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Title: Spread Your Wings; Chapter 5: Good Idea, Bad Idea
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seinen_no and fonulyn
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Die and Kaoru
Disclaimer: We own no one, only our dirty imaginations.
Summary: Die and Toshiya are unemployed and penniless, even sharing a crappy apartment as best friends although they can barely even afford that one either. Across the street there's a luxurious whore-house, and the two have the brilliant idea that they'll try to get inside information about how things are in there to be able to write a book about it, to cure all their financial problems. Everything doesn't go as planned though, and Die is fascinated by one of the prostitutes like a moth by a flame.
Comments:
fonulyn: Well well. In this chapter Die takes a decision to do something he maybe should've thought twice before agreeing to. But I'll let you read it for yourselves to find out what that decision was, and what happens to him. Ain't I mean? XD Well, this is just brainless babbling since I'm too tired and braindead right now honestly speaking…Just enjoy^^
seinen_no: I agree with fonulyn, Die's blind and impulsive, but you should read for yourself. I hope you like it, of course, and I won't say anything further about this now. Just as a side-note: If I knew Die, I'd serously spank him….
Previously happened: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4
Spread Your Wings
Chapter 5: Good Idea, Bad Idea
He spent more time with Kaoru during the following days, sacrificing all his free time for the purple haired man. It took another day until Kaoru was well enough to get up and the wounds were showing first signs of healing slowly. But after one week had passed, he was already working again, if not taking too many customers at once.
Die was a bit surprised that Toshiya hadn't asked him anything, since he knew his friend thought there was something unusual going on. They still worked on the book in the evenings when Die had happened to hear a bit of something from Kaoru or Toshiya had heard something in the kitchen.
But one night, the young black-haired man couldn't remain silent anymore. They were both lying on Die's bed, going through their notes, and suddenly, Toshiya burst out. "Now for fuck's sake tell me what you're doing there all the time when you're not asking him about his reasons for being a prostitute."
Die startled, as after all the question still took him by surprise. "Talking." He answered honestly. "Just chatting about things."
"But you spend almost all your days there," the other contradicted, his eyes gazing firmly into the redhead's. "Die, I know you. Please don't tell me you are falling for him."
"I told you. We're just talking." The redhead looked straight back, holding his friend's gaze. "Am I not allowed to be friends with him?" Inwardly he was slightly nervous though, because he knew that the other's words held some truth.
"Of course you are allowed to be friends with him, but don't you think it's odd to forget about your old friends at the same time? When did you last join us at lunch? You don't even take breakfast with us and if we wouldn't share the same apartment, we'd never see each other at all. You're still thinking about the book, right? I mean," Toshia opened his notebook at a random page, "I gathered more information than you and you're spending hours with him."
"But I want to know the real reasons why he's doing this." Die tried to come up with something even slightly believable. "When I asked, he said he's just overly horny, but that can't be it. He's not doing this as his job because of that, and I want to know what the real reason is."
"And why don't you know it already?" Toshiya had raised his voice but now shook his head sighing. "Die, just please make sure you're not getting yourself into troubles. You're losing yourself over this once. And for fuck sake, spend at least one of your free days outside and away from here."
"I know what I'm doing." The redhead smiled, slightly nervous though. "Didn't we agree that the book is the priority now? We've been wanting to publish something for forever now. I can't let the chance flow away."
"Okay." Although the other nodded and seeminly agreed, his eyes gave away that he knew his friend didn't tell the whole truth. However, Toshiya didn't want to cause a major scene and Die was indeed right when he said that the book was their first priority. They didn't talk about it after that anymore, but subconsciously Die started to spend a bit more time with his friends again. His thoughts were circling around Kaoru almost all the time though.
Toshiya noiced it though and he knew that his friend's behavior was directly connected to the talk they had had. So he hadn't been completely wrong with his assumptions. At least that was what he thought. Why else should Die have a bad conscience then? But soon, routine kicked in and the hard work made him forget his worries partly.
Die was still busy working for his three whores, but turned most of his attention at Kaoru who had grown to trust him as a friend slowly. At a very busy night, the redhead accidentally bumped into somebody while he had been rushing down the corridor to fetch some more strawberry flavoured lotion for Kenji.
"Hey. Watch your steps." The man was tall, had broad shoulders and the noble suit he wore gave away that he had to be a customer.
Instantly Die stepped a bit backwards and bowed lowly, hoping that the man wouldn't take it as an offence. "I'm so sorry. I'll watch where I'm walking from now on." He glanced up at the man, his eyes slightly widened as he waited for a reaction, practically holding his breath.
But the man simply grabbed his chin between his thumb and index-finger, forcing him to stand up again. For a few seconds, he eyed him and then smiled. "Tell me your name."
"Die." It escaped the redhead before he had even time to realize it. He was just too surprised by what was happening, trying to find an explanation why the man didn't just rush past him.
"Okay Die, now go where you were heading." With having said that, the man released him and turned around, leaving into the opposite direction.
It was later that evening, when Kyo came running upstairs, searching for the redhead. "Die, there you are." Huffing and puffing, the small blonde based his hands on his knees, inhaling deeply. "What did you do? The boss wants to see you immediately."
"See me?" Die looked completely surprised. "I didn't do anything." He couldn't help but to be nervous already, since there wasn't really anything he could've done wrong. Unless... "I only bumped at one customer earlier. Could it be that?"
"No, that's usually not something the boss takes care of. Anyhow," the blonde grabbed his sleeve and dragged him along, "we should hurry."
The redhead couldn't help but to look like a trapped animal when he was shoved into the boss' office as he still didn't know what he'd done to get himself into this. He tried to act cool though, politely nodding at the man behind the desk. "You wanted to see me?"
"Sit down Die." The man smiled and pointed at the chair opposite from him at the table. "There's something we need to talk about."
Obediently the addressed plopped down on one huge armchair. "Talk about?" He arched an eyebrow, still frantically trying to go through things in his mind. What had he done?
"Remember that you bumped into a man today? Well, that was one of our best customers." The man folded his arms across his chest, looking straight at the redhead and obviously enjoying the fact that Die was utterly confused.
"Oh," Die nodded, remembering the accident really well. "Look, it was an accident. I apologized, and he didn't seem to be mad. Did he complain about it then?"
"No, but he was so captivated by you that he offered me a lot of money if you're willing to give him a show." The dark haired man leaned over the table. "He likes to watch at times, likes to watch couples if you understand."
"Give him a show?" The redhead had a good guess what was meant, but he didn't want to believe it. This couldn't be happening to him, it was like in a bad movie. "What kind of show exactly?"
"He was totally enthusiastic about your pale skin and now wants to watch you being fucked," the boss stated bluntly, a smirk on his lips. "And the customer always gets what he wants, right?"
For a long moment Die just stared at his boss, eyes wide in shock as he still didn't believe this was happening for real. "So... You're saying I need to let someone fuck me so that he can watch? For real?"
The smirk widened and the man tilted his head a bit. "You'd earn a nice amount of money with that and coevally help me to fulfil that customer's wish. You do want to help me, don't you?" The man asked with a teasing undertone. "Neither of us would want to let a big fish like that slip away. Besides," he leaned further over the table, basing his palms on it, "you took such good care of Kaoru and I don't know how angry Mr Kakihara will be if we deny him his wish. He's one of Kaoru's most faithful customers."
"But I'm a servant. I do cleaning and take care that there's always enough of everything in the rooms. It's not a part of my job to..." Die stopped the middle of the sentence, not really knowing what to say. Only slowly, everything his boss had said began to sink into his brains. So was the man saying he should do it for Kaoru's sake? And for the money... Somewhat defeatedly he sighed.
"It's your decision. But Mr. Kakihara really wanted to watch you together with Kaoru. I have no idea why he suddenly came up with the idea, but that's not my job. It's my job to fulfil fantasies." The other opened a drawer and broke out a huge bundle of notes, slamming it on the table. "This is more than you earn in five months work." He shoved the bundle towards the redhead, smirking. "Kakihara-san knows you're only a servant. He knows it'd be your first time and that's what turns him on."
Die closed his eyes for a second, trying to sort the confusing mass inside his head. He didn't know what to make out of all this, but it sounded like the boss was determined to make him do it, only trying to keep up an illusion of his free will. But he couldn't help it that there was something enticing in the whole thought, knowing that it was supposed to happen with Kaoru. If it was anyone else Die wouldn't have even considered it, but now he found himself pretty much fascinated by the mere thought in a way.
Slowly he nodded, grabbing the pile of money from the table. "Alright. You've got a deal."
Wordlessly, the boss took the phone and made a call. Only secons later, the door opened and Kyo appeared in the frame, bowing lowly. "Sir?"
"Kyo, Die will work with Kaoru tonight. Mr Kakihara wants a show… You know." He added mysteriously and nodded at the blonde.
Kyo was unable to hide his shock, but got a hold of himself quickly. "Right now?" he asked.
"Yes. Kakihara's still in the bar but will come upstairs in a few minutes, so better be ready then."
Die's eyes widened slightly at the last words as well, since he hadn't thought it would happen this soon. He had more assumed that it would take place some other day in the near future. But it was too late to back off now, and he forced himself to calm down somewhat.
Kyo was speeding down the hall, dragging him along but didn't say a word. Only when they were standing before the door to Kaoru's room, he turned to look at the redhead. "I hope you know what you're doing."
Without waiting for a reply, he flung the door open and pushed Die inside. Kaoru was just stepping into a pair of jeans and flinched at the sudden intrusion. "What's going on?" he asked surprised when he spotted the two.
"Die'll be your partner tonight. I'll go and see if I can save you some time till Kakihara comes..." the blonde burst out and turned on his heel, leaving the room like a whirlwind.
"You... what? Are you nuts? What the fuck's gotten into you?" Kaoru stared at his friend in disbelief, his eyes wide.
"Well..." Die looked somewhat stunned, lost even, and didn't know what to do or say about the whole matter. "The boss talked to me, and said I have to... I mean... That guy wants to..." It only turned out as some incoherent incomplete sentences when he tried to explain.
"If you wanted to fuck me, you could've said so," the purple-haired man grunted, and went to his drawer, snatching a small tube from it. "You are stupid! A stupid idiot. Do you have the slightest idea what you have gotten yourself into?"
Obviously fuming, Kaoru approached the redhead and grabbed his arm, dragging him towards a table. Without Die being able to protest or resist, he opened his pants and pushed them down, forcing him to bend over the table with his legs spread apart as far as possible because he was limited by the garment which was dangling around his ankles still.
"Inhale." Kaoru moved behind him and suddenly brought his hand between his legs, quickly pushing a finger into him. The lube made it easy and he didn't waste much time before he added the second finger, scissoring them to stretch the passage.
Die squirmed slightly, but had to notice that the other's grip on him was surprisingly strong and he couldn't get away, at least not with half hearted attempts like that. "What are you doing?"
Technically he knew what, but he still had to ask, just to have something to say. The feeling of having something inside of him was odd, not completely unpleasant but something he hadn't gotten used to in the slightest.
"Preventing you from being torn apart," Kaoru hissed through clenched teeth. Knowing how little time they had, he added a third finger, not caring that it certainly didn't feel nice for the redhead. After a few seconds, he retreated his digits again though and reached for a tissue box, whiping the obvious traces of lube off the redhead's thighs and butt.
There was a clearly visible blush on the Die's face when he turned around to pull his pants up again, feeling utterly embarrassed and uneasy. "I..." Somehow he wanted to apologize, but then stopped again and just inhaled deeply.
"Listen to me, Die. This man likes to watch, yes, but he likes it because he enjoys to see and hear the pain as much as passion. He likes to imagine us a couple, doing it rough. He hasn't asked for this in a long time, so he must really like you." Kaoru grabbed Die's shoulders, looking him in the eyes seriously. "But he won't touch you. It will only be me."
"I still don't get it. I only saw him in the corridor, for a second or something..." Die bit his lower lip slightly. He wasn't so sure that it had been clever to agree to this, but it was too late to take it back now anyway. At least he knew that the man wouldn't touch him and that comforted him a great deal. After all, he didn't have anything against Kaoru touching him.
The purple-haired man quickly went to the bathroom to wash his hands and then looked at Die. "He won't like you wearing a suit. Get out of the shirt and jacket quickly. I give you a shirt of mine."
He didn't react on his friend's incoherent question since he didn't know the answer himself, but he did know that in a minute, this door would swing open and from then on they wouldn't be able to talk things through. So he rushed to his closet in the room next doors and dug out a simple black shirt. "Here, this should fit. Just keep the pants on."
Quickly Die got off the shirt he had, and tossed it on the chair, pulling the black shirt on. The nervousness was increasing with each passing second, as he knew that any moment the customer would walk in, and then that would be it. From then on everything would have to go as he wished things to go.
When he was done, Kaoru again took a hold of his shoulders and looked at him straight, a frown on his forehead. "I won't tell you now that it's going to be the best fuck you ever had, that it's going to be all pleasure and that shit. It's going to hurt. But I want you to remember that nothing that happens here has anything to do with how things are between us. Got it?"
Die nodded dumbly, just staring the other in the eye. "Okay." He realized what he was saying though, but was just too much bewildered to react in a more clever way. "It's gonna hurt a lot, right?" His voice was only faint, and he didn't really even expect an answer.
Just then, the door opened and the customer entered. Pleased, Kakihara measured first the redhead, then let his gaze wander over to Kaoru. He was used to the fact that everything was set when he came and just sat down in the armchair close to the bed, eying the two. "Maybe you should dim the light a bit. I'm more into cosy secrecy." He suggested and Kaoru instantly followed his wish.
The fact, that he was supposed to do this with Die, his friend, made him nervous too and he still cursed the redhead for agreeing upon this. He hadn't lied though with telling him that he could've had this for free. But there was no use in mourning over spilled milk and there was no way to escape now anyways.
So when he had approached Die again, he gave him a hard shove which caused him to fall backwards on the bed. Immediately, Kaoru was above him, a faint encouraging smile tugging his lips when he lowered his head to kiss him passionately.
He knew Kakihara liked to see this too, liked to see their tongues meet, hear the soft smacking sounds and see the longing touches a couple usually exchanged.
Although Die had been completely aware of what would follow, he still gasped surprised as the other leaned down to kiss him like that. He couldn't help but to like it though, momentarily forgetting that there was someone else in the room.
He had wondered how Kaoru's kisses would be like, how it would feel, and now he just momentarily had to concentrate on the sensation only. He trusted that the other would take the lead anyways, and was just prepared to follow somehow.
The others purple hair fell loosely over his shoulders, the sides and gently touched parts of Die's face when Kaoru tilted his head a bit to deepen the contact and coevally unbuttoned the taller man's shirt with one hand. He could feel the frantically beating heart underneath his fingertips as he slid them across the smooth skin, along the other's firm chest.
Right at that moment, Die didn't remember any other occasion of his life when he had been this nervous. The only thing that calmed him down was that it was Kaoru there with him, it were Kaoru's hands which were sliding over his skin and Kaoru's lips on his own.
Though his touches were soft and tender, they were nevertheless determined since Kaoru never forgot about Kakihara even for a split second. After all, the man had paid a lot of money for this and he was trained to fulfill his customer's wishes.
Still, there was something odd in the situation, different from when he had shared an act like this with either one of his co-whores or a total stranger. Here, there were feelings involved as he truly liked the redhead, didn't want to hurt or disgust him.
After his fingers had undone the last button, they didn't stop their journey downwards and went straight to the other's pants, first only brushing over his groin, then cupping the bulge in his palm, squeezing gently. An audible moan told him that Kakihara enjoyed this scene as well, but suddenly, it was more important that Die enjoyed it. He told himself that only if the redhead liked what they did, it would be believable for the customer, but this wasn't the true reason.
Instinctively Die arched up towards the touch, his eyes falling shut momentarily when a pleasant wave coursed through him. On some level he was conscious of the customer's presence, but a large part of his mind was just directed to the man above him, leaving no room for thinking about the third one in the room. The nervousness hadn't vanished completely though, showing in the slight tension of his body and the misplaced look in his eyes.
When the flesh in his palm was swell enough, Kaoru left the redhead's lips and kissed a trail along his neck, tentalizingly biting and nibbling the skin there while he slowly opened the button of the trousers and pulled down the zipper. He made sure to touch all the right spots in doing so and only when he really needed his second hand, sat up, hooked his fingers in the waistband of pants and boxers, and pulled both of them down at once, exposing the redhead for everybody in the room.
Instantly a deep blush appeared on Die's face, but that was pretty much the only reaction from him. He didn't panic, didn't freak out although he had feared himself that it might happen. He just forced himself to look straight at the purple-haired man, seeking some sort of safety from the contact.
Kaoru bent down and brought his lips close to Die's ear, whispering. "You must touch me too. Aid me with undressing." After having said that, he took the other's hand and pressed it between his legs, releasing a low moan. One couldn't tell if it was real or only meant to arouse the customer.
Pushing all nervousness to the background, Die collected himself, knowing he should take part in this as well. Tentatively he moved his hand along the other's groin, while trying to open the button of his pants with his other hand.
The frequency of Kaoru's breathing increased and he staid completely still for a moment, only sighing audibly when the heat rushed through his body, gathering right between his legs. But in a second, the blissful expression on his face became more shallow again and he moved to unbutton his own shirt.
Rather swiftly the redhead managed to get the other's pants open despite the shaking of his hands, and tugged them down somewhat. The nervousness was trying to seep back into his mind, but again he forced it back, forced it to get away.
It was sufficient enough for the purple haired man though and in a swift movment, he slid between Die's legs. Only after casting a re-assuring glance at Kakihara who nodded hardly visible, he went on. Sliding one of his hands to each hollow of the other's knees, he lifted his hips and then just thrust forward. It was hard to pierce through that virginal entrance, but thanks to the prepping and the lube, it went smoother than he had feared.
It was still enough to make Die scream and throw his head backwards almost violently. It hurt, more than he had expected as he felt like being torn apart. His whole being tensed instinctively until every single muscle seemed to be about to snap. The louder scream was followed by weaker whimpers which still clearly spoke of the redhead's pain.
A forceful shiver went through Kaoru's body and he quickly brought his hand back to the other's aroausal, stroking to distract him even partly from the pain. When he began to move, his thrusts were rhythmical and forceful right from the start. His lips were busy kissing and nibbling every inch of skin in reach, quiet moans falling from his lips.
One short glance at Kakihara from the corner of his eyes told Kaoru that he did just as he wanted. The man had his hand in his lap and was groaning as he had heard Die's scream, enjoying the display of pain on his face as the purple haired knew.
A constant flow of small pained whimpers was still falling from Die's lips, but it was slowly getting better. The stroking on his arousal distracted him from the burning pain, as well as the kisses all over his neck and upper chest. Ever so slowly, he was actually beginning to enjoy the feelings, the pleasure mixing with the pain, causing unkown sensations to run through him.
Kaoru looked like he was lost in the feelings, his eyes on halfmast, lips slightly parted with quiet sighs and moans escaping them every now and then, but in reality, he was focused on hurting Die as less as possible and still delivering a good show for their customer. But when he felt the tension slowly leave the body beneath him, he allowed the thrusts to come harder and more demanding. Not one second did he stop his ministrations on Die's length, his hand ably providing him pleasure in synch with his movements.
With the leaving tension within Die's body, it all began to hurt less, because his own muscles weren't fighting the intrusion any longer. At one point he was actually able to enjoy the feelings the moment made him go through, and instead of whimpering in pain a low line of quiet groans escaped him.
Suddenly, Kaoru pulled away from him unexpectedly and turned him around. He grabbed his hips urging him to get on his fours before invading him again. Steadying Die with his grasp, he moved quicker than before, reached deeper inside him.
The movement had taken Die by surprise, but he was even more surprised as all suddenly something flashed in front of his eyes, an electric wave of pleasure shooting right through him. He screamed again, this time not of pain though, but because he couldn't get a hold of himself in time to prevent it.
Somewhere from the corner where Kakihara was sitting resonated a loud groan, but Kaoru couldn't have cared less. Simply knowing what Die felt at that moment, practically feeling it himself, was all too tempting to go on like this, to repeat this action. But he knew that doing it this way would cause the other even more pain afterwards and he only wanted to finish both of them soon.
So he guided one arm around the other's waist to pull him closer against himself, coevally taking a hold of his length again. The noises from the dark corner were clear; Kakihara would be done soon and thus Kaoru stroke Die quickly while he himself held back.
A few desperate whimpers were erupting from Die's throat, and he tried to move back against the man behind him weakly, needing more of something, he didn't even have words at that moment for what it was he wanted. All these new sensations were too much for him to take eventually though and soon his whole being tensed again, yet another scream tearing its way out of his throat as he released himself almost violently.
Someting like a relieved groan erupted from Kaoru's throat when he pulled away from the redhead and finished himself with a couple of strokes, his relase spilling all over Die's back and his butt. Only then, he sat down on his heels, inhaled deeply and peeked at their customer, worried if this had been enough for his likes.
The man was just wiping his hand with tissue and nodded wordlessly. Then, he buttoned his pants and stood up, approaching he bed. "This wasn't bad, but I hope to see some more of you once," he gave away smirking, addressing the redhead. He threw some more bills on the bed next to him, turned around and left.
Die didn't make a move to get the money, just staid still on the spot where he'd collapsed. He didn't know what to say nor how to react, as the mass of confusing emotions and feelings inside him was too much to sort right now.
The purple-haired man watched him for a few moments, but then finally got up and went into the bathroom. One could hear the rush of water when he returned and softly touched Die's shoulder. "C'mon, take a bath to get rid of the stains. It will also help relax and make it easier for you tomorrow."
Die nodded slowly and got up to a seated position although it caused a burning feeling in his lower back. He didn't dare to look the other man in the eye, somehow ashamed of his own behaviour. It was late to realize it now, but he knew he should've acted differently. This hadn't been the most clever way to cure the hunger he had for the other's proximity.
Very much to his surprise, Kaoru followed him into the bathroom and sat down in the tub opposite to him. There was no accusation in his voice when he spoke, only curiosity. "And, are you content now that you know how it feels to be a whore?" Nothing gave away anything of his own feelings, but he surely wasn't angry, maybe disappointed though.
"I don't know." Die spoke slowly, his voice silent. "I don't know much about anything right now." He pulled his legs close to himself, hugging them with his arms. For a moment he looked down, before turning his eyes to meet the other's. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done this to you."
"You should be sorry." Kaoru nodded agreeing, his voice soft and contemplative. "But not for me. Die," he looked up, searching for the redhead's gaze, "what has gotten into you? I didn't want to hurt you, really not. If you need the money, you could've asked me. I would've given you some."
"It's not about the money," Die confessed silently, his eyes turned to his hands as he toyed with his fingers nervously. "Although the boss sounded like he wouldn't give me much of a choice anyways." He tried to chuckle, but knew it was a lousy excuse, since he could've just walked out at any moment.
"Hey..." Kaoru nudged his foot under water with his own. "Technically, you don't owe me an explanation. But I just can't believe that you chose something like this for your first time. I mean..." He fell silent, not really knowing what he meant and just at a loss of words to describe his confusion.
"I didn't really have any idea how it'd be." The redhead finally looked the smaller man in the eye, sighing a bit. "I guess I was just naïve or something... and didn't think about it long enough."
"Well, for the next couple of days, your sore butt will remind you that it's better to think things through thoroughly." Suddenly, there was a sparkle in Kaoru's eyes. "But you did a good job. Many don't even get it up. So don't worry. He won't complain."
Die almost said that it was only because of Kaoru, and that he wouldn't have managed to go through any of it with somebody else, that he wouldn't have even agreed on it if it had been with anyone else. Finally, he decided that those thoughts would be better just forgotten, and didn't say any of them. "I guess that's a good thing then." He chuckled, nodding a bit as he chose the more safe reply.
"It is," the purple-haired man nodded.
Suddenly, the door opened and one could hear somebody work in the bedroom before a blond head appeared in the doorframe. It was Kyo and his expression was petrified, didn't give away what he thought. "I just... I quickly change the sheets and bring you some more towels." Swiftly, he placed a stach of towels on a shelf in the bathroom and then left.
"He's pissed," Kaoru remarked dryly after Kyo was gone again. "And worried."
"And I'm so screwed." With a sigh, Die buried his face in his palms, rubbing his temples. "Tosh will so kill me. And my friends will all hate me for this." He didn't know why he even spoke those thoughts out loud, but somehow, when he was with Kaoru, he felt like he didn't need to fear telling him what was going on in his mind.
"Die." In a swift movement, Kaoru got on his knees and grabbed the redhead's chin to make him look up. "You have to deal with this. This is part of being a whore; dealing with the self-disgust, the pain and the fear that others will disrespect you. But Toshiya is your friend and I doubth he'll drop you. It's been your decision. Explain them."
"But I don't know how to explain it." Die looked totally helpless, his voice only a faint whisper. "I can't even explain it to myself."
"Then tell them you did that in a fit of mental delusion, because you wanted to know what happens behind these closed doors," the purple-haired man suggested in standing up. He stepped out of the bathtub and began to dry himself with a towel. "Out with you. I wanna take a look at your butt," he demanded.
Obediently the redhead stood up, getting off the bathtub. He was too confused to even be embarrassed for a moment, mechanically grabbing a towel to dry himself as well.
After he was done, Kaoru grabbed his shoulders and gently pushed him towards the bedroom where he made him lie down on the bed. With careful movements, he parted the redhead's buttcheeks and sighed relieved when he saw that he wasn't torn. Quickly, he added some salve still and then patted his friend's behind. "Everything's okay. You'll still ache, but that's just normal."
There was a blush on Die's face and he quickly wrapped himself into the towel, suddenly totally aware of his bareness. "Thanks." He still felt the need to mutter his appreciation, because the other man had been nice to him after all. Probably nicer and more understanding than he would've deserved.
"Die," Kaoru began and sat down at the edge of the bed, looking at him seriously, "if you need someone to talk to, you can always come to me. But I suggest you go to bed now and rest. I still have a customer coming later."
"I guess you're right." The redhead nodded, his gaze fastened on the floor. "But I still need to work too."
"You won't work today." The other shook his head. "You will now go, lie down and try to sleep a bit. The boss talked you into this, the boss will live with you not working today."
The comment earned the purple haired man a small but honest smile from the redhead. "Thanks. Really." Slowly he got up, ignoring the unpleasant feeling in his lower back and went to fetch his clothes which were folded on the chair.
Right after he was gone, Kaoru lay down in the middle of the bed, his back resting on a pile of cushions. If one looked closely, one could see the worry in his eyes, could see his running thoughts.
Author:
seinen_no and fonulynRating: NC17
Pairing: Die and Kaoru
Disclaimer: We own no one, only our dirty imaginations.
Summary: Die and Toshiya are unemployed and penniless, even sharing a crappy apartment as best friends although they can barely even afford that one either. Across the street there's a luxurious whore-house, and the two have the brilliant idea that they'll try to get inside information about how things are in there to be able to write a book about it, to cure all their financial problems. Everything doesn't go as planned though, and Die is fascinated by one of the prostitutes like a moth by a flame.
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fonulyn: Well well. In this chapter Die takes a decision to do something he maybe should've thought twice before agreeing to. But I'll let you read it for yourselves to find out what that decision was, and what happens to him. Ain't I mean? XD Well, this is just brainless babbling since I'm too tired and braindead right now honestly speaking…Just enjoy^^seinen_no: I agree with fonulyn, Die's blind and impulsive, but you should read for yourself. I hope you like it, of course, and I won't say anything further about this now. Just as a side-note: If I knew Die, I'd serously spank him….Previously happened: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4
Chapter 5: Good Idea, Bad Idea
He spent more time with Kaoru during the following days, sacrificing all his free time for the purple haired man. It took another day until Kaoru was well enough to get up and the wounds were showing first signs of healing slowly. But after one week had passed, he was already working again, if not taking too many customers at once.
Die was a bit surprised that Toshiya hadn't asked him anything, since he knew his friend thought there was something unusual going on. They still worked on the book in the evenings when Die had happened to hear a bit of something from Kaoru or Toshiya had heard something in the kitchen.
But one night, the young black-haired man couldn't remain silent anymore. They were both lying on Die's bed, going through their notes, and suddenly, Toshiya burst out. "Now for fuck's sake tell me what you're doing there all the time when you're not asking him about his reasons for being a prostitute."
Die startled, as after all the question still took him by surprise. "Talking." He answered honestly. "Just chatting about things."
"But you spend almost all your days there," the other contradicted, his eyes gazing firmly into the redhead's. "Die, I know you. Please don't tell me you are falling for him."
"I told you. We're just talking." The redhead looked straight back, holding his friend's gaze. "Am I not allowed to be friends with him?" Inwardly he was slightly nervous though, because he knew that the other's words held some truth.
"Of course you are allowed to be friends with him, but don't you think it's odd to forget about your old friends at the same time? When did you last join us at lunch? You don't even take breakfast with us and if we wouldn't share the same apartment, we'd never see each other at all. You're still thinking about the book, right? I mean," Toshia opened his notebook at a random page, "I gathered more information than you and you're spending hours with him."
"But I want to know the real reasons why he's doing this." Die tried to come up with something even slightly believable. "When I asked, he said he's just overly horny, but that can't be it. He's not doing this as his job because of that, and I want to know what the real reason is."
"And why don't you know it already?" Toshiya had raised his voice but now shook his head sighing. "Die, just please make sure you're not getting yourself into troubles. You're losing yourself over this once. And for fuck sake, spend at least one of your free days outside and away from here."
"I know what I'm doing." The redhead smiled, slightly nervous though. "Didn't we agree that the book is the priority now? We've been wanting to publish something for forever now. I can't let the chance flow away."
"Okay." Although the other nodded and seeminly agreed, his eyes gave away that he knew his friend didn't tell the whole truth. However, Toshiya didn't want to cause a major scene and Die was indeed right when he said that the book was their first priority. They didn't talk about it after that anymore, but subconsciously Die started to spend a bit more time with his friends again. His thoughts were circling around Kaoru almost all the time though.
Toshiya noiced it though and he knew that his friend's behavior was directly connected to the talk they had had. So he hadn't been completely wrong with his assumptions. At least that was what he thought. Why else should Die have a bad conscience then? But soon, routine kicked in and the hard work made him forget his worries partly.
Die was still busy working for his three whores, but turned most of his attention at Kaoru who had grown to trust him as a friend slowly. At a very busy night, the redhead accidentally bumped into somebody while he had been rushing down the corridor to fetch some more strawberry flavoured lotion for Kenji.
"Hey. Watch your steps." The man was tall, had broad shoulders and the noble suit he wore gave away that he had to be a customer.
Instantly Die stepped a bit backwards and bowed lowly, hoping that the man wouldn't take it as an offence. "I'm so sorry. I'll watch where I'm walking from now on." He glanced up at the man, his eyes slightly widened as he waited for a reaction, practically holding his breath.
But the man simply grabbed his chin between his thumb and index-finger, forcing him to stand up again. For a few seconds, he eyed him and then smiled. "Tell me your name."
"Die." It escaped the redhead before he had even time to realize it. He was just too surprised by what was happening, trying to find an explanation why the man didn't just rush past him.
"Okay Die, now go where you were heading." With having said that, the man released him and turned around, leaving into the opposite direction.
It was later that evening, when Kyo came running upstairs, searching for the redhead. "Die, there you are." Huffing and puffing, the small blonde based his hands on his knees, inhaling deeply. "What did you do? The boss wants to see you immediately."
"See me?" Die looked completely surprised. "I didn't do anything." He couldn't help but to be nervous already, since there wasn't really anything he could've done wrong. Unless... "I only bumped at one customer earlier. Could it be that?"
"No, that's usually not something the boss takes care of. Anyhow," the blonde grabbed his sleeve and dragged him along, "we should hurry."
The redhead couldn't help but to look like a trapped animal when he was shoved into the boss' office as he still didn't know what he'd done to get himself into this. He tried to act cool though, politely nodding at the man behind the desk. "You wanted to see me?"
"Sit down Die." The man smiled and pointed at the chair opposite from him at the table. "There's something we need to talk about."
Obediently the addressed plopped down on one huge armchair. "Talk about?" He arched an eyebrow, still frantically trying to go through things in his mind. What had he done?
"Remember that you bumped into a man today? Well, that was one of our best customers." The man folded his arms across his chest, looking straight at the redhead and obviously enjoying the fact that Die was utterly confused.
"Oh," Die nodded, remembering the accident really well. "Look, it was an accident. I apologized, and he didn't seem to be mad. Did he complain about it then?"
"No, but he was so captivated by you that he offered me a lot of money if you're willing to give him a show." The dark haired man leaned over the table. "He likes to watch at times, likes to watch couples if you understand."
"Give him a show?" The redhead had a good guess what was meant, but he didn't want to believe it. This couldn't be happening to him, it was like in a bad movie. "What kind of show exactly?"
"He was totally enthusiastic about your pale skin and now wants to watch you being fucked," the boss stated bluntly, a smirk on his lips. "And the customer always gets what he wants, right?"
For a long moment Die just stared at his boss, eyes wide in shock as he still didn't believe this was happening for real. "So... You're saying I need to let someone fuck me so that he can watch? For real?"
The smirk widened and the man tilted his head a bit. "You'd earn a nice amount of money with that and coevally help me to fulfil that customer's wish. You do want to help me, don't you?" The man asked with a teasing undertone. "Neither of us would want to let a big fish like that slip away. Besides," he leaned further over the table, basing his palms on it, "you took such good care of Kaoru and I don't know how angry Mr Kakihara will be if we deny him his wish. He's one of Kaoru's most faithful customers."
"But I'm a servant. I do cleaning and take care that there's always enough of everything in the rooms. It's not a part of my job to..." Die stopped the middle of the sentence, not really knowing what to say. Only slowly, everything his boss had said began to sink into his brains. So was the man saying he should do it for Kaoru's sake? And for the money... Somewhat defeatedly he sighed.
"It's your decision. But Mr. Kakihara really wanted to watch you together with Kaoru. I have no idea why he suddenly came up with the idea, but that's not my job. It's my job to fulfil fantasies." The other opened a drawer and broke out a huge bundle of notes, slamming it on the table. "This is more than you earn in five months work." He shoved the bundle towards the redhead, smirking. "Kakihara-san knows you're only a servant. He knows it'd be your first time and that's what turns him on."
Die closed his eyes for a second, trying to sort the confusing mass inside his head. He didn't know what to make out of all this, but it sounded like the boss was determined to make him do it, only trying to keep up an illusion of his free will. But he couldn't help it that there was something enticing in the whole thought, knowing that it was supposed to happen with Kaoru. If it was anyone else Die wouldn't have even considered it, but now he found himself pretty much fascinated by the mere thought in a way.
Slowly he nodded, grabbing the pile of money from the table. "Alright. You've got a deal."
Wordlessly, the boss took the phone and made a call. Only secons later, the door opened and Kyo appeared in the frame, bowing lowly. "Sir?"
"Kyo, Die will work with Kaoru tonight. Mr Kakihara wants a show… You know." He added mysteriously and nodded at the blonde.
Kyo was unable to hide his shock, but got a hold of himself quickly. "Right now?" he asked.
"Yes. Kakihara's still in the bar but will come upstairs in a few minutes, so better be ready then."
Die's eyes widened slightly at the last words as well, since he hadn't thought it would happen this soon. He had more assumed that it would take place some other day in the near future. But it was too late to back off now, and he forced himself to calm down somewhat.
Kyo was speeding down the hall, dragging him along but didn't say a word. Only when they were standing before the door to Kaoru's room, he turned to look at the redhead. "I hope you know what you're doing."
Without waiting for a reply, he flung the door open and pushed Die inside. Kaoru was just stepping into a pair of jeans and flinched at the sudden intrusion. "What's going on?" he asked surprised when he spotted the two.
"Die'll be your partner tonight. I'll go and see if I can save you some time till Kakihara comes..." the blonde burst out and turned on his heel, leaving the room like a whirlwind.
"You... what? Are you nuts? What the fuck's gotten into you?" Kaoru stared at his friend in disbelief, his eyes wide.
"Well..." Die looked somewhat stunned, lost even, and didn't know what to do or say about the whole matter. "The boss talked to me, and said I have to... I mean... That guy wants to..." It only turned out as some incoherent incomplete sentences when he tried to explain.
"If you wanted to fuck me, you could've said so," the purple-haired man grunted, and went to his drawer, snatching a small tube from it. "You are stupid! A stupid idiot. Do you have the slightest idea what you have gotten yourself into?"
Obviously fuming, Kaoru approached the redhead and grabbed his arm, dragging him towards a table. Without Die being able to protest or resist, he opened his pants and pushed them down, forcing him to bend over the table with his legs spread apart as far as possible because he was limited by the garment which was dangling around his ankles still.
"Inhale." Kaoru moved behind him and suddenly brought his hand between his legs, quickly pushing a finger into him. The lube made it easy and he didn't waste much time before he added the second finger, scissoring them to stretch the passage.
Die squirmed slightly, but had to notice that the other's grip on him was surprisingly strong and he couldn't get away, at least not with half hearted attempts like that. "What are you doing?"
Technically he knew what, but he still had to ask, just to have something to say. The feeling of having something inside of him was odd, not completely unpleasant but something he hadn't gotten used to in the slightest.
"Preventing you from being torn apart," Kaoru hissed through clenched teeth. Knowing how little time they had, he added a third finger, not caring that it certainly didn't feel nice for the redhead. After a few seconds, he retreated his digits again though and reached for a tissue box, whiping the obvious traces of lube off the redhead's thighs and butt.
There was a clearly visible blush on the Die's face when he turned around to pull his pants up again, feeling utterly embarrassed and uneasy. "I..." Somehow he wanted to apologize, but then stopped again and just inhaled deeply.
"Listen to me, Die. This man likes to watch, yes, but he likes it because he enjoys to see and hear the pain as much as passion. He likes to imagine us a couple, doing it rough. He hasn't asked for this in a long time, so he must really like you." Kaoru grabbed Die's shoulders, looking him in the eyes seriously. "But he won't touch you. It will only be me."
"I still don't get it. I only saw him in the corridor, for a second or something..." Die bit his lower lip slightly. He wasn't so sure that it had been clever to agree to this, but it was too late to take it back now anyway. At least he knew that the man wouldn't touch him and that comforted him a great deal. After all, he didn't have anything against Kaoru touching him.
The purple-haired man quickly went to the bathroom to wash his hands and then looked at Die. "He won't like you wearing a suit. Get out of the shirt and jacket quickly. I give you a shirt of mine."
He didn't react on his friend's incoherent question since he didn't know the answer himself, but he did know that in a minute, this door would swing open and from then on they wouldn't be able to talk things through. So he rushed to his closet in the room next doors and dug out a simple black shirt. "Here, this should fit. Just keep the pants on."
Quickly Die got off the shirt he had, and tossed it on the chair, pulling the black shirt on. The nervousness was increasing with each passing second, as he knew that any moment the customer would walk in, and then that would be it. From then on everything would have to go as he wished things to go.
When he was done, Kaoru again took a hold of his shoulders and looked at him straight, a frown on his forehead. "I won't tell you now that it's going to be the best fuck you ever had, that it's going to be all pleasure and that shit. It's going to hurt. But I want you to remember that nothing that happens here has anything to do with how things are between us. Got it?"
Die nodded dumbly, just staring the other in the eye. "Okay." He realized what he was saying though, but was just too much bewildered to react in a more clever way. "It's gonna hurt a lot, right?" His voice was only faint, and he didn't really even expect an answer.
Just then, the door opened and the customer entered. Pleased, Kakihara measured first the redhead, then let his gaze wander over to Kaoru. He was used to the fact that everything was set when he came and just sat down in the armchair close to the bed, eying the two. "Maybe you should dim the light a bit. I'm more into cosy secrecy." He suggested and Kaoru instantly followed his wish.
The fact, that he was supposed to do this with Die, his friend, made him nervous too and he still cursed the redhead for agreeing upon this. He hadn't lied though with telling him that he could've had this for free. But there was no use in mourning over spilled milk and there was no way to escape now anyways.
So when he had approached Die again, he gave him a hard shove which caused him to fall backwards on the bed. Immediately, Kaoru was above him, a faint encouraging smile tugging his lips when he lowered his head to kiss him passionately.
He knew Kakihara liked to see this too, liked to see their tongues meet, hear the soft smacking sounds and see the longing touches a couple usually exchanged.
Although Die had been completely aware of what would follow, he still gasped surprised as the other leaned down to kiss him like that. He couldn't help but to like it though, momentarily forgetting that there was someone else in the room.
He had wondered how Kaoru's kisses would be like, how it would feel, and now he just momentarily had to concentrate on the sensation only. He trusted that the other would take the lead anyways, and was just prepared to follow somehow.
The others purple hair fell loosely over his shoulders, the sides and gently touched parts of Die's face when Kaoru tilted his head a bit to deepen the contact and coevally unbuttoned the taller man's shirt with one hand. He could feel the frantically beating heart underneath his fingertips as he slid them across the smooth skin, along the other's firm chest.
Right at that moment, Die didn't remember any other occasion of his life when he had been this nervous. The only thing that calmed him down was that it was Kaoru there with him, it were Kaoru's hands which were sliding over his skin and Kaoru's lips on his own.
Though his touches were soft and tender, they were nevertheless determined since Kaoru never forgot about Kakihara even for a split second. After all, the man had paid a lot of money for this and he was trained to fulfill his customer's wishes.
Still, there was something odd in the situation, different from when he had shared an act like this with either one of his co-whores or a total stranger. Here, there were feelings involved as he truly liked the redhead, didn't want to hurt or disgust him.
After his fingers had undone the last button, they didn't stop their journey downwards and went straight to the other's pants, first only brushing over his groin, then cupping the bulge in his palm, squeezing gently. An audible moan told him that Kakihara enjoyed this scene as well, but suddenly, it was more important that Die enjoyed it. He told himself that only if the redhead liked what they did, it would be believable for the customer, but this wasn't the true reason.
Instinctively Die arched up towards the touch, his eyes falling shut momentarily when a pleasant wave coursed through him. On some level he was conscious of the customer's presence, but a large part of his mind was just directed to the man above him, leaving no room for thinking about the third one in the room. The nervousness hadn't vanished completely though, showing in the slight tension of his body and the misplaced look in his eyes.
When the flesh in his palm was swell enough, Kaoru left the redhead's lips and kissed a trail along his neck, tentalizingly biting and nibbling the skin there while he slowly opened the button of the trousers and pulled down the zipper. He made sure to touch all the right spots in doing so and only when he really needed his second hand, sat up, hooked his fingers in the waistband of pants and boxers, and pulled both of them down at once, exposing the redhead for everybody in the room.
Instantly a deep blush appeared on Die's face, but that was pretty much the only reaction from him. He didn't panic, didn't freak out although he had feared himself that it might happen. He just forced himself to look straight at the purple-haired man, seeking some sort of safety from the contact.
Kaoru bent down and brought his lips close to Die's ear, whispering. "You must touch me too. Aid me with undressing." After having said that, he took the other's hand and pressed it between his legs, releasing a low moan. One couldn't tell if it was real or only meant to arouse the customer.
Pushing all nervousness to the background, Die collected himself, knowing he should take part in this as well. Tentatively he moved his hand along the other's groin, while trying to open the button of his pants with his other hand.
The frequency of Kaoru's breathing increased and he staid completely still for a moment, only sighing audibly when the heat rushed through his body, gathering right between his legs. But in a second, the blissful expression on his face became more shallow again and he moved to unbutton his own shirt.
Rather swiftly the redhead managed to get the other's pants open despite the shaking of his hands, and tugged them down somewhat. The nervousness was trying to seep back into his mind, but again he forced it back, forced it to get away.
It was sufficient enough for the purple haired man though and in a swift movment, he slid between Die's legs. Only after casting a re-assuring glance at Kakihara who nodded hardly visible, he went on. Sliding one of his hands to each hollow of the other's knees, he lifted his hips and then just thrust forward. It was hard to pierce through that virginal entrance, but thanks to the prepping and the lube, it went smoother than he had feared.
It was still enough to make Die scream and throw his head backwards almost violently. It hurt, more than he had expected as he felt like being torn apart. His whole being tensed instinctively until every single muscle seemed to be about to snap. The louder scream was followed by weaker whimpers which still clearly spoke of the redhead's pain.
A forceful shiver went through Kaoru's body and he quickly brought his hand back to the other's aroausal, stroking to distract him even partly from the pain. When he began to move, his thrusts were rhythmical and forceful right from the start. His lips were busy kissing and nibbling every inch of skin in reach, quiet moans falling from his lips.
One short glance at Kakihara from the corner of his eyes told Kaoru that he did just as he wanted. The man had his hand in his lap and was groaning as he had heard Die's scream, enjoying the display of pain on his face as the purple haired knew.
A constant flow of small pained whimpers was still falling from Die's lips, but it was slowly getting better. The stroking on his arousal distracted him from the burning pain, as well as the kisses all over his neck and upper chest. Ever so slowly, he was actually beginning to enjoy the feelings, the pleasure mixing with the pain, causing unkown sensations to run through him.
Kaoru looked like he was lost in the feelings, his eyes on halfmast, lips slightly parted with quiet sighs and moans escaping them every now and then, but in reality, he was focused on hurting Die as less as possible and still delivering a good show for their customer. But when he felt the tension slowly leave the body beneath him, he allowed the thrusts to come harder and more demanding. Not one second did he stop his ministrations on Die's length, his hand ably providing him pleasure in synch with his movements.
With the leaving tension within Die's body, it all began to hurt less, because his own muscles weren't fighting the intrusion any longer. At one point he was actually able to enjoy the feelings the moment made him go through, and instead of whimpering in pain a low line of quiet groans escaped him.
Suddenly, Kaoru pulled away from him unexpectedly and turned him around. He grabbed his hips urging him to get on his fours before invading him again. Steadying Die with his grasp, he moved quicker than before, reached deeper inside him.
The movement had taken Die by surprise, but he was even more surprised as all suddenly something flashed in front of his eyes, an electric wave of pleasure shooting right through him. He screamed again, this time not of pain though, but because he couldn't get a hold of himself in time to prevent it.
Somewhere from the corner where Kakihara was sitting resonated a loud groan, but Kaoru couldn't have cared less. Simply knowing what Die felt at that moment, practically feeling it himself, was all too tempting to go on like this, to repeat this action. But he knew that doing it this way would cause the other even more pain afterwards and he only wanted to finish both of them soon.
So he guided one arm around the other's waist to pull him closer against himself, coevally taking a hold of his length again. The noises from the dark corner were clear; Kakihara would be done soon and thus Kaoru stroke Die quickly while he himself held back.
A few desperate whimpers were erupting from Die's throat, and he tried to move back against the man behind him weakly, needing more of something, he didn't even have words at that moment for what it was he wanted. All these new sensations were too much for him to take eventually though and soon his whole being tensed again, yet another scream tearing its way out of his throat as he released himself almost violently.
Someting like a relieved groan erupted from Kaoru's throat when he pulled away from the redhead and finished himself with a couple of strokes, his relase spilling all over Die's back and his butt. Only then, he sat down on his heels, inhaled deeply and peeked at their customer, worried if this had been enough for his likes.
The man was just wiping his hand with tissue and nodded wordlessly. Then, he buttoned his pants and stood up, approaching he bed. "This wasn't bad, but I hope to see some more of you once," he gave away smirking, addressing the redhead. He threw some more bills on the bed next to him, turned around and left.
Die didn't make a move to get the money, just staid still on the spot where he'd collapsed. He didn't know what to say nor how to react, as the mass of confusing emotions and feelings inside him was too much to sort right now.
The purple-haired man watched him for a few moments, but then finally got up and went into the bathroom. One could hear the rush of water when he returned and softly touched Die's shoulder. "C'mon, take a bath to get rid of the stains. It will also help relax and make it easier for you tomorrow."
Die nodded slowly and got up to a seated position although it caused a burning feeling in his lower back. He didn't dare to look the other man in the eye, somehow ashamed of his own behaviour. It was late to realize it now, but he knew he should've acted differently. This hadn't been the most clever way to cure the hunger he had for the other's proximity.
Very much to his surprise, Kaoru followed him into the bathroom and sat down in the tub opposite to him. There was no accusation in his voice when he spoke, only curiosity. "And, are you content now that you know how it feels to be a whore?" Nothing gave away anything of his own feelings, but he surely wasn't angry, maybe disappointed though.
"I don't know." Die spoke slowly, his voice silent. "I don't know much about anything right now." He pulled his legs close to himself, hugging them with his arms. For a moment he looked down, before turning his eyes to meet the other's. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done this to you."
"You should be sorry." Kaoru nodded agreeing, his voice soft and contemplative. "But not for me. Die," he looked up, searching for the redhead's gaze, "what has gotten into you? I didn't want to hurt you, really not. If you need the money, you could've asked me. I would've given you some."
"It's not about the money," Die confessed silently, his eyes turned to his hands as he toyed with his fingers nervously. "Although the boss sounded like he wouldn't give me much of a choice anyways." He tried to chuckle, but knew it was a lousy excuse, since he could've just walked out at any moment.
"Hey..." Kaoru nudged his foot under water with his own. "Technically, you don't owe me an explanation. But I just can't believe that you chose something like this for your first time. I mean..." He fell silent, not really knowing what he meant and just at a loss of words to describe his confusion.
"I didn't really have any idea how it'd be." The redhead finally looked the smaller man in the eye, sighing a bit. "I guess I was just naïve or something... and didn't think about it long enough."
"Well, for the next couple of days, your sore butt will remind you that it's better to think things through thoroughly." Suddenly, there was a sparkle in Kaoru's eyes. "But you did a good job. Many don't even get it up. So don't worry. He won't complain."
Die almost said that it was only because of Kaoru, and that he wouldn't have managed to go through any of it with somebody else, that he wouldn't have even agreed on it if it had been with anyone else. Finally, he decided that those thoughts would be better just forgotten, and didn't say any of them. "I guess that's a good thing then." He chuckled, nodding a bit as he chose the more safe reply.
"It is," the purple-haired man nodded.
Suddenly, the door opened and one could hear somebody work in the bedroom before a blond head appeared in the doorframe. It was Kyo and his expression was petrified, didn't give away what he thought. "I just... I quickly change the sheets and bring you some more towels." Swiftly, he placed a stach of towels on a shelf in the bathroom and then left.
"He's pissed," Kaoru remarked dryly after Kyo was gone again. "And worried."
"And I'm so screwed." With a sigh, Die buried his face in his palms, rubbing his temples. "Tosh will so kill me. And my friends will all hate me for this." He didn't know why he even spoke those thoughts out loud, but somehow, when he was with Kaoru, he felt like he didn't need to fear telling him what was going on in his mind.
"Die." In a swift movement, Kaoru got on his knees and grabbed the redhead's chin to make him look up. "You have to deal with this. This is part of being a whore; dealing with the self-disgust, the pain and the fear that others will disrespect you. But Toshiya is your friend and I doubth he'll drop you. It's been your decision. Explain them."
"But I don't know how to explain it." Die looked totally helpless, his voice only a faint whisper. "I can't even explain it to myself."
"Then tell them you did that in a fit of mental delusion, because you wanted to know what happens behind these closed doors," the purple-haired man suggested in standing up. He stepped out of the bathtub and began to dry himself with a towel. "Out with you. I wanna take a look at your butt," he demanded.
Obediently the redhead stood up, getting off the bathtub. He was too confused to even be embarrassed for a moment, mechanically grabbing a towel to dry himself as well.
After he was done, Kaoru grabbed his shoulders and gently pushed him towards the bedroom where he made him lie down on the bed. With careful movements, he parted the redhead's buttcheeks and sighed relieved when he saw that he wasn't torn. Quickly, he added some salve still and then patted his friend's behind. "Everything's okay. You'll still ache, but that's just normal."
There was a blush on Die's face and he quickly wrapped himself into the towel, suddenly totally aware of his bareness. "Thanks." He still felt the need to mutter his appreciation, because the other man had been nice to him after all. Probably nicer and more understanding than he would've deserved.
"Die," Kaoru began and sat down at the edge of the bed, looking at him seriously, "if you need someone to talk to, you can always come to me. But I suggest you go to bed now and rest. I still have a customer coming later."
"I guess you're right." The redhead nodded, his gaze fastened on the floor. "But I still need to work too."
"You won't work today." The other shook his head. "You will now go, lie down and try to sleep a bit. The boss talked you into this, the boss will live with you not working today."
The comment earned the purple haired man a small but honest smile from the redhead. "Thanks. Really." Slowly he got up, ignoring the unpleasant feeling in his lower back and went to fetch his clothes which were folded on the chair.
Right after he was gone, Kaoru lay down in the middle of the bed, his back resting on a pile of cushions. If one looked closely, one could see the worry in his eyes, could see his running thoughts.
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So good job, my dears. Now let's see if I will dream of this chapter. XD
And I'm begging for more soon!!
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And yeah, Die was dumb for that. He just didn't think it though since he desperately wanted a good excuse to get into Kao's pants x) I would've slapped him for that though, just like seinen_no said already in her comment!
*coughs* Isn't Kakihara just a perfect name for that guy? XD
Thanks again dear^^ And if you dream of the chap you'd better tell us about it too XD heh, and we try to post the next chap soon already^^
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Aw, but it's still cute even if completely dumb but I just hope that Die makes up his mind and shows other ways of getting into Kao's pants. Besides, Kao would be more impressed by that.
Perfect name! *nodnod* That way I can imagine him very well. XD
Good.^^ You leave me all needy, huns.
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I had to laugh a hell lot at the name too in the beginning to be honest :D
Needy? Aw, that doesn't sound too much like fun XD We try to fix it in the near future.
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And live porn is soo cool. I'd pay a million gazillion bucks to be the Kakihara guy. <33 Seriously. Though I may not be able to keep myself in the chair. (I'll just totally hop in) OK. TMI. XD
Thanks for writing!~ *Eagerly awaits next chapter*
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Believe me, I would pay a hell lot to be in his shoes XD That's a sight that I definitely would wanna see...
Thanks for reading^^ And I promise that it won't take too long before the next chap arrives^^
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WOW!!!I didn't see this coming either!
And I can only repeat what Kaoru said:What's gotten into Die?
Well, he was curious in some way. And maybe was worried that Kaoru has to suffer again, if he denies the customers wishes, but...???Oo It's not the best way to satisfy his curiosity and show his affection for his friend.
He got Kaoru in a very unpleasent situation,too. After all he cares for Die. The way Kaoru reacted on the whole thing was so cool. I don't find the right words to say it. It must be hard to know that you have to do a good job, but at the same time you care for the other so much and don't want to hurt him. And yet you'd like to strangle the other at the same time for being this dumb. He handled the situation quite well. I liked his reactions and that he took care of Die afterwards. The things he said about dealing with the concequences and stuff were wonderful. Caring. And true.
This was a wonderful chapter. You totally took me by surprise.^^ It was hot, exciting and made me wonder what this will do to their relationship all at once. Thank you so much!!!^^
I didn't tell you before, but I love Kyo!His role is just so suitable. The caring, but always a little grumpy guy, who sees things through.
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Kaoru's situation is in a way even more unpleasant than Die's. He wasn't given the choice even, and Die just appeared there and he was told he would have to do it with him no matter what he thought of it himself. Die at least got to make his [dumb] decision himself.
Aw, and thanks :D We both love Kyo too, he's just totally adorable and we should take him into the fics more often^^
Thanks again for reading and commenting! It's highly appreciated!^^
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Yeah, that's what I thought too. Die really didn't think things through.
Hopefully this won't harm their relationship.I'm soooo curious about the upcoming happenings!!^^
He maybe is not a main character, but his role is soo important.I just love him.XDDDD
*blushes*
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And I am trying to get the next chapter posted today, so be ready^^ heh, more adorable Kyo and some more information about where Kao and Die are heading with their relationship^^
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That's great!!!!^^ so I've got something to look forward to, when I come home from work!!!!*cheers*
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Now I wanna know what happensssssss >__< NYAH
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You will find out what happens^^ heh, and even fairly soon, we try to update latest in a couple of days now.
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hmm hmm. I so don't wanna say anything to give out what will happen x) Even when it's kinda obvious I try not to confirm people's suspicions, since if I start talking, I will never shut up XD
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I have to admit, that I really didn't expect something like that. Die is being quite ... well... dumb!!! When I read the passage where the boss suggests the "deal" to him, I was like: "Woah, you can't do that! Die, you ain't that stupid..." Unfortunately, I was wrong though.
I mean, it's sweet that he doesn't want Kaoru to get hurt again, but it's still overly stupid. ヾ(ΩдΩ*)
Nevertheless, I like it how Kaoru reacts - in the professional way. Even though he is pissed because of Die's decision, he handles the situation well... Furthermore it becomes very clear that he is worried about his friend [hopefully, he will be much more than a friend soon (∂η∂) ]. I like the scenes after Kakihara left. There you can see how much he really cares for him. When he offers him to talk if needed, etc... And of course, the very last sentence of this chapter:
If one looked closely, one could see the worry in his eyes, could see his running thoughts.
That makes curious for more. I think, we might be looking forward to the next chapter and maybe we even should be anxious about Die? I hope, you won't let him suffer too much... m(___)m
PS: (∂η∂) Kyo~~~ (⌒ω⌒) *fangirl* He's great!!!! THANKS!!!!
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And Kao, well, he reacts in the only possible way that makes some real sense in the situation. If he had just started yelling at Die for being so dumb it hadn't done much good at that point... And it's good to know you liked how he acted^^ heh, he is trying to look after his friend in his own way kinda.
Kyo is just lovable ;) And thanks for reading and commenting again dear!
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hm, I would say he did it for both those reasons. He was curious, but at the same time didn't wanna cause any troubles for Kao. Which was the main reason for him to do it? Well, when it comes to that everyone has to decide their opinion themselves^^
Thank you so much! We will try to be quick with the next chapter, and it should be up in a couple of days latest if nothing happens^^
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Awh..~ It was a good idea with this special wish of the customer Die was running into. If I were this customer, I've would have a wish like that, too.. And I hope he'll get this once again..~ [Oh, I'm such a perv >>]
And Die did a good job, I think~ ^-^
Uhm..~
Waiting for the next chapter!<3
Love and kisses,
Namida
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heh, and we have to admit we would've kinda liked to be the customer as well x) He got one hell of a show!
Yeah, Die did good for someone in his situation^^
We try to be swift with the next chappie^^ *hugs*
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For it was his first time!<3
Awh..~ I want to read more about this *__*
Hihi..
And you two did a great job, too!
Uhm.. And I'm awaiting the next chap inmatiently!<3
*hugs back*
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this was srsly surprising, i mean what the heck?! Die you're a fool, now ppl like Kakihara will want you more and you'll become a fulltime whore and your life will be destroyed and...and....*panics*
*hum* back to the normal comment: at least we have some DXK smut x) [even though it's perverted to say it XD]
i love how Kao was so gentle with Die. Man i'd kill to be in that rich-guy's place, such a nice sight x)
keep the chappies coming ladies :DDD
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And we will definitely keep the chapters coming :D Thankies!
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I can't wait for the next one, guys! ^^ I think you've really got me attached to this one.
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We will try to be quick with the next chap and get it up either today or tomorrow. No promises made though, other than that we'll try :D Thank you for reading and commenting!
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I had guessed Die with a customer but this way is even better! ^^
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I didn't see that coming at all. Holy crap..i never wana bump into an important looking stranger. Ever.
That was so sexy however, i like how dispite the way Kaoru felt, he was still nice to Die rather than yelling at him. I cant wait to year Totchi's reaction!
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