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Title: Worlds Collide; Chapter 4
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seinen_no and fonulyn
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Die and Kaoru
Disclaimer: We own no one, only our dirty imaginations.
Summary: As children the son of the Lord and the slave-boy were best of friends and the most important persons in each other’s lives. That was torn apart when the son of the Lord was sent away to get his education, and the boys were denied every form of keeping in contact. What happens when they meet again after all those years, now grown to be gorgeous young men, both bound by their place in the society?
Comments:
seinen_no: Hey babes! I know, this one took longer. It's my fault and I'm honestly sorry. To defend myself, I've been sick and just couldn't focus on anything really. But here we are again with a new chapter full of smut.
As I re-read it, I had to laugh, because initially we wrote the second lemon just for ourselves, for our own entertainment so to say. But now we decided it couldn't hurt to share it with you guys too, right? So enjoy. The next chaps will be drama *dundundundundundun*
fonulyn: As said above, this chapter is more like a extra take-out chapter since we wrote it for ourselves and never intended to post it really XD But well, I think it’s pretty nice, and more lovey-dovey smut can never harm, eh? I promise in the next chapter we will bring you full-on drama! And this time hopefully a bit quicker as this took pretty long from us x) But please do enjoy!
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Previously happened: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3
Worlds Collide
Chapter 4
It was hard for both of them to conceal the affection in their eyes whenever they met. During breakfast, Kaoru began an animated discussion with his father to distract himself from staring at the redhead. Somehow, now that they had confessed their feelings for each other, it was almost impossible to not just stare. Especially Kaoru wasn't used to it and tried to give his face a lusty expression whenever he caught himself staring, hoping the other people would interprete it as that.
Luckily Die knew how to look at people without anyone noticing that he was staring. Still it was hard for him to act indifferent and he made several small mistakes during the breakfast already, being a split second too late to fill someone's glass and so on. Inwardly he decided to blame it on rough times if anyone happened to ask.
Before lunch, Kaoru had to visit the small village nearby just to have a noble-man present and look after the happenings there. He hated this duty, because people were complaining about unimportant, minor things, about their neighbours who allowed their cows to graze on their fields and things like that. Yet, it gave him time to let his mind wander and think about his redheaded lover, enjoying the warm pleasant feeling the mere thought of him stirred in his stomach.
Everything went fine and no one noticed anything weird in Die's behavior, until he sat down to eat with his mother like every day. She gave him a suspicious glance. Although she loved to see her son happy, she had a bad feeling about this. Still, she didn't say anything and kept her thoughts for herself. It would have been too dangerous to discuss things like that in front of other slaves anyways, but she made up her mind to take her son to task the next given opportunity.
When Kaoru returned from the village, it was lunchtime already and he spurred his horse. From afar, he spotted Tanaka and in riding by, he gave his younger brother a wide smile, even nodding at him. What could he do at the moment? Nothing. And so Kaoru felt quite safe as long as his father was on his side.
As Die had told that the young master would have lunch in his room, the head servant had instantly ordered him to take care of it, just like Die had assumed. He could barely cover his happiness when he headed to the other man's room with a tray in his hands.
When he stepped inside, he noticed that Kaoru wasn't there yet as he had just arrived at the front porch and handed a servant the reins of his horse. The sun was burning mercilessly and he was sweaty and dusty, but since the time for them was short, he resisted the temptation to take a bath first and instead hurried to his chamber.
The redhead had set the food on the table, and was shifting on his feet nervously because the young master wasn't there yet. When the door opened though, his expression brightened instantly.
"Why didn't you sit down and eat a bit already?" Kaoru asked a bit out of breath. Quickly, he closed the door behind him and approached the other man, stopping only when their chests were almost touching.
"I'm not that hungry." Die smiled, looking him in the eye, drowning in those dark brown depths.
"But I am." The older man said ambiguously, placed his hand in Die's neck and pulled him down into a heated kiss. During the long ride in the sun he had had enough time to dwell on this imagination and now couldn't resist living up to it. The younger man couldn't help but to smile into the kiss, answering to it as well as he was able to. His heart was already beating frantically in his chest, Kaoru's mere presence making him happier than he would've thought possible.
Slowly, Kaoru wrapped his arms around his lover's waist to hold him close. It felt good to be in love, more than that, he had to admit and the realization made him smile. As they parted, both slightly out of breath, Die couldn't stop smiling still. "The dinner's on the table." He grinned teasingly, tilting his head a bit.
"Who's talking about food?" The other man answered cockily. Grinning, he slid his palms up the younger man's spine, over his shoulders and to his chest, giving him a hard shove that sent him down on the bed.
The redhead couldn't help but to laugh, and moved a bit further on the mattress, practically eating the slightly smaller man with his eyes. "I assumed you were..."
"Well," Kaoru purred, based his hands on the mattress and slowly crawled towards him, "you look quite edible if you ask me." There was a certain smirk tugging the corners of his mouth and a sparkle in his eyes.
"I see." The younger man leaned backwards a bit, steadying himself on his elbows. "So that was why you wanted to take lunch in your room." The grin never left his lips as he watched the other man's every movement.
"Maybe I should be more clear next time. I should've told you that you're the lunch." Kaoru was now at the same level as his redheaded lover and he bowed his head, purposefully allowing his breath to ghost across the other man's lips before he kissed him shortly. He knew that he was dirty and probably didn't smell too good, but there was not much he could do about it now unless Die rejected him and sent him to take a bath first.
Instead of pushing Kaoru away though, Die tangled his fingers in his hair, keeping him in place to initiate another kiss. Something in him couldn't get enough of the kisses they shared. Similar feelings were running through the older man and he couldn't remember receiving a kiss that made his head spin and his heart beat in the way like Die's. Using the distraction, he brought his hand to his lover's thigh, slowly gliding it upwards over the rough cloth of his garment.
Automatically the younger man parted his thighs a bit, coevally trying to slide a bit closer to him even. He had always remained passive, never taking the initiative but somehow this was different, and he instinctively slid his arms along the young lord's back, trying to pull him against himself. This simple gesture almost caused Kaoru's heart to burst his chest as it began to race. He knew that it was a sign for the younger one's trust, showing him he wanted this as well.
A smile found its way to Kaoru's lips when his hand had reached its goal, resting now right between Die's legs on his length. The redhead almost held his breath, just freezing in his movement for a moment and waiting for what would happen, wanting more of the touch. With a certain satisfaction, Kaoru noticed the reaction and he carefully rubbed the flesh under his palm, pressing down lightly. There was something in the redhead that made it more important to him to please him more than himself.
A slow, silent growl found its way from somewhere in Die's throat, as he closed his eyes, moving his hips ever so slightly into the touch. He still held his arms around the other man's shoulders, pulling himself up a bit, closer to him. They were still engaged in the kiss and since Kaoru needed one arm to back himself up and hold his lover's weight as well, he withdrew from the arousal to fumble for the laces which tied the toga-like garment around Die's frame. It didn't work out that well though, with only one hand, and he had to break the kiss to take a look. "Damn."
"Just take your time with it." The redhead grinned, chuckling a bit at the other man. He knew that they wouldn't have endless time, but he still wanted to enjoy the moment and not worry about anything.
"But I'm hungry." The older man mirrored the grin, bringing his lips close to Die's ear. "And I'm hungry now." He kept on fighting with the laces, finally undoing them enough to slide his hand inside, admiringly running it along the smooth skin of the younger man's lower stomach, brushing through the pubic hair before he laced his fingers around his arousal to continue what he had begun.
Instantly the younger man forgot what he had been about to say, his eyes falling shut as a small groan escaped him. "Then you need something to cure the hunger." He managed to make his voice sound surprisingly steady, as he addressed the other.
"You should be sufficient." Kaoru answered with a bit of arrogance laced in his tone. Because it was futile to try to open those stubborn laces with one hand, he settled for doing as he had predicted, eating the other man. So after pecking Die's lips once more, he crawled down and bowed his head, looking the redhead in the face before he took the half-erect flesh into his mouth.
It made Die gasp, the hot wetness around him making his head spin instantly. He just couldn't tear his eyes away from his lover's, looking straight at him even when his eyes wanted to fall shut. Like hypnotized, Kaoru maintained the eye-contact, shifting so that it was possible even when he began to lower his head, engulfing as much of the hardening flesh into his throat as possible. It was an odd feeling at first and he was close to choking, but soon he got used to it and coevally massaged the loose skin with his tongue, sucking whenever he withdrew his head a bit.
"Oh gosh..." There were no words to describe how the redhead felt, the pleasure coursing through him in steady currents. He tried to part his legs more, being hindered by his clothes though. "Please..." He didn't even know what he was asking for, because the words escaped his mind.
Kaoru didn't know it either, but assumed that it had just been a statement resulting from a pleasure-blurred mind. He tried once again to untie the laces properly. The attempt was doomed right from the beginning since he still refused to take his eyes off the other man's face. Surrendering to that, he wrapped the fingers of one hand around the base of the arousal, stroking him while he increased the ministrations of his mouth. He couldn't deny that everything had a certain effect on him as well, low groans forming somewhere in the back of his throat, creating vibrations that were adding up to his lover's pleasure.
It didn't take long, the pressure just adding up with each passing second, and soon the younger man tensed forcefully, a small cry escaping him as he released himself. He was panting harshly and finally closed his eyes since he felt like he otherwise could never get a grip of himself. When Kaoru's mouth filled with his lover's bitter release, he found that it wasn't half as bad as he had imagined and the fact that it was a part of the person he loved, made him even like it. After swallowing everything, he withdrew his head and stretched his body to plant a chaste kiss on the other man's quivering lips.
"I'm sorry." Die was somehow a bit embarrassed that he had lost control over himself so utterly and completely. But there was nothing he could've done, the other man making him feel better than ever before, than he would've thought possible.
"Feeling good?" Kaoru asked, ignoring the apology. He didn't want the redhead to feel as if he had done something forbidden by surrendering to the feelings.
"More than that." The answer came with a slightly relieved smile. The younger man took a deep breath, turning to look at his lover. "Thank you."
"What for?" Kaoru asked pretended hypocritical. "I was hungry."
"Yes, indeed you were." Die chuckled, leaning closer to steal a short kiss.
Laughing, Kaoru tugged the still tied laces of his garment. "And I think I will eat a lot more until I learn how to open this without ruining it."
"So there's something you're not good at..." Die laughed lovingly, easily undoing the knot on the laces.
"It can't be." The other man stared at his hands in disbelief. "There I am, struggling with those while you could've undone them yourself all the time?"
"Right." The younger man grinned, looking totally happy. "That is, if I would've had any brain activity left."
"So I should've waited for you to first undress and then eat you..." Kaoru concluded cleverly, grinned and then leaned in to kiss the other man again. "Did anybody ever tell you that you are gorgeous?"
"You did." Die nodded instantly, looking him in the eye.
"And I meant it then as much as I mean it now. You've become truly beautiful." Laughing softly, the older man continued. "It's a curse though. Nobody would care for you if you were ugly, but like this, they all want a piece of you and are jealous that I have you for myself."
"Let them be. Jealous I mean." The younger man leaned closer, wrapping his arms around his noble lover's neck and pecked his lips. "I'm yours. Body, soul and mind. Everything."
The words caused a lump in Kaoru's throat and he had to swallow hard. "Thank you," he answered a bit choked. "I love you. Everything."
"I know. Love you too." Die smiled, looking the other man deep in the eye before initiating a gentle kiss. Instantly, the older man's eyes fell shut and he opened his mouth for his lover's tongue. He was delighted to see that Die dared to take the initiative, even if it was only a soft touch or a statement. But a kiss like this, that took Kaoru's breath away and made his head spin, was of a different magnitude. Half of the time the redhead even surprised himself, how he was able to cast aside years of self control and all he had been taught, and instead dared to kiss the other man demandingly. It was something Kaoru did to him, something in him that made him feel totally safe.
There really was nothing he had to fear while he was with the young heir, because Kaoru only enjoyed his advances. It made him feel loved and wanted like he had never felt before. And it was good for Die to have a place where he was allowed to act like himself, to be able to just do things without being afraid that he'd cross some invisible line and step away from his strictly defined place.
"Die," Kaoru was breathing heavily after they parted. He looked the other man directly in the eye and smiled softly. Thinking that this would be the perfect moment, he took the younger man's hand in his, linking their fingers. "I want you to take me." The request resonated in the otherwise quiet room and he nodded to emphasize his seriousness. He just wanted to give himself to Die, to show him that they were equal. Besides, he really wanted to try it.
"No!" Die's eyes widened, and he shook his head as soon as he realized what those words meant. "No." Under normal circumstances he would've never denied the other man what he wanted, but this he couldn't do. If anybody found out, it would mean certain death for him and probably for Kaoru too. At least if his father became furious. Allowing a slave to take control over a noble man violated one of the goddess' most important laws.
Kaoru knew all this, but since their relationship itself already endangered his lover's life, he saw now problem in taking that step too. "Please Die. I want to give myself to you."
"I won't. Please, anything but not that..." Die looked truly desperate, shaking his head still. "They'll kill you if anyone finds out! It's really not worth it."
"Who should find out? We're all alone and there's nobody here. Besides," Kaoru looked him straight in the eyes, "I risk your life just by loving you. And don't you think that I'll just turn around and go on if anything happens to you."
"You will have to. Kaoru, please don't do this to me. I can live with it if it's only me who's in danger." The younger man was pleading with his eyes, cupping the other man's cheeks in his palms, their faces only inches away from each other. "I can't risk you, I can't."
Kaoru saw that there was no sense in arguing with the redhead right now, no reasoning with him, but he couldn't hide that he was disappointed. Of course it was more than flattering that his lover didn't want to put his life in jeopardy, but it was unfair too. Everything was unfair. Why did they even have to hide? He didn't say anything though, only nodded sighing without looking straight into the other man's eyes.
"I'm sorry. So sorry." Die had to swallow against the lump in his throat, and instinctively he swung his arms around his lover, hugging him tight. "Please don't hate me for this. I just can't."
Only then, Kaoru saw how insecure Die still was. Soothingly, he caressed his cheek. "Shhht. Don't apologize. I could never hate you." Silently the younger man buried his face in his lover's neck, inhaling his scent deep and tried to calm himself down. He tried not to think about what would happen if anyone found out about their true feelings, but it wasn't that easy to cast aside.
Kaoru knew that everybody would think he demanded Die to stay the whole afternoon and throughout the night. So he just silently cradled the redhead in his arms and held him tightly while his thoughts were circling around finding a way out of their stuck situation.
Die was grateful that the other man held him like that, helping him to calm down completely. He felt bad for destroying the happy moment, and for causing the mood to change so suddenly. Yet, there was nothing he could do as things were against them and both of them knew it. To Kaoru it was only important that they lived through it together, the closeness soothing part of his own fears already. It showed him clearly why they were risking so much. Because they were not only in love, but loved each other from the bottom of their hearts.
After a long while the redhead broke the silence, tilting his head to look at the other man. "Want to eat a bit? Although it's cold... I can get you something warm too." He didn't know how to break the silence otherwise, and just tried to begin with something casual.
"Thank you, but I am not really hungry. Though I smell like a skunk, right? Maybe I should take a bath?" For a moment, Kaoru thought about the idea and then grinned. "Would you do me a favour? Order some slaves to fill my bathtub and then you could join me? That is," the grin widened considerably, "if it's not too disgusting for you."
"I would be honoured to take care of your bath." Die laughed softly and pecked the young heir's chin. "I'll be right back." Reluctantly, he left the embrace, straightening his clothes before slipping out of the room.
Still smiling, Kaoru rolled on his back and folded his arms behind his head. Everything could have been so easy if it weren't for the goddess and the noble men's stupid laws. What was so wrong in loving somebody? One thing was for sure; once he took over his father's realm, he would make a difference, would work hard to convince people that every human being was equal. Only that in his world slaves weren't even seen as full humans...
It didn't take long before two slaves had already prepared a bath for Kaoru, and Die sent them away telling them that he would take care of the rest. The others just shrugged and left, glad that they didn't have to do more. As everything was ready, Die appeared beside Kaoru's bed, smiling down at him. "The bath's ready."
"Thank you." The young lord stood up, took the other man's hand and led him into the bathroom. The smell of bathing oil lingered in the air and made him inhale a bit deeper subconsciously. "You know, sometimes I feel like a cripple, because I'm not allowed to do anything by myself. My father always demands us to ask a slave to take care of things." With a smile, he looked at the redhead. "So, would you help me to get out of these uncomfortable clothes?"
"Of course. That's what I'm here for, right?" Die smiled brightly, keeping his tone polite and already moved his hands to slide off the other man's shirt. He allowed his fingers to linger on the soft skin a bit longer than necessary though, enjoying the feeling.
Still smiling, Kaoru watched his every movement, enjoying the feeling of his hands touching him everywhere. Once he was naked, he stepped into the bathtub, carefully testing the temperature with his toes before sliding inside completely. A pleased sigh escaped his lips and he instantly dug under water, remaining there for a few heartbeats. It made the redhead just smile softly, as he looked at the other man, taking a step closer. He could get used to peaceful moments like these together with Kaoru.
Puffing, the older man surfaced and once he spotted the other one so close, a wicked sparkle appeared in his eyes. Quickly, he grabbed Die's wrist and pulled him into the tub as well, chuckling merrily. Die couldn't help but to shriek when he was pulled into the water, still wearing all his clothes and everything. "You're crazy!" He tried to cough out some water from his airways, not able to hide his smile though.
"Did you just accuse your master's eldest son and heir to be out of his mind?" Kaoru asked strictly, but was unable to banish the smile from his face.
"Oh, I'm so sorry." The redhead took on an apologetic look. "Is there anything I can do so you will be merciful and spare my life?"
"Yeah, there is." Kaoru nodded contemplatively, his eyes looking straight at his lover. Absent-mindedly, he tugged the laces of Die's garment again, but didn't say anything further.
"Just name it. I am so sorry." Die bowed his head, trying to cast a glance at the other man from the corner of his eyes.
"First of all, you need to get rid of your clothes. It's inappropriate to be dressed while your master is naked." Kaoru smirked widely, softly patting the other man's back to make him move.
Die tried to get on his feet in the pool, but had to surrender to the slippery ground and finally climbed out of it to take off his clothes. It was hard with the wet cloth though, but with determination he managed.
"Chop chop." Kaoru mocked grinning. "What's taking you so long?" He knew how hard it was to open the laces when they were wet, but couldn't deny himself from teasing his lover a bit. "Next time I will bring my knife and just cut the garment open."
"It's your choice." The younger man grinned brightly. As soon as he got off the clothes he stayed in his place though, just looking at the other man. "And now?"
"Now you just stand there for me to stare at." Kaoru stated shrugging. For a few seconds, he really did that, but then stretched his arms towards the redhead. "Now come here before I have to get you."
"Yes sir." Die instantly came closer, slipping into the water and moved close to the other man. "Anything else?"
"You could give me a kiss." Kaoru's heart was beating a bit faster just because the feeling of his lover's wet skin against his own elicited unknown sensations in him.
Silently the redhead leaned closer, ghosting his lips over the other man's before initiating a soft, tender kiss. It made his heart beat a bit faster already. Gently, Kaoru ran the backside of his fingertips along the other man's spine. There were no words to describe how glad he was that Die and he shared the same kind of affection. Only a couple of days ago, he wouldn't have dared to believe that and now it was as if they were living a dream. The younger man practically melted against his lover and wrapped his arms around his neck, trying to get closer somehow. Moments like these were something he had never gone through before, and would definitely want to repeat once.
Since they didn't know how long they could be together like this without anybody questioning Kaoru's odd affection towards the redheaded slave, they were trying to make the most of every moment they shared. Everything was still so new and Kaoru imprinted the emotions and impressions into his memory to store the information there for all eternity.
For the first time in his life Die was living completely for the moment, not giving a thought for the future as he knew it wasn't necessarily a bright one. So he directed all his senses towards the other man, wanting to get the most of every second. It was shown in the manner of the kiss as well, that they were living for the present as it was showing all the aspects a single kiss could hold. After beginning slow and gentle, it had now grown into something almost feverish, desperate, something that spoke of want and lust as much as of love.
They were able to naturally go from a gentle, slow kiss to something hungry and passionate, simply needing each other in every possible aspect of the word. They both acted on instinct, loving the feeling of skin on skin. Suddenly, Kaoru flipped them both over, the movement causing water to splash over the rim onto the marble floor. "It’s not appropriate for a servant to lie on top of his master," he whispered after breaking the kiss for air.
"Too bad," Die smiled slightly, being somewhat out of breath. "I was kinda enjoying it."
"You did?" The older man grinned and before he received an answer, turned them around again. "I'm the best master ever," he praised himself laughing.
"You are." The redhead nuzzled his nose against the other man's. "The best of the best."
"When you say things like that it makes me feel like agreeing to anything you might come up with," Kaoru admitted smiling and closed his eyes for a moment to enjoy the other man's weight on him and the way he was moving slightly against him, carried by the water.
"Anything I might come up with?" Die grinned, peeking at his lover. "Even if it includes doing indecent things in a bath?"
"ESPECIALLY when it includes doing indecent things in the bath." The older man answered with a nod.
"Good." The redhead practically purred, running his lips along the other man's jawline, nibbling softly. Like naturally, Kaoru tilted his head a bit, offering the younger man his neck to continue the trail. The water was still warm and he blamed it for the rising heat inside him, but inwardly knew that it was the other man who caused it. It was all new to him that he reacted this easily to small things already. Encouraged by the reactions from the young lord, Die allowed his hands to roam down the other man's sides, caressing the skin on his way. He was practically straddling Kaoru's hips, and tried to press their bodies closer to each other.
It elicited a sigh from Kaoru and his hands found their way to Die's waist, trying to aid him in getting closer although it was an impossible task. Apart from their respiration and the soft splashing of water here and there, it was completely silent in the room, nothing giving away that there was a whole army of servants and nobles under the very same roof. It was nice to imagine that they were all alone in the world, and for those few moments they were able to pretend that there was nothing wrong in their feelings, nothing bad in the love they shared. If only it had been that easy in reality, to just shut the door and escape completely from the society. No matter how long their luck would last, they had to learn to deal with the stress of hiding, had to learn not to become paranoid and accidentally give away something to others.
Slowly, Kaoru's hands slid a bit around the other man and further down, squeezing the redhead's buttocks lightly as if silently showing him again how irresistible he was. It made Die smile, and he pulled back a bit to be able to look Kaoru in the eye. He didn't say a word, but after a moment initiated a deep kiss, cupping the other man's cheeks in his palms. Mewling slightly, Kaoru answered to it, but held back and let the younger man dominate, hoping not to scare his lover away again. It was just a kiss, but to him it was important to show Die that he was allowed to take over control if only he wanted to.
The younger man hesitated a bit, but eventually deepened the kiss even more, openly showing his love and want through it. At times he still couldn't believe that he was this lucky, allowed to touch the most gorgeous man on earth like this. Luckily, Kaoru had no idea that Die had feelings like this, because it would have embarrassed him and of course he would have denied it. He didn't see himself as gorgeous and, although he wasn't bad looking either, he was far from being special like his redheaded lover with the smooth, silky and perfectly white skin.
As the kiss broke the redhead only took a few deep breaths before crushing their lips together again, simply needing it. He didn't even notice that the water was slowly cooling, being too lost in the emotions the moment caused. The heat inside the older man was fanned even more by this rough kiss and he moaned loudly, the sound dying somewhere between their mouths. Only its vibrations coursed through both of their bodies and made him shiver, not the cooling water.
They were panting seriously when the kiss broke the next time, because they had been holding on to it for as long as possible. Die looked the other man in the eye, swallowing hard a couple of times to make his voice work. "Need you."
The simple statement made a rush of want to take a hold of Kaoru and he could only nod, his vocal chords unable to form words. Slowly, holding his lover tight, he sat up and gently urged him to lie backwards against the bathtub’s rim, showering his face with kisses.
The gesture made the younger man smile, a breathless chuckle escaping him. He allowed his lover to move him into the place he wanted, just trying to gain even a bit control over himself so that he wouldn't snap right at that very moment.
Kaoru noticed that his lover was fighting his desire and anticipation and somehow he would have truly wanted to see him lose it. But he had promised not to urge him and thus only went for teasing him, hoping to achieve his goal by that. Smiling, he grinded their hips together, sending an electric wave of pleasure through his own body as much as through the younger one's.
The redhead mewled frustratedly, wrapping his legs around Kaoru as best as he could and tried to bring their bodies even closer to gain more of the delicious friction. He knew that by grinding against the other man he would probably just torture himself, but right at that moment, he didn't care.
After they had moved against each other like that a couple of times, a frustrated growl erupted from Kaoru's throat. By then, he was already so aroused that it hurt and everything in his mind was focused on the organ between his legs and the certainty that he would die a painful death if he didn't find release soon. Still, he managed to get a hold of himself and brought his lips close to his lover's ear, first only running his tongue along the earshell. "You want us to go on like this?" It had cost him a lot of willpower and self-control to get the question out steadily.
"No..." The younger man shook his head, taking a few ragged breaths as he desperately tried to make his voice work. "Just... take me." He wasn't completely in control of his own body anymore, again grinding against the other man as best as possible.
The action made both of them groan and Kaoru quickly hooked his arms in the hollows of the younger man's knees to push his legs up. He couldn't wait any longer, the fire inside him just had to be put out soon or it would burn him alive. Knowing that his lover was equally desperate, he used the short moment when the other man inhaled and invaded him, thrusting into the tight heat as deeply as possible.
A relieved outcry escaped the redhead as he was filled so deliciously intense, became one with the man he loved for those few precious moments. He was holding on to Kaoru tight, trying to urge him to move somehow, because he felt as if the heat within would otherwise burn him alive. The water that was surrounding them slowed down Kaoru's movements a bit and when he used a lot of force, pushing his lover against the bathtub, it splashed over the rim. Raw, almost animal sounds were falling from the older man's lips as his lover#s tightness created almost painful friction whenever he withdrew only to thrust inside again.
Die couldn't have stopped the set of whimpers that escaped him even if he had wanted to, everything being almost too much to take. The whole world was spinning before his eyes, each single movement they made against each other taking him higher and higher. His muscles were spasming on their own, his breathing laborious as he only gasped for air. It seemed to go on forever and yet it was over all too soon, white flashing in font of the younger man's eyes when he came hard, accompanied by a feral scream.
As the muscles around his hardness were clenching and relaxing randomly, Kaoru was pushed over the edge with an ungentle shove. He moaned long and hoarsely, the other man's name escaping his lips on its own. Violently shuddering, he released himself inside the other man, clinging onto him as if he was his only anchor to reality.
Even as his body began to relax somewhat Die was clutching on to his lover, almost as if he feared he might pull away and leave him alone. He just loved to share a moment like that together, both equally lost in pleasure, melted together to one single being.
Author:
seinen_no and fonulynRating: NC17
Pairing: Die and Kaoru
Disclaimer: We own no one, only our dirty imaginations.
Summary: As children the son of the Lord and the slave-boy were best of friends and the most important persons in each other’s lives. That was torn apart when the son of the Lord was sent away to get his education, and the boys were denied every form of keeping in contact. What happens when they meet again after all those years, now grown to be gorgeous young men, both bound by their place in the society?
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seinen_no: Hey babes! I know, this one took longer. It's my fault and I'm honestly sorry. To defend myself, I've been sick and just couldn't focus on anything really. But here we are again with a new chapter full of smut. As I re-read it, I had to laugh, because initially we wrote the second lemon just for ourselves, for our own entertainment so to say. But now we decided it couldn't hurt to share it with you guys too, right? So enjoy. The next chaps will be drama *dundundundundundun*
fonulyn: As said above, this chapter is more like a extra take-out chapter since we wrote it for ourselves and never intended to post it really XD But well, I think it’s pretty nice, and more lovey-dovey smut can never harm, eh? I promise in the next chapter we will bring you full-on drama! And this time hopefully a bit quicker as this took pretty long from us x) But please do enjoy!And feel free to add our journal if you like the stories!
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Previously happened: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3
Chapter 4
It was hard for both of them to conceal the affection in their eyes whenever they met. During breakfast, Kaoru began an animated discussion with his father to distract himself from staring at the redhead. Somehow, now that they had confessed their feelings for each other, it was almost impossible to not just stare. Especially Kaoru wasn't used to it and tried to give his face a lusty expression whenever he caught himself staring, hoping the other people would interprete it as that.
Luckily Die knew how to look at people without anyone noticing that he was staring. Still it was hard for him to act indifferent and he made several small mistakes during the breakfast already, being a split second too late to fill someone's glass and so on. Inwardly he decided to blame it on rough times if anyone happened to ask.
Before lunch, Kaoru had to visit the small village nearby just to have a noble-man present and look after the happenings there. He hated this duty, because people were complaining about unimportant, minor things, about their neighbours who allowed their cows to graze on their fields and things like that. Yet, it gave him time to let his mind wander and think about his redheaded lover, enjoying the warm pleasant feeling the mere thought of him stirred in his stomach.
Everything went fine and no one noticed anything weird in Die's behavior, until he sat down to eat with his mother like every day. She gave him a suspicious glance. Although she loved to see her son happy, she had a bad feeling about this. Still, she didn't say anything and kept her thoughts for herself. It would have been too dangerous to discuss things like that in front of other slaves anyways, but she made up her mind to take her son to task the next given opportunity.
When Kaoru returned from the village, it was lunchtime already and he spurred his horse. From afar, he spotted Tanaka and in riding by, he gave his younger brother a wide smile, even nodding at him. What could he do at the moment? Nothing. And so Kaoru felt quite safe as long as his father was on his side.
As Die had told that the young master would have lunch in his room, the head servant had instantly ordered him to take care of it, just like Die had assumed. He could barely cover his happiness when he headed to the other man's room with a tray in his hands.
When he stepped inside, he noticed that Kaoru wasn't there yet as he had just arrived at the front porch and handed a servant the reins of his horse. The sun was burning mercilessly and he was sweaty and dusty, but since the time for them was short, he resisted the temptation to take a bath first and instead hurried to his chamber.
The redhead had set the food on the table, and was shifting on his feet nervously because the young master wasn't there yet. When the door opened though, his expression brightened instantly.
"Why didn't you sit down and eat a bit already?" Kaoru asked a bit out of breath. Quickly, he closed the door behind him and approached the other man, stopping only when their chests were almost touching.
"I'm not that hungry." Die smiled, looking him in the eye, drowning in those dark brown depths.
"But I am." The older man said ambiguously, placed his hand in Die's neck and pulled him down into a heated kiss. During the long ride in the sun he had had enough time to dwell on this imagination and now couldn't resist living up to it. The younger man couldn't help but to smile into the kiss, answering to it as well as he was able to. His heart was already beating frantically in his chest, Kaoru's mere presence making him happier than he would've thought possible.
Slowly, Kaoru wrapped his arms around his lover's waist to hold him close. It felt good to be in love, more than that, he had to admit and the realization made him smile. As they parted, both slightly out of breath, Die couldn't stop smiling still. "The dinner's on the table." He grinned teasingly, tilting his head a bit.
"Who's talking about food?" The other man answered cockily. Grinning, he slid his palms up the younger man's spine, over his shoulders and to his chest, giving him a hard shove that sent him down on the bed.
The redhead couldn't help but to laugh, and moved a bit further on the mattress, practically eating the slightly smaller man with his eyes. "I assumed you were..."
"Well," Kaoru purred, based his hands on the mattress and slowly crawled towards him, "you look quite edible if you ask me." There was a certain smirk tugging the corners of his mouth and a sparkle in his eyes.
"I see." The younger man leaned backwards a bit, steadying himself on his elbows. "So that was why you wanted to take lunch in your room." The grin never left his lips as he watched the other man's every movement.
"Maybe I should be more clear next time. I should've told you that you're the lunch." Kaoru was now at the same level as his redheaded lover and he bowed his head, purposefully allowing his breath to ghost across the other man's lips before he kissed him shortly. He knew that he was dirty and probably didn't smell too good, but there was not much he could do about it now unless Die rejected him and sent him to take a bath first.
Instead of pushing Kaoru away though, Die tangled his fingers in his hair, keeping him in place to initiate another kiss. Something in him couldn't get enough of the kisses they shared. Similar feelings were running through the older man and he couldn't remember receiving a kiss that made his head spin and his heart beat in the way like Die's. Using the distraction, he brought his hand to his lover's thigh, slowly gliding it upwards over the rough cloth of his garment.
Automatically the younger man parted his thighs a bit, coevally trying to slide a bit closer to him even. He had always remained passive, never taking the initiative but somehow this was different, and he instinctively slid his arms along the young lord's back, trying to pull him against himself. This simple gesture almost caused Kaoru's heart to burst his chest as it began to race. He knew that it was a sign for the younger one's trust, showing him he wanted this as well.
A smile found its way to Kaoru's lips when his hand had reached its goal, resting now right between Die's legs on his length. The redhead almost held his breath, just freezing in his movement for a moment and waiting for what would happen, wanting more of the touch. With a certain satisfaction, Kaoru noticed the reaction and he carefully rubbed the flesh under his palm, pressing down lightly. There was something in the redhead that made it more important to him to please him more than himself.
A slow, silent growl found its way from somewhere in Die's throat, as he closed his eyes, moving his hips ever so slightly into the touch. He still held his arms around the other man's shoulders, pulling himself up a bit, closer to him. They were still engaged in the kiss and since Kaoru needed one arm to back himself up and hold his lover's weight as well, he withdrew from the arousal to fumble for the laces which tied the toga-like garment around Die's frame. It didn't work out that well though, with only one hand, and he had to break the kiss to take a look. "Damn."
"Just take your time with it." The redhead grinned, chuckling a bit at the other man. He knew that they wouldn't have endless time, but he still wanted to enjoy the moment and not worry about anything.
"But I'm hungry." The older man mirrored the grin, bringing his lips close to Die's ear. "And I'm hungry now." He kept on fighting with the laces, finally undoing them enough to slide his hand inside, admiringly running it along the smooth skin of the younger man's lower stomach, brushing through the pubic hair before he laced his fingers around his arousal to continue what he had begun.
Instantly the younger man forgot what he had been about to say, his eyes falling shut as a small groan escaped him. "Then you need something to cure the hunger." He managed to make his voice sound surprisingly steady, as he addressed the other.
"You should be sufficient." Kaoru answered with a bit of arrogance laced in his tone. Because it was futile to try to open those stubborn laces with one hand, he settled for doing as he had predicted, eating the other man. So after pecking Die's lips once more, he crawled down and bowed his head, looking the redhead in the face before he took the half-erect flesh into his mouth.
It made Die gasp, the hot wetness around him making his head spin instantly. He just couldn't tear his eyes away from his lover's, looking straight at him even when his eyes wanted to fall shut. Like hypnotized, Kaoru maintained the eye-contact, shifting so that it was possible even when he began to lower his head, engulfing as much of the hardening flesh into his throat as possible. It was an odd feeling at first and he was close to choking, but soon he got used to it and coevally massaged the loose skin with his tongue, sucking whenever he withdrew his head a bit.
"Oh gosh..." There were no words to describe how the redhead felt, the pleasure coursing through him in steady currents. He tried to part his legs more, being hindered by his clothes though. "Please..." He didn't even know what he was asking for, because the words escaped his mind.
Kaoru didn't know it either, but assumed that it had just been a statement resulting from a pleasure-blurred mind. He tried once again to untie the laces properly. The attempt was doomed right from the beginning since he still refused to take his eyes off the other man's face. Surrendering to that, he wrapped the fingers of one hand around the base of the arousal, stroking him while he increased the ministrations of his mouth. He couldn't deny that everything had a certain effect on him as well, low groans forming somewhere in the back of his throat, creating vibrations that were adding up to his lover's pleasure.
It didn't take long, the pressure just adding up with each passing second, and soon the younger man tensed forcefully, a small cry escaping him as he released himself. He was panting harshly and finally closed his eyes since he felt like he otherwise could never get a grip of himself. When Kaoru's mouth filled with his lover's bitter release, he found that it wasn't half as bad as he had imagined and the fact that it was a part of the person he loved, made him even like it. After swallowing everything, he withdrew his head and stretched his body to plant a chaste kiss on the other man's quivering lips.
"I'm sorry." Die was somehow a bit embarrassed that he had lost control over himself so utterly and completely. But there was nothing he could've done, the other man making him feel better than ever before, than he would've thought possible.
"Feeling good?" Kaoru asked, ignoring the apology. He didn't want the redhead to feel as if he had done something forbidden by surrendering to the feelings.
"More than that." The answer came with a slightly relieved smile. The younger man took a deep breath, turning to look at his lover. "Thank you."
"What for?" Kaoru asked pretended hypocritical. "I was hungry."
"Yes, indeed you were." Die chuckled, leaning closer to steal a short kiss.
Laughing, Kaoru tugged the still tied laces of his garment. "And I think I will eat a lot more until I learn how to open this without ruining it."
"So there's something you're not good at..." Die laughed lovingly, easily undoing the knot on the laces.
"It can't be." The other man stared at his hands in disbelief. "There I am, struggling with those while you could've undone them yourself all the time?"
"Right." The younger man grinned, looking totally happy. "That is, if I would've had any brain activity left."
"So I should've waited for you to first undress and then eat you..." Kaoru concluded cleverly, grinned and then leaned in to kiss the other man again. "Did anybody ever tell you that you are gorgeous?"
"You did." Die nodded instantly, looking him in the eye.
"And I meant it then as much as I mean it now. You've become truly beautiful." Laughing softly, the older man continued. "It's a curse though. Nobody would care for you if you were ugly, but like this, they all want a piece of you and are jealous that I have you for myself."
"Let them be. Jealous I mean." The younger man leaned closer, wrapping his arms around his noble lover's neck and pecked his lips. "I'm yours. Body, soul and mind. Everything."
The words caused a lump in Kaoru's throat and he had to swallow hard. "Thank you," he answered a bit choked. "I love you. Everything."
"I know. Love you too." Die smiled, looking the other man deep in the eye before initiating a gentle kiss. Instantly, the older man's eyes fell shut and he opened his mouth for his lover's tongue. He was delighted to see that Die dared to take the initiative, even if it was only a soft touch or a statement. But a kiss like this, that took Kaoru's breath away and made his head spin, was of a different magnitude. Half of the time the redhead even surprised himself, how he was able to cast aside years of self control and all he had been taught, and instead dared to kiss the other man demandingly. It was something Kaoru did to him, something in him that made him feel totally safe.
There really was nothing he had to fear while he was with the young heir, because Kaoru only enjoyed his advances. It made him feel loved and wanted like he had never felt before. And it was good for Die to have a place where he was allowed to act like himself, to be able to just do things without being afraid that he'd cross some invisible line and step away from his strictly defined place.
"Die," Kaoru was breathing heavily after they parted. He looked the other man directly in the eye and smiled softly. Thinking that this would be the perfect moment, he took the younger man's hand in his, linking their fingers. "I want you to take me." The request resonated in the otherwise quiet room and he nodded to emphasize his seriousness. He just wanted to give himself to Die, to show him that they were equal. Besides, he really wanted to try it.
"No!" Die's eyes widened, and he shook his head as soon as he realized what those words meant. "No." Under normal circumstances he would've never denied the other man what he wanted, but this he couldn't do. If anybody found out, it would mean certain death for him and probably for Kaoru too. At least if his father became furious. Allowing a slave to take control over a noble man violated one of the goddess' most important laws.
Kaoru knew all this, but since their relationship itself already endangered his lover's life, he saw now problem in taking that step too. "Please Die. I want to give myself to you."
"I won't. Please, anything but not that..." Die looked truly desperate, shaking his head still. "They'll kill you if anyone finds out! It's really not worth it."
"Who should find out? We're all alone and there's nobody here. Besides," Kaoru looked him straight in the eyes, "I risk your life just by loving you. And don't you think that I'll just turn around and go on if anything happens to you."
"You will have to. Kaoru, please don't do this to me. I can live with it if it's only me who's in danger." The younger man was pleading with his eyes, cupping the other man's cheeks in his palms, their faces only inches away from each other. "I can't risk you, I can't."
Kaoru saw that there was no sense in arguing with the redhead right now, no reasoning with him, but he couldn't hide that he was disappointed. Of course it was more than flattering that his lover didn't want to put his life in jeopardy, but it was unfair too. Everything was unfair. Why did they even have to hide? He didn't say anything though, only nodded sighing without looking straight into the other man's eyes.
"I'm sorry. So sorry." Die had to swallow against the lump in his throat, and instinctively he swung his arms around his lover, hugging him tight. "Please don't hate me for this. I just can't."
Only then, Kaoru saw how insecure Die still was. Soothingly, he caressed his cheek. "Shhht. Don't apologize. I could never hate you." Silently the younger man buried his face in his lover's neck, inhaling his scent deep and tried to calm himself down. He tried not to think about what would happen if anyone found out about their true feelings, but it wasn't that easy to cast aside.
Kaoru knew that everybody would think he demanded Die to stay the whole afternoon and throughout the night. So he just silently cradled the redhead in his arms and held him tightly while his thoughts were circling around finding a way out of their stuck situation.
Die was grateful that the other man held him like that, helping him to calm down completely. He felt bad for destroying the happy moment, and for causing the mood to change so suddenly. Yet, there was nothing he could do as things were against them and both of them knew it. To Kaoru it was only important that they lived through it together, the closeness soothing part of his own fears already. It showed him clearly why they were risking so much. Because they were not only in love, but loved each other from the bottom of their hearts.
After a long while the redhead broke the silence, tilting his head to look at the other man. "Want to eat a bit? Although it's cold... I can get you something warm too." He didn't know how to break the silence otherwise, and just tried to begin with something casual.
"Thank you, but I am not really hungry. Though I smell like a skunk, right? Maybe I should take a bath?" For a moment, Kaoru thought about the idea and then grinned. "Would you do me a favour? Order some slaves to fill my bathtub and then you could join me? That is," the grin widened considerably, "if it's not too disgusting for you."
"I would be honoured to take care of your bath." Die laughed softly and pecked the young heir's chin. "I'll be right back." Reluctantly, he left the embrace, straightening his clothes before slipping out of the room.
Still smiling, Kaoru rolled on his back and folded his arms behind his head. Everything could have been so easy if it weren't for the goddess and the noble men's stupid laws. What was so wrong in loving somebody? One thing was for sure; once he took over his father's realm, he would make a difference, would work hard to convince people that every human being was equal. Only that in his world slaves weren't even seen as full humans...
It didn't take long before two slaves had already prepared a bath for Kaoru, and Die sent them away telling them that he would take care of the rest. The others just shrugged and left, glad that they didn't have to do more. As everything was ready, Die appeared beside Kaoru's bed, smiling down at him. "The bath's ready."
"Thank you." The young lord stood up, took the other man's hand and led him into the bathroom. The smell of bathing oil lingered in the air and made him inhale a bit deeper subconsciously. "You know, sometimes I feel like a cripple, because I'm not allowed to do anything by myself. My father always demands us to ask a slave to take care of things." With a smile, he looked at the redhead. "So, would you help me to get out of these uncomfortable clothes?"
"Of course. That's what I'm here for, right?" Die smiled brightly, keeping his tone polite and already moved his hands to slide off the other man's shirt. He allowed his fingers to linger on the soft skin a bit longer than necessary though, enjoying the feeling.
Still smiling, Kaoru watched his every movement, enjoying the feeling of his hands touching him everywhere. Once he was naked, he stepped into the bathtub, carefully testing the temperature with his toes before sliding inside completely. A pleased sigh escaped his lips and he instantly dug under water, remaining there for a few heartbeats. It made the redhead just smile softly, as he looked at the other man, taking a step closer. He could get used to peaceful moments like these together with Kaoru.
Puffing, the older man surfaced and once he spotted the other one so close, a wicked sparkle appeared in his eyes. Quickly, he grabbed Die's wrist and pulled him into the tub as well, chuckling merrily. Die couldn't help but to shriek when he was pulled into the water, still wearing all his clothes and everything. "You're crazy!" He tried to cough out some water from his airways, not able to hide his smile though.
"Did you just accuse your master's eldest son and heir to be out of his mind?" Kaoru asked strictly, but was unable to banish the smile from his face.
"Oh, I'm so sorry." The redhead took on an apologetic look. "Is there anything I can do so you will be merciful and spare my life?"
"Yeah, there is." Kaoru nodded contemplatively, his eyes looking straight at his lover. Absent-mindedly, he tugged the laces of Die's garment again, but didn't say anything further.
"Just name it. I am so sorry." Die bowed his head, trying to cast a glance at the other man from the corner of his eyes.
"First of all, you need to get rid of your clothes. It's inappropriate to be dressed while your master is naked." Kaoru smirked widely, softly patting the other man's back to make him move.
Die tried to get on his feet in the pool, but had to surrender to the slippery ground and finally climbed out of it to take off his clothes. It was hard with the wet cloth though, but with determination he managed.
"Chop chop." Kaoru mocked grinning. "What's taking you so long?" He knew how hard it was to open the laces when they were wet, but couldn't deny himself from teasing his lover a bit. "Next time I will bring my knife and just cut the garment open."
"It's your choice." The younger man grinned brightly. As soon as he got off the clothes he stayed in his place though, just looking at the other man. "And now?"
"Now you just stand there for me to stare at." Kaoru stated shrugging. For a few seconds, he really did that, but then stretched his arms towards the redhead. "Now come here before I have to get you."
"Yes sir." Die instantly came closer, slipping into the water and moved close to the other man. "Anything else?"
"You could give me a kiss." Kaoru's heart was beating a bit faster just because the feeling of his lover's wet skin against his own elicited unknown sensations in him.
Silently the redhead leaned closer, ghosting his lips over the other man's before initiating a soft, tender kiss. It made his heart beat a bit faster already. Gently, Kaoru ran the backside of his fingertips along the other man's spine. There were no words to describe how glad he was that Die and he shared the same kind of affection. Only a couple of days ago, he wouldn't have dared to believe that and now it was as if they were living a dream. The younger man practically melted against his lover and wrapped his arms around his neck, trying to get closer somehow. Moments like these were something he had never gone through before, and would definitely want to repeat once.
Since they didn't know how long they could be together like this without anybody questioning Kaoru's odd affection towards the redheaded slave, they were trying to make the most of every moment they shared. Everything was still so new and Kaoru imprinted the emotions and impressions into his memory to store the information there for all eternity.
For the first time in his life Die was living completely for the moment, not giving a thought for the future as he knew it wasn't necessarily a bright one. So he directed all his senses towards the other man, wanting to get the most of every second. It was shown in the manner of the kiss as well, that they were living for the present as it was showing all the aspects a single kiss could hold. After beginning slow and gentle, it had now grown into something almost feverish, desperate, something that spoke of want and lust as much as of love.
They were able to naturally go from a gentle, slow kiss to something hungry and passionate, simply needing each other in every possible aspect of the word. They both acted on instinct, loving the feeling of skin on skin. Suddenly, Kaoru flipped them both over, the movement causing water to splash over the rim onto the marble floor. "It’s not appropriate for a servant to lie on top of his master," he whispered after breaking the kiss for air.
"Too bad," Die smiled slightly, being somewhat out of breath. "I was kinda enjoying it."
"You did?" The older man grinned and before he received an answer, turned them around again. "I'm the best master ever," he praised himself laughing.
"You are." The redhead nuzzled his nose against the other man's. "The best of the best."
"When you say things like that it makes me feel like agreeing to anything you might come up with," Kaoru admitted smiling and closed his eyes for a moment to enjoy the other man's weight on him and the way he was moving slightly against him, carried by the water.
"Anything I might come up with?" Die grinned, peeking at his lover. "Even if it includes doing indecent things in a bath?"
"ESPECIALLY when it includes doing indecent things in the bath." The older man answered with a nod.
"Good." The redhead practically purred, running his lips along the other man's jawline, nibbling softly. Like naturally, Kaoru tilted his head a bit, offering the younger man his neck to continue the trail. The water was still warm and he blamed it for the rising heat inside him, but inwardly knew that it was the other man who caused it. It was all new to him that he reacted this easily to small things already. Encouraged by the reactions from the young lord, Die allowed his hands to roam down the other man's sides, caressing the skin on his way. He was practically straddling Kaoru's hips, and tried to press their bodies closer to each other.
It elicited a sigh from Kaoru and his hands found their way to Die's waist, trying to aid him in getting closer although it was an impossible task. Apart from their respiration and the soft splashing of water here and there, it was completely silent in the room, nothing giving away that there was a whole army of servants and nobles under the very same roof. It was nice to imagine that they were all alone in the world, and for those few moments they were able to pretend that there was nothing wrong in their feelings, nothing bad in the love they shared. If only it had been that easy in reality, to just shut the door and escape completely from the society. No matter how long their luck would last, they had to learn to deal with the stress of hiding, had to learn not to become paranoid and accidentally give away something to others.
Slowly, Kaoru's hands slid a bit around the other man and further down, squeezing the redhead's buttocks lightly as if silently showing him again how irresistible he was. It made Die smile, and he pulled back a bit to be able to look Kaoru in the eye. He didn't say a word, but after a moment initiated a deep kiss, cupping the other man's cheeks in his palms. Mewling slightly, Kaoru answered to it, but held back and let the younger man dominate, hoping not to scare his lover away again. It was just a kiss, but to him it was important to show Die that he was allowed to take over control if only he wanted to.
The younger man hesitated a bit, but eventually deepened the kiss even more, openly showing his love and want through it. At times he still couldn't believe that he was this lucky, allowed to touch the most gorgeous man on earth like this. Luckily, Kaoru had no idea that Die had feelings like this, because it would have embarrassed him and of course he would have denied it. He didn't see himself as gorgeous and, although he wasn't bad looking either, he was far from being special like his redheaded lover with the smooth, silky and perfectly white skin.
As the kiss broke the redhead only took a few deep breaths before crushing their lips together again, simply needing it. He didn't even notice that the water was slowly cooling, being too lost in the emotions the moment caused. The heat inside the older man was fanned even more by this rough kiss and he moaned loudly, the sound dying somewhere between their mouths. Only its vibrations coursed through both of their bodies and made him shiver, not the cooling water.
They were panting seriously when the kiss broke the next time, because they had been holding on to it for as long as possible. Die looked the other man in the eye, swallowing hard a couple of times to make his voice work. "Need you."
The simple statement made a rush of want to take a hold of Kaoru and he could only nod, his vocal chords unable to form words. Slowly, holding his lover tight, he sat up and gently urged him to lie backwards against the bathtub’s rim, showering his face with kisses.
The gesture made the younger man smile, a breathless chuckle escaping him. He allowed his lover to move him into the place he wanted, just trying to gain even a bit control over himself so that he wouldn't snap right at that very moment.
Kaoru noticed that his lover was fighting his desire and anticipation and somehow he would have truly wanted to see him lose it. But he had promised not to urge him and thus only went for teasing him, hoping to achieve his goal by that. Smiling, he grinded their hips together, sending an electric wave of pleasure through his own body as much as through the younger one's.
The redhead mewled frustratedly, wrapping his legs around Kaoru as best as he could and tried to bring their bodies even closer to gain more of the delicious friction. He knew that by grinding against the other man he would probably just torture himself, but right at that moment, he didn't care.
After they had moved against each other like that a couple of times, a frustrated growl erupted from Kaoru's throat. By then, he was already so aroused that it hurt and everything in his mind was focused on the organ between his legs and the certainty that he would die a painful death if he didn't find release soon. Still, he managed to get a hold of himself and brought his lips close to his lover's ear, first only running his tongue along the earshell. "You want us to go on like this?" It had cost him a lot of willpower and self-control to get the question out steadily.
"No..." The younger man shook his head, taking a few ragged breaths as he desperately tried to make his voice work. "Just... take me." He wasn't completely in control of his own body anymore, again grinding against the other man as best as possible.
The action made both of them groan and Kaoru quickly hooked his arms in the hollows of the younger man's knees to push his legs up. He couldn't wait any longer, the fire inside him just had to be put out soon or it would burn him alive. Knowing that his lover was equally desperate, he used the short moment when the other man inhaled and invaded him, thrusting into the tight heat as deeply as possible.
A relieved outcry escaped the redhead as he was filled so deliciously intense, became one with the man he loved for those few precious moments. He was holding on to Kaoru tight, trying to urge him to move somehow, because he felt as if the heat within would otherwise burn him alive. The water that was surrounding them slowed down Kaoru's movements a bit and when he used a lot of force, pushing his lover against the bathtub, it splashed over the rim. Raw, almost animal sounds were falling from the older man's lips as his lover#s tightness created almost painful friction whenever he withdrew only to thrust inside again.
Die couldn't have stopped the set of whimpers that escaped him even if he had wanted to, everything being almost too much to take. The whole world was spinning before his eyes, each single movement they made against each other taking him higher and higher. His muscles were spasming on their own, his breathing laborious as he only gasped for air. It seemed to go on forever and yet it was over all too soon, white flashing in font of the younger man's eyes when he came hard, accompanied by a feral scream.
As the muscles around his hardness were clenching and relaxing randomly, Kaoru was pushed over the edge with an ungentle shove. He moaned long and hoarsely, the other man's name escaping his lips on its own. Violently shuddering, he released himself inside the other man, clinging onto him as if he was his only anchor to reality.
Even as his body began to relax somewhat Die was clutching on to his lover, almost as if he feared he might pull away and leave him alone. He just loved to share a moment like that together, both equally lost in pleasure, melted together to one single being.