(no subject)

[rabenhorst]

Title: With a little help from my friend, Chapter four; Finally
Author: seinen_no and fonulyn
Rating: NC17
Disclaimer: We own no one, only our dirty imaginations.
Comments:
seinen_no: Okay, okay, fonulyn bugged me to go through this and to add my comment so that we can finally post it. I'm sorry, I'm a snail XD
This is now the last part and it's a bit longer than the others *coughs* Well, but I (we) hope you enjoy it.
Aw, I am kinda sad that it's over, because I enjoy writing with you so much, hunny. *laughs hysterically* Okay, we write so much almost every day. Oh, and we still have to think about this contest thingy... Darn, but that doesn't belong here.
And to cute_boy_tak: There's no need to boss me around^^ And hey, I'm neither stubborn, nor old :D

fonulyn: Heh, first of all, I didn’t bug her [much]. But how do they say, some things are worth waiting for. I hope this is one of those things.
As seinen_no mentioned, this is a bit longer than the other parts, and we had our reasons for that xD Okay, okay, we just couldn’t stop writing^^ I’m sad that it’s over too, but there’s another stories to come, and if I have anything to say then we will be writing together for looong time still^^
Gah. Okay, just let the babbling end here, and go on to the story! Enjoy^^


Previous parts can be found here:
With a little help from my friend
Part II
Part III



Finally

It took almost three hours, but then the silence was cut off by the sound of the doorbell. Instinctively Kaoru got up, walked to the door and swung it open, although he really didn't want to talk with anyone right now. Behind the door there was Die, hugging himself with his arms, standing in the pouring rain without shoes, soaking wet and looking utterly miserable.

He was chewing on his bottom lip and looked straight at the other through some red strands that the rain had glued to his face. He even opened his mouth to speak, but in the end couldn't say anything and just averted his haze ashamed.

Kaoru's first intention was to slam the door shut again after yelling at the other to leave him alone, but then he took another glance at him and it caused his heart to cramp. "What the fuck do you think you're doing? Come inside, you're catching pneumonia." The words were barked harshly, meant to disguise his insecurity. When Die still didn't move, he grabbed him by his arm and dragged him inside before slamming the door shut as he had wanted to do in the first place. Only that he was now confronted with the incarnation of all his problems, dripping wet and, this he had to admit, looking utterly miserable.

"Kao, I..." The redhead begun, his voice shaking and he simply didn't know what to say. He had been running around aimlessly at first, wandering around in the rain, and finally he had found himself on the other's doorstep again. A forceful shudder ran through him which made his teeth scatter as he was practically freezing.

The older guitarist totally forgot that he himself wore his 'home-clothes' and unstylish glasses, he even forgot this insecureness as he noticed the other's shivering. "You need to get out of those clothes." His voice didn't allow any contradictions and he already began to drag the jacket off the younger's shoulders.

At first Die didn't resist, but after the jacket was gone he somehow snapped back to reality. "No, don't. I'm fine." At the same instant another shudder coursed through him.

"Die, you're soaking wet and freezing. C'mon, I give you some warm clothes." When he still didn't allow Kaoru to undress him, the older man simply pushed him towards his bedroom where his closet was.

Die didn't even notice it, since he was too busy trying to convince the other that he was alright. "No, really, the clothes will dry soon anyways." The nervousness hit him again, and a part of him would've wanted to run again.

"Are you nuts?" Kaoru had no time for being insecure, not even did he notice that the other's shirt stuck to his skin rather temptingly. All that filled his mind was the worry that the redhead could catch a cold or even worse. He had been gone a long time and the cold November rain was close to freezing. "You get out of those clothes right now." With one last shove, he managed to push the other into the bedroom and quickly turned around, intending to fetch a big fluffy towel.

Before the older guitarist had the time to go further, Die grabbed his arm and pulled him back. "Kao, wait." He didn't know what to do, how to react and therefore quickly forced his words out before he could re-think them. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have acted that way and I don't know what's gotten into me but I just can't stop thinking about you and what we shared back then and I miss you so much since we don't even talk properly anymore and I just can't live like this anymore.."

Seconds were passing, voiced by the alarm clock on the older guitarist's nightstand. It took some time till he had fully comprehended what Die had said, but parts of him still needed more time to believe it as well. The wave of emotion that was coursing through him at that moment was indescribable and he was sure that the other was able to hear his frantically beating heart. "Wow." Kaoru couldn't say more, his gaze locked on the other's. "I..." That was his chance, his opportunity to tell Die that he did miss him too that he loved him, but he simply couldn't get the words out.

The younger man was still utterly confused, and suddenly became terribly afraid that he might've said something wrong and ruined everything. Quickly he let go of the other's arm he was still holding, plopping to sit down on the bed's edge although he was still dripping wet. "I'm sorry," He buried his face into his palms. "I shouldn't have said that."

"No, no ... don't take it back now." Kaoru shook his head. He was so utterly confused, relieved and afraid, shocked and grateful at the same time, that he began to babble without realizing what he was saying. "I've been missing you so much and I was waiting for you to tell me that all the time. Don't take it back now. I tried to be friends with you, I really did, but I can't. I can't be, because I love you." After the last words had ceased, an oppressive silence landed upon them in which Kaoru only waited for a reaction, a bewildered expression on his face.

Slowly Die raised his head, looking at the other with an expression of utter surprise. "What did you say?" He had just thought he'd ruined everything, and there the other was, telling him he loved him, something he hadn't dared to hope in his wildest dreams.

"That you shouldn't take back what you just said?" Kaoru asked quietly, knowing fully well that the other had meant something else.

"After it." The redhead still stared at the other. "Did you mean it?"

Swallowing hard, the older man nodded. His heart had dropped somewhere deep in his pants. Never in his entire life had he felt like that, insecure and scared. "I love you," he repeated the words so quiet, they were hardly above a whisper. It was too late anyways and if Die had only meant that he missed their friendship and liked the sex, he was doomed.

Die closed his eyes, swallowing hard at the words. His heart was racing, and he really didn't know what to say. So he didn't say a thing, and only jumped up from his seat. Grabbing the other's head with both his hands he tilted it up to be able to look him deep in the eye. For a moment he staid there, but then decided to test his luck and pressed a soft, chaste kiss on Kaoru's lips.

The connection caused Kaoru's heart to shoot up from his pants right into his throat where it started pounding louder and harder than before. Slowly, he snaked his arms around the other's waist and moved a bit closer, not caring for the wet and cold clothes. Tentatively, he moved his lips against Die's, still not fully convinced that this was really happening.

A small content sigh escaped Die as he moved slowly to deepen the kiss. His fingers were still in the other's hair, and he wasn't completely sure that he wasn't going to pull away. But as he felt Kaoru's arms around him he simply leaned closer, trusting that everything would work out fine.

It felt so good, so heavenly and the relief was indescribable when it came clear to Kaoru that this was it. He finally was where he had wanted to be since that very night. That realization caused him to smile widely, even laugh a bit and with that, he broke the kiss. With slightly flushed cheeks, he looked at Die, tightening the hold he had on him a bit. "I guess you just won yourself a relationship," he whispered.

With a glimmer in his eyes, the younger man softly stroke the other's cheeks with his thumbs. "I guess so. And this time I promise I'll try to make it last." He chuckled nervously, still not completely believing his luck.

Kaoru bit his bottom lip, but then grinned. "I warn you, I'm not dumped easily." He was still terribly nervous and couldn't hide the slight trembling of his body, but he couldn't deny himself from bringing his lips close to the younger's ear. "But you'll never have to suffer from incurable hornyness ever again." His tone had slightly changed, a bit of huskiness laced in it and he smirked.

The comment made Die's smile widen considerably, as he was slowly beginning to comprehend what had just happened. "I'll take that as a promise." He circled his arms around the older's neck, intending on just staying there, but then a forceful shudder coursed through him, reminding him that he was still in the wet and cold clothes.

It brought Kaoru back to reality for a second and he released him from his arms, instead tugging his shirt. "Get out of these," he demanded firmly, already opening the first buttons.

The younger man knew that the other probably just wanted to get him out of the cold clothes and into dry ones, but couldn't help but to chuckle. "I didn't realize you were that desperate. Can't wait to get me out of my clothes."

Kaoru joined the redhead's laughter and replied, without turning a hair. "I didn't have any in weeks and I'm terribly horny." To emphasize his comment, he kept on unbuttoning the other's shirt, slowly sliding his fingertips across the cool and clammy skin that was revealed.

"Me too." Die smiled, shaking his head a bit. "I was just too busy thinking of you." He shivered again, the coldness spreading deep into his bones.

It felt so good to hear the other say what had been on Kaoru's mind as well. However, he arched a questioning eyebrow and asked mockingly. "Didn't have any or are terribly horny?"

"Both." The younger answered instantly. "Didn't have any and therefore am terribly horny." He didn't make a move, only enjoying that the other was unbuttoning his shirt.

"Not even your hand?" The older guitarist asked further, smirking widely. By then he was convinced that Die would never get out of the wet clothes if he didn't urge him. So he placed a warm kiss on the other's shoulder before sliding the shirt off completely, slowly running his palms over his chest, his belly till they reached the hem of his pants.

Die shook his head, pushing his bottom lip forward a bit. "No. Not even my hand." He couldn't resist the temptation, and took a hold of the other's shoulders to pull him a bit closer so he could give him a quick kiss.

"It's been more than five weeks," Kaoru said, smiling against the other's lips. "All because of me?" Playfully, he fumbled about the button of the redhead's pants, yet didn't open it right away.

"Yes, all your fault." The younger man grinned, licking across the other's bottom lip. "After you nothing else seemed good enough."

"I should've known that earlier. It would have saved us some precious time and me some nerves." With a flick of his fingers, Kaoru popped open the button and pulled down the zipper. The smile on his face was as wide as it could get. "But you need to get into some dry clothes," he teased, trying to sound regretful.

"Aww," Die pouted, leaning a bit further from the older man and pushing forward his bottom lip. "And here I thought you might help me to get warm otherwise."

Chuckling quietly, the older guitarist hooked his thumbs in the waistband of the other's jeans and dragged them down along with the boxers in one swift movement. "I didn't say when you get to wear the dry clothes, nor that they are meant to warm you." With a dreamy glimmer in his eyes, he took one step backwards, letting his gaze roam over every inch of Die's body.

Die couldn't help himself, and blushed slightly, as the other's gaze felt so intense. He was shivering a bit from cold, but staid still where he was, not making a move to do anything. "I don't think you can make me warm with only your eyes..."

"Works for your cheeks," remarked Kaoru snickering and closed the distance between them again. He had to admit that, although he had seen Die naked so many times before their night, he now looked at him with different eyes. And he couldn't deny that he liked what he saw. Tiptoeing, he pressed a short kiss on the other's lips, grabbed his shoulders and pushed him down on the bed. "You'll see. Afterwards, you'll need an ice cold shower." This time, he was determined to make it last as long as possible, to enjoy it without the doubts he had had the other night and without the insecurity.

Chuckling, the younger man kicked away his pants that were still dangling from his ankles, before looking up at the older one. "I trust you know I want other proofs than mere talking." He grabbed the other's arm and pulled him down to rest almost on top of him, pressing yet another kiss to his lips. This was something he simply couldn't get enough of, and he wanted just to taste the other again.

Kaoru smiled into the kiss, but broke it before time. His glasses were clouded and with a wink he took them off, heedlessly dropping them somewhere on the floor. Instead of replying anything, he then grabbed Die's head with both hands and resumed the kiss demandingly.

A soft mewl escaped Die as he eagerly answered to the kiss. Although he wouldn't have wanted to admit it, it was a huge turn on for him how the older man was so demanding, kissing him roughly and somehow wanting to control him. It was all new to him.

All possible doubts Kaoru had had, the endless questions about right or wrong, about his sexuality and the fear of destroying the trust they had developed during their long-time friendship had vanished into nothing at the moment where Die had admitted he had feelings for him. Having the other trapped underneath him simply felt right, perfect and to Kaoru it was only natural how he acted, pouring all his want into the kiss. Finally, he remembered that he did have hands as well. His left grabbed a fistful of red hair to prevent the younger man from breaking the kiss unexpectedly, while he slowly roamed the other over his firm chest.

Die had hooked his fingers into the lead guitarist's hair, but now let them fall downwards to grab the back of his shirt. Tentatively he tugged at the fabric, wanting to just rip the garment off, but had to come to the conclusion that it was impossible. So he tugged the shirt again, this time upwards as he wanted to slide it off the other man.

Kaoru took the hint and stretched his arms above his head, breaking the kiss only for the time it took to drag the shirt off his body. Shifting a bit until he sat between the younger man's legs, he impatiently pushed down his leisure suit pants while kissing and nibbling the other's neck.

Slowly the redhead ran his palms along the other's smooth back, the feeling alone making him irrationally happy. That he was allowed to touch the other, to be close to him was all something he had never experienced before, and now he never wanted to let go of this feeling.

Kaoru's consciousness was completely filled by the other man, all his senses focused on him. The other's mere scent did things to the lead guitarist's body which caused him to inwardly laugh at his own irrationality. He had never felt something like that before and it almost drove him mad.

Somehow Die managed to move backwards on the bed, dragging the other along and never breaking the kiss they were sharing. He wanted more contact, needed to feel the other's skin against his own. For the moment it seemed to be the most important thing in the whole world.

Kaoru moaned into the other's mouth as his arousal brushed against the still cool skin of Die's thigh by the movement. He wanted to take it slow, to sample the feeling of closeness, the heat between them and the rising need as long as possible. The fact, that he now could openly show his want, was allowed to look at the other without the need to conceal anything quickened the beat of his already racing heart even more.

Initially the younger man had had similar thoughts, wanting to savour the moment as long as possible and just enjoy being together. But at this point already all rational thoughts began to flee his brains, as the need was building up and all he could think of was how much he wanted the other man.

Leaving the other's lips, Kaoru planted a trail of soft, wet kisses along his jaw, the side of his neck until he bit down near the collar bone tentatively. With his hand, he fumbled for the top drawer of his nightstand, thinking they could still go on savoring each other chastely like that later, guided by the need between his legs.

As soon as Die felt the other's teeth on his skin, he had to close his eyes tight, groaning lowly. His fingers drew random patterns along the other's back and upper arms, fingertips only barely touching the skin.

The reaction caused goosebumps to appear on Kaoru's skin and he repeated his action, this time biting a bit harder. His hand in the drawer didn't find what he was seeking and finally, he turned a bit to have a look.

It took a few seconds before the redhead realized the other had turned away. He had to swallow hard before his voice was balanced enough to get the short question out. "What?"

The answer didn't come right away for the older guitarist was busy rummaging through the content of the drawer, finally opening the other drawers as well. "No rubbers," he gave away with a frustrated sigh.

"Oh." Die blinked a few times to gain a clear thought. "I don't have any with me either."

Desperation was seeping into Kaoru's thoughts and it was very well audible in his voice as well. "This can't be happening..." Suddenly, he grinned again, having the perfect inspiration. The thought of getting up and just buying condoms never even crossed his mind. "You always use rubbers? I mean really always?"

The younger man arched an eyebrow, looking at the other with a look that told he didn't fully comprehend where he was heading to. "Yeah..."

"Me too," the lead guitarist nodded contently. On some level, he couldn't believe what he was suggesting, but the rational part of his mind had said its good-byes a long time ago already. "Then we're clean, right?"

Now the redhead nodded slowly, his lust-filled brains slowly understanding what this was all about. "Yeah."

Kaoru bowed his head to look the other directly in the eyes, their faces only divided by millimetres. "Two options: We trust each other or we stop now."

Wordlessly Die tilted his head so that he could initiate a deep kiss. After it broke he looked at the other again, shaking his head slowly. "There's no way in hell we're gonna stop now."

A relieved sigh resonated in the air as the older man let all the air escape his lungs at once. "You speak my mind." He crawled back to his former position and grinded his hips against the other's in a teasing slow manner.

It caused a low groan spill from the younger's lips, as he arched up against the other. There was something in his mind though, and he grabbed the other's head to re-create the eye-contact. "Do you have lube?"

That question resulted in hysterical laughter from Kaoru and he shook his head. "I don't think so. You should've given me an advance notice that you're willing to fuck again. Then I would've been prepared."

"You should've given me an advance notice and I would've brought some." Die couldn't help but chuckle, his voice something between amused and desperate when he spoke. "But it won't work without."

In an annoyed gesture, Kaoru reached for his nightstand again and snatched a bottle of hand lotion. He looked at it questioningly and then dropped it again. "Contains perfume. Would burn nastily."

"Gosh, why does this have to be so hard?" The younger sighed frustratedly. He was far from calming down though, and absent mindedly drew patterns on the older's sides with his fingertips.

Kaoru wore a pondering expression, rummaging through his brain for a solution. Finally, he got a hold of Die's hands. "Don't. It distracts me from thinking and I might run the risk to just forget about it..."

Die sighed again, allowing his head to fall back against the mattress. "If it takes that long I mightn't even care if you forgot about it." He knew though that if they just skipped the lubrication it would seriously tear apart the one who got fucked, and would effectively prevent all walking and moving the next days.

Kaoru knew that as well. To him it was perfectly clear that he would top and he didn't want to hurt the other. Besides, it would probably prevent all further sexual activities that way either. "Die, you're the one with experiences here. I could offer cooking oil maybe or .. I dunno, butter?" he suggested, blushing a bit due to his lack of ideas.

"Well, this far I never had to use anything else but the real stuff." The younger sighed for what felt was the hundredth time. "Maybe cooking oil or then lotion without perfume. I dunno, would shower gel or something work?"

This talk was far from arousing and the older man felt the excitement slowly leaving him. That however didn't mean he was willing to just leave it at that. "That contains perfume too." He shook his head and when the comic in the situation came to his mind, he had to laugh again. "But maybe we'd make some nice bubbles." He bent down, pecking the other's lips shortly before he forced himself to get up. "I go to the kitchen and see what I got."

Die grinned, although he wasn't sure whether he wanted to laugh or cry. "Just hurry. And make sure you have some solution when you come back."

Waving his hand annoyedly, Kaoru rushed out. "Yeah yeah. And you make sure you're not going anywhere." In the kitchen, he opened every cupboard, searching for the oil. Not being a great cook, he had only lived on takeaway food lately and thus wasn't sure if he had something that would do.

Meanwhile the redhead simply focused on trying not to be too frustrated, as everything seemed to be against them. When they had finally overcome their insecurities and had a perfectly romantic and exciting moment going on, something like this happened and tried to ruin it all. He was almost ready to try anything, as long as the other man would just come back.

The door had almost fallen shut, but now was kicked open and Kaoru appeared in the frame. He wore a huge grin, waving a small can triumphantly. "No oil, but I found vaseline. That should do, right?" He was so relieved and excited again that he didn't care for the awkward situation anymore. All he could think about was to finally get it on with the other, to feel him and to prove him that he would never want anybody else again.

"Perfect!" Die's expression brightened instantly, as he turned to look at the other, grinning widely. "Now get your gorgeous ass back here and we see where we were."

Grinning, Kaoru turned his head around to take a look at his own butt. "It's not bad, isn't it?" Without needing any further invitation, he launched on the bed, coming to rest right next to the redhead.

Swiftly the younger man rolled over, until he was lying on top of the other, pinning him down against the mattress. "It's just perfect, trust me."

The feeling of Die's weight upon him, his scented warm skin against his own, quickly brought back the excitement to the older man as if it had never been gone. Smirking, he ran his flat palms down the other's back until they were resting on his butt, squeezing a bit. He bent up, catching Die's lips in a hungry kiss.

With a pleased small growl Die answered to the kiss, grinding their bodies against each other as best as he could. Thankfully they seemed to be able to restore the moment as quickly as it had been destroyed, and now the younger man swore he'd let nothing interrupt anymore.

The friction sent a pleasant shudder through Kaoru's body and he used the grip he had on the other to repeat the action. The feverish kisses they were sharing only fanned his lust and it didn't take long until he felt like he couldn't bear the sweet torment any longer.

After one particularly long kiss they had to part for air, both seriously panting. Regaining the ability to speak Die pressed his forehead against the other's grinning down at him. "You taste good, did you know that?"

Smiling, Kaoru shook his head and licked his reddened lips, the other's taste still lingering there. "No, I didn't. But I can only return the compliment." To emphasize his seriousness, he tilted his head and dragged the tip his tongue along the younger guitarist's neck seductively.

The touch made the redhead shiver, and his smile widen even more. He practically purred, enjoying the moment whole-heartedly. The interruptions and problems were like washed away, as he didn't even remember those anymore, all that mattered was the current moment.

With a soft chuckle, Kaoru flipped them both over again, using the moment to grind their hips against each other forcefully. The moan it caused to roll off his own throat only stopped his actions momentarily and he went on licking Die's neck, this time moving down instead of up.

Die arched up against the other, trying to get more friction he needed desperately already. As he realized he was now pinned under the other, he immediately tried to flip them over again.

Kaoru used the movement and simply rolled further until he lay on top again. Luckily, he owned a king-size bed, enough room for them to move. Kissing the other man's chest, he slid between his legs, impatiently parting them with his knees.

A frustrated sigh left Die as he noticed he was lying against the bed again, with the other on top of him. "Kao, be fair. You fucked me the last time too."

"Yeah." The addressed rose his head and smirked widely. "And it was good. So good that you couldn't stop thinking about it. Don't they say never change a winning team?"

"We could try the other way as well? What if it's even better?" Die couldn't help but to smile though, as deep down inside he really didn't care about who would top. He trusted that this wouldn't be the last time, and therefore there would be time to try everything imaginable later on.

The smirk still in its place, Kaoru nodded. "Might be." He placed a small peck on the tip of the younger's nose. For him, this little see-saw was just a game, meant to tease and to cover his nervousness about being bottom. He simply wanted to enjoy this time, because he had been so inhibited during the first. "I tell you something. Be a good boy now and spread your legs for me and I'll do the same for you later."

With a small sigh the redhead did as he was told, parting his thighs for the other. "You better be serious then. I'll take that as a promise."

"It is a promise," Kaoru winked, finally able to sit between Die's legs comfortably. "Although...."

"Although..?" Die arched an eyebrow, frowning at the other.

"Although you might be too exhausted when I'm done with you," the lead guitarist stated self-confidently. He let his fingers dance down the redhead's chest, his belly and lower stomach, stopping shortly before reaching his groin.

The younger man allowed his eyes flutter shut, and concentrated only on the soft touch. "Then we only need a bit time to recover. No big deal." He grinned, shifting a bit so that he was lying comfortably.

Kaoru smiled, very slowly moving further downwards, touching the other's arousal with his fingertips only. That moment gave him time to enjoy the sight of Die's flushed face, his lust-blurred features and his smooth pale skin almost shimmering in the dim light.

Die gasped at the touch, his mouth falling slightly open as he weakly arched up. Each touch the other gave him managed to send pleasant waves through him, and he just concentrated on imprinting all of those in his memory.

Die looked so invitingly, so irresistible, that the older man forced away his own need and desire for the time being and planted a row of firm, wet kisses on his hips and his belly. Finally, he gently bit the warm flesh beneath the other’s navel.

It caused a shudder to shake the redhead, as he again arched up slightly. His brains had completely shut down by then, since he tried to steady his laborious breathing a bit.

For a few split seconds, Kaoru hesitated, first looking at the younger man's face then at his arousal. Swallowing, he wet his lips making up his mind. Of course, he had never done that before but it only felt natural that he wanted to please his friend, now lover. Slowly, he slid his tongue along the other's length, from the hilt to the tip.

Die's eyes shot open, and a loud groan escaped from his throat as the laces of pleasure shot through him suddenly. He couldn't help it, and subconsciously bucked up from the mattress in the need for more, his breaths seriously ragged now.

The vibrations his noises caused went straight to the older man's groin and made him shudder. It willed him on to get more of that and he closed his mouth around the tip, whirling his tongue around it, absent-mindedly caressing the Die's sides.

This time the younger man didn't groan, he screamed out loud as he was taken by surprise. He squirmed under the other, the divine feelings coursing through him, but only being enough to drive him mad.

Kaoru placed his palms on Die's hips to prevent him from moving too forcefully into his mouth. He wanted to set his own pace and once the at first odd feeling had ceased, he actually enjoyed providing the other with pleasure like that. Slowly, he moved his head down, the scent and taste that were closing in on him touching something unknown in his innermost.

The redhead whimpered weakly, trying to move but failing since the other held his hips so firmly. He grabbed the sheets, pulling forcefully, desperately trying to remain sane.

In the attempt to make the other lose his mind, Kaoru began to increase the speed of his movements and sucked lightly, creating a pleasurable low-pressure. He kept on massaging the loose skin with his tongue, bringing up his hand to stroke the part he couldn't cover with his mouth.

Throwing his head from side to side, Die pulled the sheets even more forcefully, feeling the pressure inside of him reaching the unbearable soon. He knew that if Kaoru would go on like that he wouldn't be able to last longer, but he could do nothing but whimper and squirm in ecstasy.

Kaoru knew very well when to stop though and shortly before the younger could reach the peak, he withdrew his head. Only then he remembered the vaseline he had brought and searched for it with his eyes. It still lay beside Die on the bed and the older man quickly opened it, spreading some of the sticky substance in his hands. Without giving the other time to recover, he pushed two fingers inside him. To distract him from the odd feeling, he offered small licks on his arousal, enough to keep him busy.

A few disappointed whimpers left the younger man as the other withdrew, and he even yelped slightly as he felt the Kaoru's fingers enter him. He concentrated on the touches on his arousal and on every single pleasant feeling, trying to forget the odd feeling inside him.

All this was very new to Kaoru and the excitement about it sped up his heartbeat until he felt in his throat. It was tempting to just finish the younger man like that, to have him writhe and squirm under his touches and kisses. Although he wouldn't have wanted to admit it, he enjoyed every single thing he did as much as Die. Tentatively, Kaoru closed his mouth again around the other's hardness, tasting the first salty drops of cum on his tongue.

Die groaned, almost sounding relieved as the wet heat closed around his arousal again, adding up to the enormous heat inside that seemed to burn him alive. He was only inches away from release, and again tried to move his hips upwards to get more of the feeling.

Kaoru allowed the younger to move as he wished, but withdrew his head a bit in order not to get choked. Time and time again, the brushed his tongue across the sensitive tip while moving his fingers deeper inside the other. His breaths were becoming more and more laborious and it was hard to get enough air through his nose, but he hardly noticed it.

Suddenly every single muscle of the younger man tensed as the climax hit him forcefully. He cried out, arching up from the bed forcefully when the pleasure coursed through him, making everything else leave his mind.

Gratefully Kaoru swallowed his release and even licked away the few drops that had been spilled. After withdrawing his fingers, he sat up, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. He couldn't resist to place a kiss on the younger man's parted lips, sliding his tongue inside.

Tiredly Die answered to the kiss, the pleasant feelings still lingering in him. As the connection between their lips broke, he only smiled up at the other. "Thank you."

Mirroring the smile, the older guitarist nodded. "Welcome." Slowly, the smile changed into a grin. "But I'm not done yet."

"I know." The younger chuckled slightly, slowly gaining his consciousness back. "But I thought you'd only fuck me."

"Only?"

"Come on, you know what I mean." Die chuckled again, reaching up to kiss the other shortly.

Kaoru was still a bit out of breath, but now had to giggle as well. "I do. And actually I only wanted to do that at first." He tilted his head, his expression dreamy. "But you tasted too good."

The answer was yet another chuckle and the younger man shook his head. "Don't make me blush now."

Lowering his voice to a husky whisper, the older man replied. "No, I will make you come again." His still painfully hard arousal had made itself known and demanded attention. Without losing time, Kaoru took a bit of the vaseline from the open can and smeared it on his need. The soft touch alone caused him to sigh and close his eyes for a few moments.

Only the sight of the other's features like that made Die's heart beat faster already. He shifted a bit, parting his legs even further to give the older man more room between them, offering himself completely.

Unable to wait longer, let alone catch a clear thought, Kaoru grabbed Die's hips to steady him, burying his whole length in one swift movement inside. The hot tightness that was engulfing him along with the madly clenching muscles, that tried to adjust to the intrusion, caused him to groan lowly.

A pained sound left the younger's throat as the pain shot through his lower back. He forced himself to relax though, concentrating on the other's warmth and the expression of bliss on his face. Somehow to know the other was enjoying himself made relaxing easier to him as well.

Somewhere in his lust filled mind Kaoru found the will to open his eyes. He saw the pain written across Die's features and although he felt like collapsing any second, he managed to breathe out the one word he needed to ask. "Stop?"

Die shook his head, offering the other a faint smile. "Go on. It'll be alright." The pain was indeed slowly fading, making way to more pleasant feelings.

Tentatively, the other did as he had been told and moved his hips, keeping his eyes locked on the younger man's features to make sure everything was alright. The friction, however, made Kaoru moan and he subconsciously picked up the pace a bit.

The younger man closed his eyes for a moment, for his breathing was slowly growing irregular again. Suddenly the other hit the exactly right spot inside of him and made him groan out loud and he felt himself grow hard again, the pleasure overriding all pain that had ever been there.

That was all Kaoru had needed to believe that Die was enjoying himself too, hearing his moans and feel him quivering beneath him. He let his hand glide from the other's hip to his thighs and pushed them up, enabling him to reach deeper, take him harder.

Die's senses had left him again, as he could only live for feeling. He tried to meet the thrusts, to grind against the other to force him in as deep as possible, the feelings simultaneously almost too much and still not enough.

Kaoru was panting heavily, his body moving on its own accord. The pleasure seemed to be of another world, almost unreal and impossible to seize with his rational mind. At one point, he couldn't tell if the moans, groans and sighs were erupting from his throat or the other's and as he felt himself nearing the edge quickly, he pushed one hand between their bodies, intending on helping Die to find completion together.

As soon as the other's hand reached his arousal Die groaned loudly again, and when Kaoru happened to thrust in particularly deep only a split second later, groan turned into a feral scream. He didn't know anything, his whole consciousness had simply left him as he was being brought closer and closer to the peak.

Electric waves of pleasure were running through the older man's body over and over again. Each reaction he elicited from the other was pushing him higher. It was different from their first time, better, because it wasn't only lust but love and both of them were allowed to admit it. Though at that moment, neither of them were aware of that fact, passion drowning out every rational thought.

Die's muscles were spasming on their own, since he had long ago lost all control over himself. He only had to take what the other gave him, and try to breathe in between. Then finally he reached the desperately needed release, his whole being tensing violently, even more forcefully than the last time, the blinding pleasure drowning out everything else from his world.

The increasing tightness provided more friction, adding a sugary sweet pain to Kaoru's thrusts. It was more than needed to push him over the edge and the orgasm washed away his consciousness like a tidal wave. He felt his own hot seed fill the younger man and that alone caused him to moan one final time before he collapsed, unable to move for the time being.

The redhead couldn't move either, nor did he want to. He simply tried to breathe, enjoying the way the older man was resting upon him, as this time he knew he wouldn't just run away.

Still lost in the blissful aftermath, Kaoru had to voice his amazement in incoherent words. "Gosh ... you are... this was ... gods!" After inhaling deeply a couple of times, he managed to pull out and dropped back on the other, trying to get as much skin on skin contact as possible.

Die only chuckled, lazily wrapping his arms around the other. "Go on." His breathing was still laborious, but he managed to still sound almost normal. "What am I?"

The older tilted his head upwards to look at him. "Sexy," he gave away with a shrug, sounding casual. "And fucking tight." The smile that slowly spread on his face could've perfected the sun and the glimmer in his eyes gave away how good he felt.

"I take the latter as a compliment as well." The redhead mirrored the smile. He honestly didn't know when last he had felt this good, and he just wished he had confessed everything to the other earlier already.

"You bet it was." The older guitarist nodded eagerly and rested his chin on the other's chest to be able to look at him without the effort to hold his head up.

Die sighed, only smiling at the other for some moments. "To tell you the truth, I wouldn't mind staying here in bed for the following week."

"Well," drawled Kaoru, "it's our free week, so we can do whatever we want." Backing himself up with his arms, he brought their heads at the same level, his hovering above the other's. Coltishly, he pecked Die's lips a couple of times. "We can order food, unplug the phone, switch off the doorbell and just enjoy ourselves."

"And then pay for the new door as our friends come looking for us and kick their way in." The younger man laughed, placing one a bit longer kiss on the other's lips. "I bet they'd be worried if we both disappeared, seeing that they probably think we hate each other now."

"We make a picture with my mobile and send it to them. That should prove them wrong and shut them up," Kaoru suggested smirking. He couldn't resist the temptation to kiss Die deeply again, being irrationally happy that he was allowed to do so.

"A picture?" Die laughed as the kiss broke. The bubbling joy inside of him made all tiredness vanish, as he simply leaned in to kiss the other once again.

"A picture!" Kaoru nodded and took a deep breath after they had parted for air. "Of me kissing you."

"Then they'd only think we lost our minds." The younger man sighed, looking at the other with a soft glimmer in his eyes. "But I wouldn't mind."

Suddenly filled with new energy, the older guitarist jumped up and ran into the living-room. After less than 10 seconds, he reappeared with his mobile phone, again launching himself on the bed. Without giving Die the opportunity to protest, he gave him an open-mouthed kiss, holding the phone so that he could take a picture. Instantly after pressing the trigger, he pulled away and looked at the result. "Well, one doesn't see too much. They can guess what it is and I write they should leave both of us alone for the week."

"Are you really gonna send it?" Die grinned, looking at the picture thoughtfully. "Maybe they won't recognize us..?"

"The red hair is clearly visible," explained the older man patiently. "Shall I?" He felt like doing stupid things, filled with bubbling joy.

"Go on." The other nodded enthusiastically, laughing softly. "And remember to tell them not to disturb us."

Quickly, Kaoru typed a short message. 'Yep, you see right. Don't disturb us. Gone on a one week holiday' He giggled at the imagination of their bandmates' puzzled faces when they saw the picture. He showed the message to Die, waiting for his confirmation.

The answer was a nod with a wide grin. "Perfect. Now go on, send it." The younger man practically bounced up and down.

Smirking, Kaoru sent it to their three remaining bandmates at once. "Shall I now leave the phone on or quickly switch it off? I bet they'll all try to call us instantly." Chuckling, he placed a sweet kiss on the other's lips, waiting for an answer.

"You can decide." Die tilted his head, circling his arms around the other to hug him tighter against himself. "If you want to explain to them how there's no threat of me being cranky when we go on working, then I'm fine with it."

"I prefer to work on killing all crankiness that has ever been there." Winking, the older guitarist switched his phone off and dropped it somewhere beside the bed. Just at that moment, his conventional telephone rang and it made him giggle. "Second thoughts, I think I can answer their questions right now as well."

"Then go, and return to me swiftly and we can see about working on removing crankiness." The younger man laughed, nothing being capable of smothering his good mood right now.

Laughing, Kaoru did as he was told, got up and went to the living-room to pick up the phone. After a few minutes, he returned, grinning. "Kyo wants to have a word with you." With having said that, he tossed the phone over to the redhead. "Hey you old fag," their vocalist greeted Die, but his tone of voice made clear that he was only mocking him.

"Hey to yourself." The redhead chuckled, eyeing the older guitarist while speaking. "What made you want to call?"

"See, I got a strange picture sent on my mobile and it came from Kao. I was so hypnotized that I had to call." Kyo giggled and shook his head. "So no awkward moments of silence anymore when we meet and no grumpy Die all day?" Kaoru meanwhile climbed on Die's lap, a wide smile stuck on his face.

"No awkward moments of silence, I promise. And no more grumpy Die." The younger guitarist assured, smiling so widely that the grin seemed to break his face. "Unless I'm too aching."

The last sentence caused Kaoru to chuckle and he bent down to speak into the headpiece. "No worries, I make sure that won't happen." To tease his the younger guitarist, he moved a bit against him, rolling his hips slowly. "Spare me the details!" Kyo said quickly, laughing as well. "We'll talk on Monday in a week."

"Yup, we will. And you can give the information to Tosh and Shin if needed. This'll be the last phonecall we take." Die grinned widely, leaning to kiss the older guitarist as soon as the sentence ended.

"You bet I will." Kyo had the feeling he was disturbing and the noises that were reaching his ear made him blush, knowing the two guitarists were kissing. "Die, you still there? .. Die!" But he received no answer and finally hung up, shaking his head disbelievingly.

The redhead had turned his attention completely towards the other man on his lap, concentrating on enjoying the kiss.

When it broke, Kaoru pressed his forehead against Die's, looking at him with sparkling eyes. "So, I guess I'm ready now to fulfill my promise." Giggling, he hugged the other firmly, flipping them over until he lay beneath him.

"You don't have to if it's too much all suddenly." Die smiled down at the other. But he couldn't deny that the words made his heart beat a bit faster already.

"Yeah, it came way too suddenly," mocked the older man, still laughing softly. "Like I didn't spend the past weeks imagining how it would be..."

"Well then," The younger man bent down, pressing a line of kisses on the other's neck before whispering into his ear. "Let me show you."


**********