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Title: Against All Odds; Chapter 7
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seinen_no and fonulyn
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Die and Kaoru
Disclaimer: We own no one, only our dirty imaginations.
Comments:
seinen_no: I keep it short today, 'cause I'm too tired to say anything clever. Enjoy!
fonulyn: Okay, I’m too breaindead to say anything at all XD just enjoy it! The story is nearing its end already.
Previously happened: Against All Odds, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6
Against All Odds
Chapter 7
Kaoru was lying on his bed, dozing a bit, but when he heard the door open, he turned his head to look at the younger. "What took you so long?"
"Mom and her baby-talk." Die smiled brightly, closing the distance and sitting down on the edge of the other's bed as soon as he had closed the door. "Missed me already?"
"No." Kaoru shook his head grinning. "But I thought if it'd be worth to wait till you come back or if I should retreat to some nice sweet dreams."
"You'd so easily just replace me?" The younger tried to form a pout, and handed the glass of water to the other. "Here."
The smirk still in its place, Kaoru took the glass and instantly sipped from it. He was still half lying and thus some water escaped his mouth and ran down his chin and neck. "Well, who said I wouldn't have dreamed about you?"
"I don't know." Die tilted his head, looking at him questioningly. "Would you?"
"Maybe..." The older sounded teasing and gave his face a pondering expression. "I'm quite sure you would've been there too at least."
"Too?" Die arched an eyebrow. "With whom?"
"I don't know." Purposefully casual, Kaoru shrugged. "Possibly with some made up characters."
"I'm not sure if I want to talk about this anymore." Die laughed, shaking his head a bit.
"Why?" The other arched an eyebrow, looking as innocent as he could.
"I just don't." Quickly the redhead leaned in and pecked Kaoru's lips. "So I guess I could try to get some sleep now."
"Wait, wait." Kaoru sat up and grabbed the hem of Die's shirt. "You wanna say I was waiting in vain here?"
"Yes." The redhead blinked at him innocently, but didn't make a move to get further.
Inwardly, the older was laughing, but played along and stared at the other with huge puppy dog eyes. "So you're going over to your own bed now and just leave me here thinking about you?"
"That sounds kinda tempting." It was getting harder and harder for Die to suppress his grin. "If you don't have any better suggestions?"
"Well..." Kaoru drawled, his eyes fastened on his hands which were tugging the hem of Die's shirt. "I could as well show you what you would've been missing if you hadn't come back." Suddenly, he looked up, directly into the other's eyes.
The redhead's heart was beating frantically, and it felt like it was beating in his throat. Slowly he nodded though, trying to grin securely. "Show me."
Wordlessly, the older stripped him of his shirt in a swift, fluent movement and then gently forced him to lie down on his back. Tugging the blanket away, he enabled himself to move freely and instantly crushed his mouth on Die's, kissing him hungrily and somewhat demanding while his hands determinedly roamed down the other's chest to the cuff of his jeans.
Die practically clung to the kiss, being hopelessly nervous otherwise. But he knew he wanted this, and forced himself to calm down and concentrate on the way the other was kissing him and touching him softly. It was somehow relieving that the other clearly knew what he was doing, and soothed the nervousness on its part too.
Kaoru slowed down and took his time, not wanting to rush things. Whenever he felt the younger tense, his body stiffen, he stopped his advances and settled for caressing him or just kissing him gently without dominating too much. Although he had done this already before, he found himself nervous as well, his hands trembling when he fumbled to open the button of Die's jeans. It were the enormous emotions, the utter affection he felt that made this special and unique.
Somewhere in the back of his mind, he regretted that he wasn't the first, thinking Die had done it with the girl earlier that evening. However, he was determined to make this unforgettable for him, to show him pure pleasure. Slowly, he pulled down the zipper and then tentatively slid his fingers inside, only softly brushing over the slight bulge in the boxers.
Die gasped, instinctively arching up a bit to the touch. The other's mere presence did things to him, made his heart beat faster and this certain tickling feeling appear in his stomach, like it'd be full of butterflies. But now that the other was kissing him, touching him it just made him feel that they were the only two persons on earth and he simply wanted to share the moment with Kaoru. He just wanted to give himself to him, and wished he'd accept the offer.
The fact that Die didn't pull away but seemed to want more encouraged Kaoru and he grew more self-confident. It was as if both of them were listening to each other, communicating without words and just through their actions. First, the older brushed over the shorts more firmly a couple of times, but then, he retreated his hand and instead took a firm hold of the jeans to tug them down along with the boxers. His heart was beating frantically and he directed his gaze at the younger's eyes, ready to stop if he found the slightest trace of uneasiness there.
The redhead couldn't help but to blush furiously as the other helped him out of his jeans, because he had never been in a situation like this before in his life. He felt somewhat exposed, nervous and unsure of himself. But he tried to smile at the other, not wanting him to take the embarrassment as a sign to stop. Kaoru wouldn't have stopped as he understood how Die felt. Smiling indulgently, he leaned forward and planted a soft kiss on his forehead, then on his eyebrows, his eyes and cheeks. "It's okay. You're beautiful." He took his hand, kissing his palm and then slowly guided it down to his own crotch.
"There's no need to be afraid. It's only me. Just tell me when to stop." Biting his bottom lip, Kaoru was waiting what the other would do, anticipated to be touched himself. The blush still hadn't subsided, but Die managed to get a some kind of hold of himself, just determined to enjoy the moment. He stole a quick kiss from Kaoru, before brushing over his groin. He wanted as much to touch him as to be touched himself, and despite his nervousness and insecurity he just went with the feeling, acting mostly on instinct.
A quiet sigh escaped the older's lips and he closed his eyes. Being touched like that by the one he loved, by Die, was something special and blissful in itself. Instantly, his body was reacting to the feelings that were rushing through his veins, the heat gathering in his groin, and he subconsciously pressed himself closer against the other. Quickly, he removed the last piece of clothing that was dividing them and then bowed his head to kiss the redhead deeply while grinding against him.
The younger couldn't help but to groan into the kiss, the feeling that shot through his mind making him arch up in search of more friction. The feeling of the Kaoru's skin on his own was simply glorious, contentment in itself and for the first moment he forgot his nervousness, the other sensations overpowering it. There was one thought bothering him though, and as the kiss broke he searched for the other's gaze. "Wait... I need to tell you something." His voice sounded odd and a huge part of him just wanted to plead for more. But this bothered him too much and he needed to get it said.
Kaoru's chest was heaving from excitement already and he had to gasp for breath. It took a moment until he could focus his hazed vision on the other, but then he nodded. "Too fast?" Actually, he hadn't heard all of Die's words, only that he should wait and although he was aching for more, simply wanted to have him as close as possible, to feel his skin as much as to taste it, he stopped obediently.
"No no," Die shook his head, swallowing to steady his voice. He looked Kaoru deep in the eye, practically drowning in those depths. "I didn't do it with her." Somehow he wanted him to know that he was his first, and that he hadn't really gone that far with this whole girlfriend-thing.
Although it didn't really matter to Kaoru anymore, hearing those words caused his heart to skip a few beats and certain warmth spread inside him. He couldn't explain it to himself, but he was relieved and more than glad. Gently, he pecked Die's lips and then again searched for his gaze. "Thank you. I mean for telling me and..." In lack of words, he shook his head smiling. "I hope you don't regret it once."
"I won't. I just didn't want to do it with anyone else but you." Die smiled, leaning close to kiss the other again. He was sure now that this had been the right decision, as being with the girl had felt so wrong all the time and now with Kaoru, he just felt like he belonged here.
Kaoru's answer was drowned in the kiss, but he didn't care, because he was sure Die knew how much it meant to him to hear those words. As the kiss went on, it grew more passionate, more longing and he used his position to grind his hips against the other's again, addicted to the feeling the contact evoked in him. The redhead groaned into the kiss, the electric laces of pleasure shooting through him. He just yearned for more, needed to feel as much of Kaoru as possible. On their own accord, his hands roamed down the other's back, caressing the smooth skin and just enjoying the feeling of it against his fingertips.
After they parted for air, Kaoru began to move his lips down the younger's neck to his collarbone where he playfully bit down. Everything in Die affected him, turned him on and made him want more. His hands were continuously running up and down the other's sides and he tried to imprint every feeling, every sound into his memory. To him, it felt like his first time as well, as if he had never been with somebody before.
Slowly Die grew more self confident as well, and wasn't just overly scared to ruin everything by doing something wrong or so. After all, everything felt so natural to him. He tried to arch up against the other, groaning again as he just needed the friction. Suddenly he remembered their parents though and tried to bite back the sounds which threatened to spill from his lips, not wanting to be heard by them.
Inwardly, Kaoru cursed the fact that they weren't alone and he thought they should've tried to get a room somewhere as he loved the noises that were flowing from the redhead's lips and he thought it was a waste that he had to try to suppress them. It was challenging though and added up to the tension that was lingering in the air. Determinedly, he left Die's neck and moved southwards, only briefly paying attention to his chest until he reached his navel and lower stomach. He could feel the younger tense for a moment when he dragged his tongue over the smooth skin, moving further towards his groin.
Die couldn't help but to be slightly nervous again, the nervousness mixing with anticipation though. It was just all so new to him, as he was the only one who had ever laid hands on himself. But the fact that it was Kaoru made him just look forward to each moment, and to forget about the uncomfortable feelings almost instantly.
Feeling the other's nervousness made Kaoru a bit nervous as well. What if Die didn't like what he did? After all, he had no idea how it was to be with another man, hadn't even been with a woman before. But one thing he knew for sure, he was determined to make this as pleasurable for him as possible. Slowly, almost teasingly, he brushed his tongue along the other's length, only to lace his fingers around the base and to take the tip between his lips.
For a short moment Die forgot everything, his nervousness as well as the fact that he was supposed to be quiet. A strangled cry left his throat as the pleasure shut down his brains, being something he didn't know how to handle. But it was so good, and he just wanted more of the feeling.
A shiver ran through Kaoru and his heart seemed to jump up to his throat in shock. He was praying nobody had heard the other and instinctively slowed down his movements for a couple of seconds. Other than that, he wanted more himself, loved the effect his ministrations had on Die, enjoyed providing him pleasure like that. After a few moments, he was sure that nobody came up to them and then lowered his head, tentatively sucking while he stroke the part that wasn't covered by his mouth.
This time the redhead was able to get enough grip of himself to hold back the groans that threatened to break free. His chest was heaving, as he simply just gasped for breath desperately. Instinctively, he tried to move his hips up to gain more of the feeling.
For a short moment, Kaoru felt surreal, like this wasn't really happening. His body was aching in need and still he didn't pay attention to it but directed his whole attention at the other boy and at the display of pleasure on his face. He only left him for as long as it took to coat two fingers in saliva and then quickly engulfed his whole length again, trying to take it all in his throat. While moving his tongue around the turgid flesh, massaging it as best he could, he carefully brought one finger to Die's entrance and, searching for his gaze, slowly pushed it inside.
Die could feel his body tense at the intrusion, but he forced himself to relax. His heart was pounding frantically, because the nervousness was trying to come back to his consciousness, but the ultimate pleasure the other provided smothered it effectively.
Kaoru kept the movement of his finger slow and tried his best to distract the other with his mouth. When he felt the tension slowly leaving the other's body, he inserted a second finger and scissored them to stretch him properly. However, he knew how nervous Die was and knew that he probably had no idea what would be so good in that. So he pushed them deeper until he found that certain bundle of nerves to sweep over.
Again Die almost cried out, but managed to bite his bottom lip forcefully to smother the sound. His back arched when an unknown flame of pleasure just blinded him for a moment. He had no idea what that had been, but he wanted to feel it again, wanted more of the other.
The older took his time with preparing him, knowing it would hurt less then. Coevally, he just enjoyed the moment although he was painfully hard himself. But after some time, he couldn't bear it any longer and retreated both, his head and fingers. With a cocky smile, he pushed his hand under his pillow and broke out a condom which he had stored there while Die had been downstairs with his mother.
Die couldn't help but to chuckle breathlessly as he saw what the other had, along with the grin on his face. "You're prepared at least." His voice sounded thick but he got the words out surprisingly steady still.
"I was hoping I'd get lucky today," the older winked smirking and quickly opened the wrapping. His chest heaving, but the huge smirk still in its place, he rolled the condom over his arousal, purposefully allowing Die to watch.
Subconsciously the redhead parted his legs a bit further, his gaze locked on what the other was doing. The slight nervousness was there once again, but this time it wasn't panicking, it was more like nervously waiting and looking forward to what would follow.
When he was done, Kaoru reached for something else, a small tube and smeared a bit of its content on the condom and on Die's entrance after kneeling down between his legs. He bit his lips and since he didn't want to frighten the other more than necessary, he didn't again tell him that it would hurt in the beginning. Carefully, he pushed Die's legs up and shifted closer, never leaving his eyes. His arousal was already pressing against the tight ring of muscles, but still he felt like he needed the other's confirmation. "Ready?"
Die swallowed hard, locking his gaze with his. For a small moment he just forced himself to relax as much as possible, before giving the other a nod. "Ready."
Carefully, Kaoru moved his hips forward and slowly penetrated the younger. For a second, he had to close his eyes as he stopped when he was half way inside, the frantic clenching muscles providing an almost painful pleasure. To distract Die from the pain, he showered his face with dozens of small kisses, constantly whispering loving words and telling him to relax.
The first thing that filled Die's mind was the burning pain, feeling like he was being torn apart violently. He gripped the other's shoulders tight, holding on as if his life would depend on it. He had known it'd be painful, the other had told him himself, but this was more than he had been prepared for.
Patiently, the older remained still, only caressing the other's cheeks. But when he felt him relax slightly, he pushed on until he was buried inside him completely. A smile was tugging his lips as he remembered his own first time, remembered very well how bad it had felt at first and how odd it was to have something inside. But he also remembered the pleasure which had drowned out the pain ,once the other had begun to move and struck his prostate. So he pulled away a bit and picked up a slow, gentle rhythm, waiting for a sign that Die began to enjoy himself.
Slowly Die was beginning to feel like he wasn't dying after all, and noticed that he actually even liked the way the other was so close to him, filling him completely. His grip on Kaoru's shoulders loosened a bit too, as he begun to relax more and more. Then all suddenly something flashed in front of his eyes again, a small groan escaping him as a wave of pleasure coursed through him.
"Feeling better?" Kaoru asked hoarsely and coevally picked up the pace and force of his thrusts a bit, trying to hit the right spot all the time. The tightness, which was surrounding him, brought enormous pleasure with every movement, brought a delicious mixture of pain and pleasure and he couldn't hold back a few small groans himself. Just feeling Die's skin on his own already drove him insane, but being buried deep inside him was indescribable.
The younger only managed a hasty nod as an answer, before another pleasant wave robbed him his consciousness. It was getting harder for him to gasp enough breath, as the intense feelings pushed him further and further with each passing second.
It didn't take long and Kaoru couldn't gather a clear thought anymore and allowed his body to move quicker, at the pace it needed. As he was steadily nearing the edge, he moved his hand between their bodies and laced his fingers around the younger's hardness to provide him even more pleasure.
Again Die had to bite his lip hard to prevent the low groans from tearing their way out of him. It was all just too much, too new and too pleasurable, and he realized he couldn't hold out much longer. Only a few moments later his whole being tensed forcefully, bliss drowning out everything in his mind as he reached the climax, releasing himself with a strangled cry.
The violent clenching of his muscles was too much for Kaoru and he tensed as well, almost freezing for a split second before the orgasm hit him forcefully, bereaving him of his senses. Shuddering, he released himself and even after the trembling of his body had ceased, he remained like that for a few moments.
The redhead practically collapsed on the mattress, trying to gasp for breath desperately. He felt utterly good, content like never before. After pecking his lips, Kaoru pulled out of him and removed the condom, dropping it heedlessly on the floor. He couldn't describe how good he felt, and how special it had been just because he loved the younger so much. Shifting a bit to the side, he lay down next to Die, instantly nuzzling close to him.
Still trembling a bit Die snuggled closer to the other, sighing contently as he was allowed to just stay there close to him and enjoy the feelings together. "Thanks." He couldn't help but to smile all the time.
With a lot effort, Kaoru lifted his head and answered the smille with one of his own. "Welcome." He took a few deep breaths, but then even giggled. "Gods, for your first time, you weren't bad at all." It was true. Though Die hadn't done much, the way he had moved against him, had reacted to what he had done had been simply enticing, had driven him mad.
"But you did all the work." The redhead chuckled, his eyes sparkling. He didn't even waste a thought to moving into his own bed, as his mother had said they'd be gone in the early morning and he trusted their parents wouldn't want to disturb their sleep.
Lovingly, the older brushed a strand out of Die's face and pecked his forehead. "I gladly did it." Smiling, he fumbled for the blanket and tugged it over their heated bodies. "Can you stay here or do you think your mom could look after us again?" he asked quietly after a few moments. All he wanted was to be near the other, to hold him as much as being held.
"She told me they'll go to the appointment with the doc in the early morning. So I don't think they'll come to check on us." Die answered honestly, leaning even closer to the other, closing his eyes contently.
Before he could drift off, physically and mentally exhausted from the ups and downs the day had brought, Kaoru kissed the other's lips shortly. "Good night and sweet dreams."
"Good night." The younger couldn't sleep instantly though, all the things just running through his mind. Suddenly he had to laugh, but he smothered the sound by burying his face into the other's shoulder.
Kaoru had just been about to drift off, but the other's chuckles instantly caught his attention. "What?" he asked, smacking a few times to make his voice sound steadier.
"I thought you would be sleeping by now." Die looked at the other with sparkling eyes, not answering his question instantly.
"I was about to." The older smirked and lifted his head, curiously arching an eyebrow. "So tell me, what's so funny?"
"I just happened to remember what you told me when you moved in." The redhead grinned. "That I would never have to sleep in your ugly bed."
"Well," Kaoru drawled snickering, "technically I was right. I didn't force you."
"I know." Die nodded. "But it still is a damn ugly bed."
"And it still is good for some tying up." The older contradicted giggling. It seemed like a metaphor that Die had a wooden bed, being all warm, sensitive and easily scratched himself while he had a metal one, cold and stable on the outside, but once warm holding the heat for longer.
"Well, that's true." The other admitted instantly, chuckling again. "So now just wait for the next time we're home alone?"
"You are impossible." Kaoru laughed freely and shook his head. He remembered to keep his voice down though when he went on. "Just remember your mom's face when she barges in and finds either of us tied to the bed, naked."
"Oh gosh. I wouldn't want to hear that shrieking ever." Die shook his head, imagining the reaction his mother would have instantly.
"So we should be very sure that they can't come home suddenly when we try something like that." At a moment's notice, Kaoru became serious and cupped his lover's cheek with his hand. "We have to keep this a secret. Here and at school. I don't want you to suffer because of what we have."
"I was kinda afraid you'd say that." The younger smiled faintly. "But you're right. Mom would have a major attack and we'd be the national weirdoes at school..."
"It's only for the best. If this was a big city, it would be different, but you'd face some major assaults if people found out." Kaoru knew that their relationship would spread throughout the whole town within hours once somebody found out. He feared more for Die than for himself since all the people the younger knew would most definitely shun him if they found out.
"It still doesn't mean I have to like hiding it." Die shrugged, but just cuddled close to the other, intending to try getting some sleep. "But I know it's for the best for both of us." He was afraid mostly of the reaction their parents would have, since he was sure that at least his mother would disapprove strongly.
All the worries about their future were pushed to the background once Kaoru had the other close to himself again. He wasn't sure what his father would say if he found out. After all, he was almost certain that he at least suspected that his son was gay, but it was only a feeling and he had no proof for it. "Let's just see how it works out and try our best." Sighing, he hugged Die tightly against himself, intending to get some sleep as well as he was still exhausted and on the other hand overly happy and content.
They both slept well that night, content in each other's embrace. And they were lucky, as their parents didn't come to check on them that night, nor the next morning. Only when the alarm begun to shriek on the bedside table Die stirred awake, and it took him a few moments to realize where he was.
Kaoru blinked tiredly as he stirred awake. "Why's the alarm shrieking? It's Saturday." He mumbled, not fully at his senses yet. Only after a few moments, he noticed that the younger man lay beside him and that they both were still naked. He flinched, sat up and then grinned blissfully. "Morning."
"Morning." Die smiled brightly, only able to open one eye properly. "Slept well?" He was fully content, and as he remembered their parents wouldn't be home that morning it made his mood brighten even more.
"Perfect." To convince himself that this was really happening and not just a dream, the older leaned in and gave Die a gentle kiss. When he realized that this was reality, his heart began to flutter in joy again and he coltishly almost launched himself at the other, deepening the kiss as far as possible.
The redhead would've chuckled if he didn't have to focus on the kiss completely. He felt all bouncy as well, happier than in a long time. Only when he shifted on the mattress a burning pain shot up from his lower back, making him wince.
Instantly, Kaoru broke the kiss and looked at the other. There was a slight mocking undertone in his voice although he was truly worried. "Sore?"
"Yeah." Die nodded honestly, grinning a bit crookedly. "More than I thought I'd be."
"It'll pass." The older ensured him and quickly pecked his lips again. "And it will become better with the time. I mean the more often you do it. Wait." Suddenly he seemed to remember something and rummaged through the drawers of his nightstand, finally broking out a small tube which obviously has been used already. "Take this. It will sooth the pain and help healing."
The younger frowned slightly. "So I just need to use this... as some kinda salve?" He couldn't cover his slightly sceptical expression.
"Not some kind of. It is salve." Kaoru smiled encouragingly. "It's not that bad. Believe me."
"So I just put it... there?" Die still looked a bit doubting.
The other's disbelieving expression made Kaoru giggle and peck his nose. "If you want, I do it for you."
"But wouldn't that be... well, disturbing?" Suddenly the younger somehow realized how stupid he must've sounded to the other and he blushed slightly.
The older shook his head, an indulgent smile on his lips. "You mean if I do it? Why should it? I had my fingers inside you yesterday too," he reminded softly. He just tried to act as natural and secure as possible to take Die's worries and uncomfortableness away, wanting him to see that there was nothing bad in things like that.
"Well, but it was different." Die blushed a bit more, but tried to force it away. He knew he was being somewhat irrational, but this was just all so new to him.
"I know it was different." Kaoru became more serious and put his hand on the other's cheek, caressing it softly. "It's easier if somebody else does it and you don't need to be shy. But you can do it yourself too if it makes you too uncomfortable. I just don't want you to be hurting more than necessary."
"I'm sorry." The redhead smiled honestly. "It'd be nice if you help me. I just... well, this is just all so weird at first."
"There's no need to be sorry." Again, the older man smiled, looking at the other with sparkling eyes. "I think I've been the same after my first time. But it's really okay. I know it's odd, just like making love for the first time, right?" Gently, he took the salve from the other's hand and pushed him down on his stomach. Without giving Die the chance to feel uncomfortable, he quickly adjusted the salve with able movements. "See, wasn't that bad, was it?"
"No," Die shook his head slowly, a slight blush lingering on his cheeks. "Thanks." He rolled to his back, leaning to press a small kiss on the other's lips. "I will get used to it. Just gimme some time."
"You have all the time in the world to get used to it." Relieved that the other finally had relaxed, Kaoru pecked his lips once more. "But we both now need a shower. You think we can risk going together?"
"Well, mom said they'll probably take long and she leaves us something to eat." The younger smiled. "So we probably have time till the late afternoon."
"Wanna go and take a shower with me?" The older was determined to enjoy every single second they had alone to the fullest. It still felt like a dream, but slowly he realized that the other really was there and loved him.
"On one condition." Die was determined to enjoy every moment they could spare as well. And inwardly knew he would be spending even more time home instead being with his 'friends'.
"Which is?" The smile on Kaoru's lips faltered a bit, but inwardly he knew that it couldn't be anything bad what came.
"You help me stand since my butt hurts like hell." The younger laughed softly, reaching his arms towards the other.
Chuckling, Kaoru wrapped his arms around Die's waist and pulled him up on his feet. "Of course. I'm so sorry that you're hurting. But believe me, I know how it is." Suddenly, using all his strength, he lifted the other off the ground and threw him over his shoulder, slapping his butt playfully.
"Hey! I told you to help me stand." Die couldn't help but to laugh merrily though, as he didn't mind at all being carried. Not if it was Kaoru who did the carrying.
"Yep, but this way it's quicker." Giggling, with insecure steps, the older made his way to the bathroom and carefully dropped the other to stand in the shower cubicle before he closed the door and joined him. "Thank you." The redhead laughed, turning the shower on before pulling the other a bit closer.
Author:
seinen_no and fonulynRating: NC17
Pairing: Die and Kaoru
Disclaimer: We own no one, only our dirty imaginations.
Comments:
seinen_no: I keep it short today, 'cause I'm too tired to say anything clever. Enjoy!fonulyn: Okay, I’m too breaindead to say anything at all XD just enjoy it! The story is nearing its end already.Previously happened: Against All Odds, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6
Chapter 7
Kaoru was lying on his bed, dozing a bit, but when he heard the door open, he turned his head to look at the younger. "What took you so long?"
"Mom and her baby-talk." Die smiled brightly, closing the distance and sitting down on the edge of the other's bed as soon as he had closed the door. "Missed me already?"
"No." Kaoru shook his head grinning. "But I thought if it'd be worth to wait till you come back or if I should retreat to some nice sweet dreams."
"You'd so easily just replace me?" The younger tried to form a pout, and handed the glass of water to the other. "Here."
The smirk still in its place, Kaoru took the glass and instantly sipped from it. He was still half lying and thus some water escaped his mouth and ran down his chin and neck. "Well, who said I wouldn't have dreamed about you?"
"I don't know." Die tilted his head, looking at him questioningly. "Would you?"
"Maybe..." The older sounded teasing and gave his face a pondering expression. "I'm quite sure you would've been there too at least."
"Too?" Die arched an eyebrow. "With whom?"
"I don't know." Purposefully casual, Kaoru shrugged. "Possibly with some made up characters."
"I'm not sure if I want to talk about this anymore." Die laughed, shaking his head a bit.
"Why?" The other arched an eyebrow, looking as innocent as he could.
"I just don't." Quickly the redhead leaned in and pecked Kaoru's lips. "So I guess I could try to get some sleep now."
"Wait, wait." Kaoru sat up and grabbed the hem of Die's shirt. "You wanna say I was waiting in vain here?"
"Yes." The redhead blinked at him innocently, but didn't make a move to get further.
Inwardly, the older was laughing, but played along and stared at the other with huge puppy dog eyes. "So you're going over to your own bed now and just leave me here thinking about you?"
"That sounds kinda tempting." It was getting harder and harder for Die to suppress his grin. "If you don't have any better suggestions?"
"Well..." Kaoru drawled, his eyes fastened on his hands which were tugging the hem of Die's shirt. "I could as well show you what you would've been missing if you hadn't come back." Suddenly, he looked up, directly into the other's eyes.
The redhead's heart was beating frantically, and it felt like it was beating in his throat. Slowly he nodded though, trying to grin securely. "Show me."
Wordlessly, the older stripped him of his shirt in a swift, fluent movement and then gently forced him to lie down on his back. Tugging the blanket away, he enabled himself to move freely and instantly crushed his mouth on Die's, kissing him hungrily and somewhat demanding while his hands determinedly roamed down the other's chest to the cuff of his jeans.
Die practically clung to the kiss, being hopelessly nervous otherwise. But he knew he wanted this, and forced himself to calm down and concentrate on the way the other was kissing him and touching him softly. It was somehow relieving that the other clearly knew what he was doing, and soothed the nervousness on its part too.
Kaoru slowed down and took his time, not wanting to rush things. Whenever he felt the younger tense, his body stiffen, he stopped his advances and settled for caressing him or just kissing him gently without dominating too much. Although he had done this already before, he found himself nervous as well, his hands trembling when he fumbled to open the button of Die's jeans. It were the enormous emotions, the utter affection he felt that made this special and unique.
Somewhere in the back of his mind, he regretted that he wasn't the first, thinking Die had done it with the girl earlier that evening. However, he was determined to make this unforgettable for him, to show him pure pleasure. Slowly, he pulled down the zipper and then tentatively slid his fingers inside, only softly brushing over the slight bulge in the boxers.
Die gasped, instinctively arching up a bit to the touch. The other's mere presence did things to him, made his heart beat faster and this certain tickling feeling appear in his stomach, like it'd be full of butterflies. But now that the other was kissing him, touching him it just made him feel that they were the only two persons on earth and he simply wanted to share the moment with Kaoru. He just wanted to give himself to him, and wished he'd accept the offer.
The fact that Die didn't pull away but seemed to want more encouraged Kaoru and he grew more self-confident. It was as if both of them were listening to each other, communicating without words and just through their actions. First, the older brushed over the shorts more firmly a couple of times, but then, he retreated his hand and instead took a firm hold of the jeans to tug them down along with the boxers. His heart was beating frantically and he directed his gaze at the younger's eyes, ready to stop if he found the slightest trace of uneasiness there.
The redhead couldn't help but to blush furiously as the other helped him out of his jeans, because he had never been in a situation like this before in his life. He felt somewhat exposed, nervous and unsure of himself. But he tried to smile at the other, not wanting him to take the embarrassment as a sign to stop. Kaoru wouldn't have stopped as he understood how Die felt. Smiling indulgently, he leaned forward and planted a soft kiss on his forehead, then on his eyebrows, his eyes and cheeks. "It's okay. You're beautiful." He took his hand, kissing his palm and then slowly guided it down to his own crotch.
"There's no need to be afraid. It's only me. Just tell me when to stop." Biting his bottom lip, Kaoru was waiting what the other would do, anticipated to be touched himself. The blush still hadn't subsided, but Die managed to get a some kind of hold of himself, just determined to enjoy the moment. He stole a quick kiss from Kaoru, before brushing over his groin. He wanted as much to touch him as to be touched himself, and despite his nervousness and insecurity he just went with the feeling, acting mostly on instinct.
A quiet sigh escaped the older's lips and he closed his eyes. Being touched like that by the one he loved, by Die, was something special and blissful in itself. Instantly, his body was reacting to the feelings that were rushing through his veins, the heat gathering in his groin, and he subconsciously pressed himself closer against the other. Quickly, he removed the last piece of clothing that was dividing them and then bowed his head to kiss the redhead deeply while grinding against him.
The younger couldn't help but to groan into the kiss, the feeling that shot through his mind making him arch up in search of more friction. The feeling of the Kaoru's skin on his own was simply glorious, contentment in itself and for the first moment he forgot his nervousness, the other sensations overpowering it. There was one thought bothering him though, and as the kiss broke he searched for the other's gaze. "Wait... I need to tell you something." His voice sounded odd and a huge part of him just wanted to plead for more. But this bothered him too much and he needed to get it said.
Kaoru's chest was heaving from excitement already and he had to gasp for breath. It took a moment until he could focus his hazed vision on the other, but then he nodded. "Too fast?" Actually, he hadn't heard all of Die's words, only that he should wait and although he was aching for more, simply wanted to have him as close as possible, to feel his skin as much as to taste it, he stopped obediently.
"No no," Die shook his head, swallowing to steady his voice. He looked Kaoru deep in the eye, practically drowning in those depths. "I didn't do it with her." Somehow he wanted him to know that he was his first, and that he hadn't really gone that far with this whole girlfriend-thing.
Although it didn't really matter to Kaoru anymore, hearing those words caused his heart to skip a few beats and certain warmth spread inside him. He couldn't explain it to himself, but he was relieved and more than glad. Gently, he pecked Die's lips and then again searched for his gaze. "Thank you. I mean for telling me and..." In lack of words, he shook his head smiling. "I hope you don't regret it once."
"I won't. I just didn't want to do it with anyone else but you." Die smiled, leaning close to kiss the other again. He was sure now that this had been the right decision, as being with the girl had felt so wrong all the time and now with Kaoru, he just felt like he belonged here.
Kaoru's answer was drowned in the kiss, but he didn't care, because he was sure Die knew how much it meant to him to hear those words. As the kiss went on, it grew more passionate, more longing and he used his position to grind his hips against the other's again, addicted to the feeling the contact evoked in him. The redhead groaned into the kiss, the electric laces of pleasure shooting through him. He just yearned for more, needed to feel as much of Kaoru as possible. On their own accord, his hands roamed down the other's back, caressing the smooth skin and just enjoying the feeling of it against his fingertips.
After they parted for air, Kaoru began to move his lips down the younger's neck to his collarbone where he playfully bit down. Everything in Die affected him, turned him on and made him want more. His hands were continuously running up and down the other's sides and he tried to imprint every feeling, every sound into his memory. To him, it felt like his first time as well, as if he had never been with somebody before.
Slowly Die grew more self confident as well, and wasn't just overly scared to ruin everything by doing something wrong or so. After all, everything felt so natural to him. He tried to arch up against the other, groaning again as he just needed the friction. Suddenly he remembered their parents though and tried to bite back the sounds which threatened to spill from his lips, not wanting to be heard by them.
Inwardly, Kaoru cursed the fact that they weren't alone and he thought they should've tried to get a room somewhere as he loved the noises that were flowing from the redhead's lips and he thought it was a waste that he had to try to suppress them. It was challenging though and added up to the tension that was lingering in the air. Determinedly, he left Die's neck and moved southwards, only briefly paying attention to his chest until he reached his navel and lower stomach. He could feel the younger tense for a moment when he dragged his tongue over the smooth skin, moving further towards his groin.
Die couldn't help but to be slightly nervous again, the nervousness mixing with anticipation though. It was just all so new to him, as he was the only one who had ever laid hands on himself. But the fact that it was Kaoru made him just look forward to each moment, and to forget about the uncomfortable feelings almost instantly.
Feeling the other's nervousness made Kaoru a bit nervous as well. What if Die didn't like what he did? After all, he had no idea how it was to be with another man, hadn't even been with a woman before. But one thing he knew for sure, he was determined to make this as pleasurable for him as possible. Slowly, almost teasingly, he brushed his tongue along the other's length, only to lace his fingers around the base and to take the tip between his lips.
For a short moment Die forgot everything, his nervousness as well as the fact that he was supposed to be quiet. A strangled cry left his throat as the pleasure shut down his brains, being something he didn't know how to handle. But it was so good, and he just wanted more of the feeling.
A shiver ran through Kaoru and his heart seemed to jump up to his throat in shock. He was praying nobody had heard the other and instinctively slowed down his movements for a couple of seconds. Other than that, he wanted more himself, loved the effect his ministrations had on Die, enjoyed providing him pleasure like that. After a few moments, he was sure that nobody came up to them and then lowered his head, tentatively sucking while he stroke the part that wasn't covered by his mouth.
This time the redhead was able to get enough grip of himself to hold back the groans that threatened to break free. His chest was heaving, as he simply just gasped for breath desperately. Instinctively, he tried to move his hips up to gain more of the feeling.
For a short moment, Kaoru felt surreal, like this wasn't really happening. His body was aching in need and still he didn't pay attention to it but directed his whole attention at the other boy and at the display of pleasure on his face. He only left him for as long as it took to coat two fingers in saliva and then quickly engulfed his whole length again, trying to take it all in his throat. While moving his tongue around the turgid flesh, massaging it as best he could, he carefully brought one finger to Die's entrance and, searching for his gaze, slowly pushed it inside.
Die could feel his body tense at the intrusion, but he forced himself to relax. His heart was pounding frantically, because the nervousness was trying to come back to his consciousness, but the ultimate pleasure the other provided smothered it effectively.
Kaoru kept the movement of his finger slow and tried his best to distract the other with his mouth. When he felt the tension slowly leaving the other's body, he inserted a second finger and scissored them to stretch him properly. However, he knew how nervous Die was and knew that he probably had no idea what would be so good in that. So he pushed them deeper until he found that certain bundle of nerves to sweep over.
Again Die almost cried out, but managed to bite his bottom lip forcefully to smother the sound. His back arched when an unknown flame of pleasure just blinded him for a moment. He had no idea what that had been, but he wanted to feel it again, wanted more of the other.
The older took his time with preparing him, knowing it would hurt less then. Coevally, he just enjoyed the moment although he was painfully hard himself. But after some time, he couldn't bear it any longer and retreated both, his head and fingers. With a cocky smile, he pushed his hand under his pillow and broke out a condom which he had stored there while Die had been downstairs with his mother.
Die couldn't help but to chuckle breathlessly as he saw what the other had, along with the grin on his face. "You're prepared at least." His voice sounded thick but he got the words out surprisingly steady still.
"I was hoping I'd get lucky today," the older winked smirking and quickly opened the wrapping. His chest heaving, but the huge smirk still in its place, he rolled the condom over his arousal, purposefully allowing Die to watch.
Subconsciously the redhead parted his legs a bit further, his gaze locked on what the other was doing. The slight nervousness was there once again, but this time it wasn't panicking, it was more like nervously waiting and looking forward to what would follow.
When he was done, Kaoru reached for something else, a small tube and smeared a bit of its content on the condom and on Die's entrance after kneeling down between his legs. He bit his lips and since he didn't want to frighten the other more than necessary, he didn't again tell him that it would hurt in the beginning. Carefully, he pushed Die's legs up and shifted closer, never leaving his eyes. His arousal was already pressing against the tight ring of muscles, but still he felt like he needed the other's confirmation. "Ready?"
Die swallowed hard, locking his gaze with his. For a small moment he just forced himself to relax as much as possible, before giving the other a nod. "Ready."
Carefully, Kaoru moved his hips forward and slowly penetrated the younger. For a second, he had to close his eyes as he stopped when he was half way inside, the frantic clenching muscles providing an almost painful pleasure. To distract Die from the pain, he showered his face with dozens of small kisses, constantly whispering loving words and telling him to relax.
The first thing that filled Die's mind was the burning pain, feeling like he was being torn apart violently. He gripped the other's shoulders tight, holding on as if his life would depend on it. He had known it'd be painful, the other had told him himself, but this was more than he had been prepared for.
Patiently, the older remained still, only caressing the other's cheeks. But when he felt him relax slightly, he pushed on until he was buried inside him completely. A smile was tugging his lips as he remembered his own first time, remembered very well how bad it had felt at first and how odd it was to have something inside. But he also remembered the pleasure which had drowned out the pain ,once the other had begun to move and struck his prostate. So he pulled away a bit and picked up a slow, gentle rhythm, waiting for a sign that Die began to enjoy himself.
Slowly Die was beginning to feel like he wasn't dying after all, and noticed that he actually even liked the way the other was so close to him, filling him completely. His grip on Kaoru's shoulders loosened a bit too, as he begun to relax more and more. Then all suddenly something flashed in front of his eyes again, a small groan escaping him as a wave of pleasure coursed through him.
"Feeling better?" Kaoru asked hoarsely and coevally picked up the pace and force of his thrusts a bit, trying to hit the right spot all the time. The tightness, which was surrounding him, brought enormous pleasure with every movement, brought a delicious mixture of pain and pleasure and he couldn't hold back a few small groans himself. Just feeling Die's skin on his own already drove him insane, but being buried deep inside him was indescribable.
The younger only managed a hasty nod as an answer, before another pleasant wave robbed him his consciousness. It was getting harder for him to gasp enough breath, as the intense feelings pushed him further and further with each passing second.
It didn't take long and Kaoru couldn't gather a clear thought anymore and allowed his body to move quicker, at the pace it needed. As he was steadily nearing the edge, he moved his hand between their bodies and laced his fingers around the younger's hardness to provide him even more pleasure.
Again Die had to bite his lip hard to prevent the low groans from tearing their way out of him. It was all just too much, too new and too pleasurable, and he realized he couldn't hold out much longer. Only a few moments later his whole being tensed forcefully, bliss drowning out everything in his mind as he reached the climax, releasing himself with a strangled cry.
The violent clenching of his muscles was too much for Kaoru and he tensed as well, almost freezing for a split second before the orgasm hit him forcefully, bereaving him of his senses. Shuddering, he released himself and even after the trembling of his body had ceased, he remained like that for a few moments.
The redhead practically collapsed on the mattress, trying to gasp for breath desperately. He felt utterly good, content like never before. After pecking his lips, Kaoru pulled out of him and removed the condom, dropping it heedlessly on the floor. He couldn't describe how good he felt, and how special it had been just because he loved the younger so much. Shifting a bit to the side, he lay down next to Die, instantly nuzzling close to him.
Still trembling a bit Die snuggled closer to the other, sighing contently as he was allowed to just stay there close to him and enjoy the feelings together. "Thanks." He couldn't help but to smile all the time.
With a lot effort, Kaoru lifted his head and answered the smille with one of his own. "Welcome." He took a few deep breaths, but then even giggled. "Gods, for your first time, you weren't bad at all." It was true. Though Die hadn't done much, the way he had moved against him, had reacted to what he had done had been simply enticing, had driven him mad.
"But you did all the work." The redhead chuckled, his eyes sparkling. He didn't even waste a thought to moving into his own bed, as his mother had said they'd be gone in the early morning and he trusted their parents wouldn't want to disturb their sleep.
Lovingly, the older brushed a strand out of Die's face and pecked his forehead. "I gladly did it." Smiling, he fumbled for the blanket and tugged it over their heated bodies. "Can you stay here or do you think your mom could look after us again?" he asked quietly after a few moments. All he wanted was to be near the other, to hold him as much as being held.
"She told me they'll go to the appointment with the doc in the early morning. So I don't think they'll come to check on us." Die answered honestly, leaning even closer to the other, closing his eyes contently.
Before he could drift off, physically and mentally exhausted from the ups and downs the day had brought, Kaoru kissed the other's lips shortly. "Good night and sweet dreams."
"Good night." The younger couldn't sleep instantly though, all the things just running through his mind. Suddenly he had to laugh, but he smothered the sound by burying his face into the other's shoulder.
Kaoru had just been about to drift off, but the other's chuckles instantly caught his attention. "What?" he asked, smacking a few times to make his voice sound steadier.
"I thought you would be sleeping by now." Die looked at the other with sparkling eyes, not answering his question instantly.
"I was about to." The older smirked and lifted his head, curiously arching an eyebrow. "So tell me, what's so funny?"
"I just happened to remember what you told me when you moved in." The redhead grinned. "That I would never have to sleep in your ugly bed."
"Well," Kaoru drawled snickering, "technically I was right. I didn't force you."
"I know." Die nodded. "But it still is a damn ugly bed."
"And it still is good for some tying up." The older contradicted giggling. It seemed like a metaphor that Die had a wooden bed, being all warm, sensitive and easily scratched himself while he had a metal one, cold and stable on the outside, but once warm holding the heat for longer.
"Well, that's true." The other admitted instantly, chuckling again. "So now just wait for the next time we're home alone?"
"You are impossible." Kaoru laughed freely and shook his head. He remembered to keep his voice down though when he went on. "Just remember your mom's face when she barges in and finds either of us tied to the bed, naked."
"Oh gosh. I wouldn't want to hear that shrieking ever." Die shook his head, imagining the reaction his mother would have instantly.
"So we should be very sure that they can't come home suddenly when we try something like that." At a moment's notice, Kaoru became serious and cupped his lover's cheek with his hand. "We have to keep this a secret. Here and at school. I don't want you to suffer because of what we have."
"I was kinda afraid you'd say that." The younger smiled faintly. "But you're right. Mom would have a major attack and we'd be the national weirdoes at school..."
"It's only for the best. If this was a big city, it would be different, but you'd face some major assaults if people found out." Kaoru knew that their relationship would spread throughout the whole town within hours once somebody found out. He feared more for Die than for himself since all the people the younger knew would most definitely shun him if they found out.
"It still doesn't mean I have to like hiding it." Die shrugged, but just cuddled close to the other, intending to try getting some sleep. "But I know it's for the best for both of us." He was afraid mostly of the reaction their parents would have, since he was sure that at least his mother would disapprove strongly.
All the worries about their future were pushed to the background once Kaoru had the other close to himself again. He wasn't sure what his father would say if he found out. After all, he was almost certain that he at least suspected that his son was gay, but it was only a feeling and he had no proof for it. "Let's just see how it works out and try our best." Sighing, he hugged Die tightly against himself, intending to get some sleep as well as he was still exhausted and on the other hand overly happy and content.
They both slept well that night, content in each other's embrace. And they were lucky, as their parents didn't come to check on them that night, nor the next morning. Only when the alarm begun to shriek on the bedside table Die stirred awake, and it took him a few moments to realize where he was.
Kaoru blinked tiredly as he stirred awake. "Why's the alarm shrieking? It's Saturday." He mumbled, not fully at his senses yet. Only after a few moments, he noticed that the younger man lay beside him and that they both were still naked. He flinched, sat up and then grinned blissfully. "Morning."
"Morning." Die smiled brightly, only able to open one eye properly. "Slept well?" He was fully content, and as he remembered their parents wouldn't be home that morning it made his mood brighten even more.
"Perfect." To convince himself that this was really happening and not just a dream, the older leaned in and gave Die a gentle kiss. When he realized that this was reality, his heart began to flutter in joy again and he coltishly almost launched himself at the other, deepening the kiss as far as possible.
The redhead would've chuckled if he didn't have to focus on the kiss completely. He felt all bouncy as well, happier than in a long time. Only when he shifted on the mattress a burning pain shot up from his lower back, making him wince.
Instantly, Kaoru broke the kiss and looked at the other. There was a slight mocking undertone in his voice although he was truly worried. "Sore?"
"Yeah." Die nodded honestly, grinning a bit crookedly. "More than I thought I'd be."
"It'll pass." The older ensured him and quickly pecked his lips again. "And it will become better with the time. I mean the more often you do it. Wait." Suddenly he seemed to remember something and rummaged through the drawers of his nightstand, finally broking out a small tube which obviously has been used already. "Take this. It will sooth the pain and help healing."
The younger frowned slightly. "So I just need to use this... as some kinda salve?" He couldn't cover his slightly sceptical expression.
"Not some kind of. It is salve." Kaoru smiled encouragingly. "It's not that bad. Believe me."
"So I just put it... there?" Die still looked a bit doubting.
The other's disbelieving expression made Kaoru giggle and peck his nose. "If you want, I do it for you."
"But wouldn't that be... well, disturbing?" Suddenly the younger somehow realized how stupid he must've sounded to the other and he blushed slightly.
The older shook his head, an indulgent smile on his lips. "You mean if I do it? Why should it? I had my fingers inside you yesterday too," he reminded softly. He just tried to act as natural and secure as possible to take Die's worries and uncomfortableness away, wanting him to see that there was nothing bad in things like that.
"Well, but it was different." Die blushed a bit more, but tried to force it away. He knew he was being somewhat irrational, but this was just all so new to him.
"I know it was different." Kaoru became more serious and put his hand on the other's cheek, caressing it softly. "It's easier if somebody else does it and you don't need to be shy. But you can do it yourself too if it makes you too uncomfortable. I just don't want you to be hurting more than necessary."
"I'm sorry." The redhead smiled honestly. "It'd be nice if you help me. I just... well, this is just all so weird at first."
"There's no need to be sorry." Again, the older man smiled, looking at the other with sparkling eyes. "I think I've been the same after my first time. But it's really okay. I know it's odd, just like making love for the first time, right?" Gently, he took the salve from the other's hand and pushed him down on his stomach. Without giving Die the chance to feel uncomfortable, he quickly adjusted the salve with able movements. "See, wasn't that bad, was it?"
"No," Die shook his head slowly, a slight blush lingering on his cheeks. "Thanks." He rolled to his back, leaning to press a small kiss on the other's lips. "I will get used to it. Just gimme some time."
"You have all the time in the world to get used to it." Relieved that the other finally had relaxed, Kaoru pecked his lips once more. "But we both now need a shower. You think we can risk going together?"
"Well, mom said they'll probably take long and she leaves us something to eat." The younger smiled. "So we probably have time till the late afternoon."
"Wanna go and take a shower with me?" The older was determined to enjoy every single second they had alone to the fullest. It still felt like a dream, but slowly he realized that the other really was there and loved him.
"On one condition." Die was determined to enjoy every moment they could spare as well. And inwardly knew he would be spending even more time home instead being with his 'friends'.
"Which is?" The smile on Kaoru's lips faltered a bit, but inwardly he knew that it couldn't be anything bad what came.
"You help me stand since my butt hurts like hell." The younger laughed softly, reaching his arms towards the other.
Chuckling, Kaoru wrapped his arms around Die's waist and pulled him up on his feet. "Of course. I'm so sorry that you're hurting. But believe me, I know how it is." Suddenly, using all his strength, he lifted the other off the ground and threw him over his shoulder, slapping his butt playfully.
"Hey! I told you to help me stand." Die couldn't help but to laugh merrily though, as he didn't mind at all being carried. Not if it was Kaoru who did the carrying.
"Yep, but this way it's quicker." Giggling, with insecure steps, the older made his way to the bathroom and carefully dropped the other to stand in the shower cubicle before he closed the door and joined him. "Thank you." The redhead laughed, turning the shower on before pulling the other a bit closer.