Yeah, and thank goodness there's Kaoru to help him :3
aww you shouldn't hate yourself for that! *hugs* it's really good when fanfiction touches the tough subjects in life, cuz life isn't as bright as we want it to be, ne? ^^

I mean.. if it was bright, then Die and Kaoru would be gay in RL and they'd definitely be a couple *halos* :3 and Diru would write and perform a birthday song for me that I desperately want *sigh*