quite pleased mewl escaped him as he noticed the other man wasn't wearing anything, relishingly running his palm along the soft skin.

The touch caused gooseflesh to appear all over the older guitarist's body and he shifted a bit, trying to press himself closer to him. Feeling Die's hands all over his body made shivers run down his spine, stirring the anticipation of what was to come. Moving as little as possible, Kaoru reached for the other man's boxers and pushed them down as far as he could. He simply wanted Die and showed it in every single reaction.

The redhead pecked the other man's lips again as they broke the kiss for air, and pulled back to get rid of his garments properly, discarding them to the floor. He kept his eyes on Kaoru though, practically eating him with his mere gaze. Only now he realized how much he really had missed the other man, how much he had wanted to be close to him.

"Are you intending on just looking or will you take action too?" Kaoru asked, his voice hoarse but still mocking in a way. Die's intense gaze made him blush, although the kiss had done the trick already. Smiling, he parted his legs a bit, allowing Die to see everything.

"I might just go on staring at you for a while," the redhead winked, slowly allowing his gaze to roam over every inch of the other guitarist's body. The mere sight did things to him, and he had to swallow to gain control over himself. Like tentatively he reached his hand towards Kaoru's groin, lacing his fingers around his arousal.

A long purr left Kaoru's lips and he parted his thighs even more, automatically thrusting into the redhead's hand. "Well," his voice was unsteady, caused by the already heavy respiration, "if your gaze feels like this, I don't mind." It took him a lot of willpower, but he opened his eyes which had fallen shut somewhere on the way, looking straight at the other man. It had been quite some time since he had been with somebody and so the sensations were threatening to overwhelm him already.

"You seem to enjoy it at least." Die tried to sound cool, like he was in control of the situation, although it affected him more than he would've wanted to admit. But he enjoyed the display of pleasure on the other man's face all too much to resist. Shifting a bit closer, he bowed down and enclosed his lips around the other's hardness, his eyes locked on his face to drink in every reaction.

"Gods..." This was something Kaoru's ex-wife hadn't done too often as she had thought of it as disgusting. Right now, it made a wave of pleasure shoot through his body, made him groan and close his eyes for a second. Kaoru's fingers were tangling in Die's hair, only distantly realizing the feeling of the silky strands. When he locked their gazes again, he tried to look as pleading as possible, wanting to feel more of the hot, wet mouth.

Die managed a slight smirk, slowly moving his head down to take as much of the other into his throat as possible. He could feel him tremble under the treatment, and that alone caused his own heart to beat faster, a shiver going along his spine.

The sensations were indescribable and the older guitarist couldn't tear his eyes off the other man anymore. Seeing those lips around his own hardness along with the matching feelings, brought him close to the edge already. Panting, unable to control himself anymore, he surrendered to the readhad and allowed the quiet and more audible groans, which had been lingering in his throat for some time already, to fall freely and fill the room.

Only distantly Die realized he was still holding the vaseline, managing to even act on the thought. He took some of it, before moving his hand to the other man's butt, sliding one digit inside of him. Still he didn't stop his ministrations for a second, even relaxed his throat, sucking a tad bit harder.

A loud moan was the answer to that and Kaoru's hips bucked up. He didn't want to choke the other man, but had no control, his body acting on its own. Heaven, he was in heaven and asked himself again why he hadn't told Die about his feelings earlier. His lust-blurred brains didn't see the fact that he had been occupied otherwise, being a father and husband, involved too deep in leading a family-life.

It only took a while before the redhead inserted another finger and scissored them, stretching the other man wider. Coevally he tried to find the right spot to sweep over, wanting to provide Kaoru with as much pleasure as possible. It was his priority, his own need had to wait as he just concentrated on the other man for now.

Although it had been years, feeling Die's fingers inside him wasn't half as uncomfortable as one might have thought and when the other struck his sweet-spot, Kaoru cried out in utmost bliss. He was having serious problems to breathe by then already, constant waves of pleasure making him tremble.

"Die..." He got out between two laborious breaths, trying to tell the other man to slow down, to wait a moment. But it was too late, the younger man again touched that bundle of nerves deep inside him, his tongue coevally brushing over the sensitive tip of his hardness. It caused him to tense, every muscle ready to snap before something inside him exploded, an incredible heat radiating from his groin, spreading all over his body as he released himself into the other man's mouth.

Die didn't mind, patiently waiting until Kaoru had relaxed even a bit before he pulled back and moved up to plant a soft kiss on the corner of his mouth. "Liked that?" He couldn't help but to smile, seeing the expression of bliss on the other guitarist's face.

"Hell yeah." The older man nodded, a wide grin appearing on his face. "You should know that though. You can't just do things like that when I didn't have any in ages." The words were accompanied by a merry chuckle and Kaoru lifted his head a bit to give his lover a short but deep kiss, his own taste still lingering in the other man's mouth.

"Well, that's just basically the reason why I should do things like that. I promised to show you it's worth it if you take me back." The redhead winked, leaning down and nibbling on the older man's chin slightly.

"I knew it was worth it when I pecked your lips again for the first time," Kaoru gave away smiling and tilted his head a bit, enjoying the moment. Slowly, he pushed his hand between their bodies, feeling for the other man's arousal. "As I see, you think it's worth it as well..."

"Definitely." The word was a single gasp, as a wave of pleasure shot through the younger man. "And it'll get even better." He managed to form a half hearted grin, softly running his palm over the lead-guitarist's crotch.

"I know." Kaoru was chuckling, but it was silenced when he felt Die's touch. "I'm only afraid that you back off again, seeing that you're taking so much time." While he spoke the words, he placed his palm on the redhead's arousal, rubbing teasingly slow. There was nothing more he could've done anyways since Die was lying on top of him, still pinning him down.

"Don't worry." Die groaned, taking a few deep breaths before he was able to go on. "I want you too much to back off now." And he really meant it, as the heat inside of him threatened to already burn him alive. He shifted a bit, grabbedg the smaller man's hips and positioned himself on his entrance. Wordlessly he crushed their mouths together, kissing the other man hungrily while slowly moving his hips forward and penetrating him.

At first, Kaoru tensed, a mewl leaving his lips. But then, he remembered to relax and it made everything easier, enabled Die to move more smoothly. Like natural, he wrapped his legs around the redhead's hips, even hooked his feet behind his back to pull him closer, urging him to move. All this time, they kept the kiss going, bereaving each other of their breath.

At first the redhead kept his movements slow, only rocking forward carefully, knowing it would initially hurt the other man despite the preparation. The need inside of him was too much to be ignored though, and he had to pick up the pace eventually, moving as his body demanded him to.

The invasion had only left a slight burning feeling in the beginning, but as soon as Die began to move, it was drowned out by the rising pleasure, forgotten as if it had never been there. Subconsciously, Kaoru shifted a bit, forcing the other man to follow the movement and angle his thrusts so that he was constantly touching his good spot, eliciting husky moans from him.

Being filled so intensely made Kaoru's heart swell with happiness as he had honestly missed this feeling. It was as close as two people could get and he truly enjoyed being on the receiving end again after such a long time. Both men had been so intoxicated by each other, so lost, that neither of them remembered the condom anymore which was lying unregarded and unused on the bed beside their linked, sweaty bodies.

They simply refused to let go of the kisses they were sharing, the contact being so much more important than mere breathing. They were moving against each other in almost perfect unison, naturally like they had never been apart for so long. The redhead would've wanted to sample the moment for as long as possible, enjoying every single second, but the heat had been rising inside of him for so long that he was unable to hold back much longer, knowing he was teetering on the edge. Subconsciously he moved his hand to the other man's arousal and laced his fingers around it, intending on bringing him to completion together with him.

There wasn't much help needed as Kaoru was as close as the other man. He groaned deeply, sexily, when his lover touched him and had to close his eyes, overpowered by the force of the sensations which were coursing through him. Every single part of his body seemed to be on fire, the heat too much to take. Sweat was beading on both of their skins, soaking the sheets underneath, adding up to the feelings.

It only took a few more thrusts before the younger man was suddenly sent over the edge, unable to do anything to hold back anymore. A surprised outcry tore its way from his throat as the climax hit him with force, bliss washing over his consciousness for a while as he tensed violently. At some point he had locked his gaze on the other's face without even noticing it himself and even now he couldn't close his eyes, wasn't able to tear his gaze away although he hardly saw anything.

Feeling Die's hot release dribble inside him triggered something and suddenly pushed Kaoru over the edge as well. Shuddering, he came between their clammy bodies, groaning, and felt like floating weightlessly through the air for those few blissful moments before he relaxed again, falling heavily backwards into the cushions. He had opened his eyes, his lust-blurred gaze searching for Die's.

Die smiled. There was nothing else he was capable of doing right now but to smile, a completely and utterly happy moronic smile stuck on his face. He was feeling too good to describe it, but he was sure the other man knew that without him needing to speak.

It was mirrored on Kaoru's face and he stretched his neck to breathe a chaste kiss on the younger man's lips, silently thanking him. Only after a few moments, the smile widened into a grin. "I hope you didn't fuck anybody without a rubber lately." Just then, he had realized that neither of them had remembered the condom, but to be honest, he didn't care, trusting the other man completely. Still, he had to tease a bit.

"Actually I had quite a long chaste period lately." The younger man smirked, pulling back and out of the other just to instantly nestle back beside him. "I don't think you're in massive danger."

"You don't think?" The other man chuckled, shaking his head. "Now that sounds relieving." Suddenly, he became serious, gazing deep into Die's eyes. "Your diseases are mine."

"Stop that." Die slapped his head softly, chuckling at him though. "You're supposed to just enjoy the closeness now and shut the fuck up."

"Am I?" Kaoru smiled smugly. "Well, then I think I have to shut up." With having said that, he rolled closer to the other man, sneaked his arms around his neck and initiated a deep kiss, silencing himself so to say, since his lover didn't seem to get the idea.

Totally content, the redhead wrapped his arms around his lover's waist, holding him close to himself and simply enjoyed the kiss. Everything had happened so fast that it was hard to get a grip of it yet, and still they felt oddly like they had been like this forever.

Contently, the older guitarist nestled against Die's chest after they had parted, drawing random patterns on his belly with his index-finger. He was feeling utterly completed, like home and would have never wanted to get up ever again. It was a miracle to him, how smoothly everything seemed to work out, how easily they both could admit their feelings for each other without having to exchange many words. That was one thing he had missed in his relationship with Nozomi, she had always asked him to explain everything, had asked until it had annoyed him. Die almost always understood him silently, simply ticking the same way.

For a long moment they staid silent, only listening to each other's breathing and concentrating on the shared warmth. Something inside of them told them that they wouldn't need to hurry, that this would last and they could take things as they came. Though right at that moment neither of them thought really far into the future, simply too content for that.

But because Kaoru was certain that this would last, that this hadn't been just a shag to relive old times, he finally lifted his head, having something on his mind. "I don't want Mika to know," he almost only whispered, knowing the younger man would understand.

"Alright." Die smiled softly, nodding at the other man's words. Somewhere inside of him he had known to expect it and he didn't even mind that much. Mika was Kaoru's daughter and it was his decision what they would do about it. He was willing to do just as the older man wished.

"It'd be too much right now," Kaoru went on although it wasn't needed. He chuckled cheerlessly. "It's a bit too much for me too, I think. I feel a bit unreal." He blinked at the man beside him, but the deep sparkle in his eyes told that it wasn't necessarily a bad feeling.

"I know what you mean." The younger man had to chuckle a bit. "I still feel like I'm going to wake up soon and realize it was a dream." He became more serious though, looking the older one straight in the eye. "And I understand. If you don't want Mika to know, we won't tell her."

"Only for now. She's still so young and if her classmates find out, they'd tease her even more. She's already having a hard time only because she's my daughter." Lovingly, Kaoru caressed the redhead's cheek and quickly pecked his lips. "Thanks. I knew you'd understand."

"What about the guys? Wanna tell them?" The redhead looked Kaoru deep in the eye. Somehow he felt he could drown in those depths.

"I don't mind to tell them." The older guitarist smiled softly, gazing back as if he could see right down to the bottom of the other man's soul. "Toshiya would find out anyways. He has a sixth sense for things like that."

"And he's a nosy bastard and wouldn't even mind going through our stuff to find out." Die had to chuckle, and he was somewhat relieved that they could let their friends know.

"Or keep on asking till either of us gives in." Kaoru had to chuckle, lying back down on his lover's chest. He had never considered hiding their relationship from their friends in the first place, knowing they wouldn't spill the beans about it. But he also knew that they would tease them, saying something like 'first love, last love".

Comments

[yasashii-uta.livejournal.com]

awwwwww
im loving Die in this :D

oh and
"I'm disappointed. Your friend gives a house-warming party after getting a divorce, lonely, lost, and you didn't even consider a compassion-fuck?"

was totally awesome XD

[seinen-no.livejournal.com]

Thank you! Die's sweet ne? I really like how he's just throwing himself into this again^^

(and I love your icon x)

[oanja.livejournal.com]

Thanks! Just what I needed to take my mind off things for a few minutes! *huggles*

And yay for hot sex! xD

[seinen-no.livejournal.com]

Heh, they didn't need long to get back together, ne?

*hugs back* Thanks, dear! Glad you like it. And I'm so hyper since you and Marjo are going to the shows in Helsinki! Damn!

[k-liope.livejournal.com]

waa great chapter!
I was waiting for it:p


"saying something like 'fist love, last love"
-sighs-


upload soon^^


this chapter was more like " mi cama es tu cama" ( my bed is your bed" xD

[seinen-no.livejournal.com]

*lol, did you notice our Freudian slip there? I mean in the repetition of the title. We fixed it x)

Thank you again! Haha, and I will surely remember that "mi cama es tu cama" means my bed is your bed^^ So much better than mi casa es su casa ne :D

[sanghamyers.livejournal.com]

Jesus Christ. I need a shower. O_O Wow, Kaoru bottom. I know, I know. Don't say anything. But I just can't help myself getting all brainfucked at the thought. xD
I was just about to re-read chapter five of my angel-fic since it was done but it simply had to wait. Guess I'll do that tomorrow now. *chuckles* But it's worth it!!
Brilliant. Thanks.^^

[mog-fuyu.livejournal.com]

OI, a new chap?! *funkeläuglein bekommt*

I soooooooooo looking forward to it.^^

*hugs*

[avadedrahetarra.livejournal.com]

I just read both parts of this in one go at work. LoL It's awesome, so real, and just downright beautiful! *applauds* Wonderfully done. The dynamic is sensational!

*runs out of pretty things to say and just grins stupidly* XD

[seinen-no.livejournal.com]

Oh God! *blushes a deep red* Thank you so much for your wonderful comment!
We're more than glad that you liked it so much and hope you'll enjoy reading the next chaps too.

Haha, as a sidenote: Are you supposed to read fics at work *takes on strict tone*?

[chottosukidakar.livejournal.com]

Lmao. How come everyone potrays Toshiya as a 'nosy bastard'? lol



Although....I somehow think it wouldn't be so irritating coming from him after all..he is Totchi...gotta love him >_____< alot! A lot lot lot!

So glad to see you guys update wooooooh!

[seinen-no.livejournal.com]

Believe me, we love Toshi to the core! But somehow I can imagine him being curious as a cat at times. It was just Die and Kao talking about him in a friendly teasing way^^

And we try to update as regularly as possible^^ Thank you, ne! As usual.

[seinen-no.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm glad that you chose to point out this line since I really like it too. The meaning behind the words, of course. Heh, and since I'm a little older than the rest of you, I just understand him so well x)

Hope you'll like the rest too!

[charlesfilth.livejournal.com]

Like the ending really much. The repitition of the title of the fic... And I love the dialogues like always! ^^

[seinen-no.livejournal.com]

*bows* Thank you for the compliment.
It really means much to us that you like the dialogues, since we weren't sure about them in the beginning (not necessarily in this fic, but in general). I personally think it's hard to make them sound natural at times.

[mareilling.livejournal.com]

((stop with your first love, last love >.< ... I don't could stand having him back >.< ... geeeh *wedel*))

I'm really enjoying you writing a relationship that detailed, yet, it isn't even detailed that much, just the words are and the 14 chaps are promising ... what I wnat to say, you come strait to the point of attraction right away and still manage to keep the interest up, and the flame and all that stuff (not only in this story, we ONLY had 2 chaps until now, but also in your other works, if they happen to be longer, and fortunately also if they are shorte, the loved long chap thingy, you know) ... I lack words tonight.

love chap *herzel* :3

[mareilling.livejournal.com]

I don't could stand me writing in grausamem english too -.-
sorry

[silverdemon88.livejournal.com]

Aww this was awesome. Some of the things what you wrote made me giggle.

I really needed this right now, thanks for cheering me up and getting me to laugh and smile. :-D

cant wait for more. :D

[seinen-no.livejournal.com]

Glad that we managed to brighten your day a bit, dear. Some days are just shitty ne?
Thank you for your comment, 'cause those always brighten my day a little more^^

[mog-fuyu.livejournal.com]

^O^
Great chap!!!!!Love it!
Now I'm even more content that this will be my favourite.^^

I don't have much to say...actually there's a lot on my mind now, but I can't seem to find the words.

I loved how smoothly everything went and that they are able to talk about their feelings like that. Kaoru as bottom...hell, yes!!!!<333
When you mentioned the unused condom , I instantly thought that there will be something serious. Die gets sick or something and they have to deal with even more problems than only the divorce and Kaoru holding contact with his daughter. But still, I don't know what to think of the upcoming chapters. Why is it that you get right into action(which is pretty hot, sexy and well, detailed), but still manage to keep so much untold and left to the imaginagion?! A big hug for that.^^
I can't wait to read more of this and I'm sure there's some serious trouble to come.
sidenote: I love the thought of Totchi being nosy!!!XDDDDDDD

[fonulyn.livejournal.com]

Thank you dear! Your comment really made me smile here :D This might be one of my favorites too out of our stories, so it's nice to hear someone shares my opinion^^

Well, we tried our best to make this kinda a different fic, you know. Not like when they start liking each other and in the end they end up together and everyone's happy. We wanted to show a bit of 'real' life, how a relationship would work. Some drama and troubles is bound to happen then XD But I'm not gonna give away anything more about this, sorry XD

Gosh, I don't know what else I was supposed to say... x) But thanks again for your comment! ♥

[lifeisaglitch.livejournal.com]

This was a very good combo of smut and fluff. That said, there are a couple of things that were distracting... The word "coevally" was used too much and too close together. Also, in the sentence "For a long moment they staid silent..." it should be "stayed" not "staid".

Sorry. You didn't ask for a comment like this, but I'm such a grammar whore, I had to say something.

I really did enjoy reading it, though!

[seinen-no.livejournal.com]

Nono, it's good to point out things, really. Heh, and I guess you're right with the repetition of some words, here it's 'coevally' but those things manage to slip us both while editing our fics. We try to get better though^^

As for 'staid', (now before fonulyn again throws a fit about this XD, it's not wrong. We had this discussion with sb else before and looked into several grammar books. It's just the British way to say things or an old fashioned way or so.

Keep up pointing out things, because only then we can try to improve and being a grammar whore isn't necessarily a bad thing. I am too sometimes when it comes to German^^

Thank you for your comment and I'm (we're) glad that you still enjoyed reading.

[mementoxxmori.livejournal.com]

Kaoru and Die is quickly becoming a favorite pairing of mine, thanks to your stories. Keep up the great work! ^^

Btw, I really liked the way you wrote bottom Kaoru. It's so un Leader-sama like but you made it work brilliantly and it was quite realistic.

[fonulyn.livejournal.com]

That's so nice to hear, you know :D We love the pairing to death, so it's good to know some other people grow to like it too^^

And thank you :D We really appreciate the comment!

[jumpkaojump.livejournal.com]

♥

I read this last night when I was supposed to be sleeping already. Thanks. Now I am even more tired today.
That doesn't mean it wasn't worth it. XDD

I very much liked their dialouge, it made me giggle at times. XDD I was kinda surprised it went that way, but very nice. Hmmm..

And.. never again will I accept a pairing that's not D♥K. That's partly your fault. <3

[fonulyn.livejournal.com]

haha, I know how that is, I sometimes staid up too late just reading and was so dead the next day at school XD

And thank you! We were a bit uncertain in the beginning with dialogue, or at least seinen_no told me she was, so it's good to know we're getting it even somewhat natural^^

Aww, and that's SO good to hear :D We simply love the pairing and it makes me smile when others like it too!

[melissalovedie.livejournal.com]

this was just perfect to cheer me up after the shittiest day ever:) (involving falling on your face in a pile of stinging nettles and being laughed at <_<) the smut with bottom!Kao was great :DDD love things like that^^ anyway gotta go, update soon ^______________^

[fonulyn.livejournal.com]

Aww, poor you *hugs* I'm glad this cheered you up though! Always nice to be of help :D haha, and you too like it more when Kao's on bottom? x) Thank you for your comment!

[majesticmedusa.livejournal.com]

yay, i've finished both chaps. i liked this fic a lot...and kao on bottom is sexy ;D. update it soon!

[fonulyn.livejournal.com]

Thank you! We try not to make you wait too long^^ And we're glad to hear you enjoyed!

[mmmmmmm-fudge.livejournal.com]

you guys are just writing like crazy! it's been a while since i commented... but you know what i am going to say anyway.. keep up the good work.. i am loving this story and you guys are doing a great job..

[seinen-no.livejournal.com]

Damnit, lj didn't show me that we got another comment^^

Haha, yeah, we ARE writing like crazy. And believe me, only half of the stuff we do is postable while the rest is just for our own entertainment x)

Thank you, dear, really. *your icon still makes me hungry*

[charlesfilth.livejournal.com]

You might be right... Hahaha... Don't give me ideas. XD

[fatal-complexes.livejournal.com]

ukyaa~~love this chap! *nosebleed*
somehow can't stop smile and smirked when I read this chap,love the scene,hehehe3!

and now...*run to 3rd chap*BUZZ!!!

[seinen-no.livejournal.com]

*hands tissue to stop the bleeding*
Thanks dear! It's highly appreciated.

[terashii.livejournal.com]

HOLY SHIT. I was expecting it to be a dream. *READS NEXT CHAPTER*

[fonulyn.livejournal.com]

haha, sometimes the reality is even better than the dreams 8D Thanks for reading!

[velvet-liquor.livejournal.com]

Oh, second chapter and they're already doin' it =P That's goood *perverted grin*
What I especially like in that story is that feeling of real connection between the two, it feels so natural and so realistic... =]
*goes to the next chapter*

[fonulyn.livejournal.com]

*coughs* Fast progressing. For once 8D Okay okay we just couldn't keep them away from each other.

Aw thank you :) Glad to hear that the connection worked there!